when trust breaks

Larissa POV**

The sun was already high, striking gold rays of light, in my room. I was in front of the full length mirror, straightening up the fabric of the emerald gown that I was supposed to put on during the Moonlight Harmony Ceremony. It was now almost a month since I had been received as a Luna, and, in spite of the shades of the past still remaining, the atmosphere between Xavier and me had become quite gloriously harmonious--even sweet. He was more than my friend.

I never saw him smile so much as he did in the last weeks. And he would gaze at me as though all the light his world ever needed had come to me. That was enough to make me feel that all those pains endured by me were worth it.

This was a special ceremony tonight. It was a solemn ceremony in which the Alpha and Luna came into the full moon to bless the pack. I had heard it referred to by the old ones as the night when destinies are matched. I was in awe of whether or not I was always destined to be here, but now I felt as though I had a place.

There came a knock.

I turned. “Enter.”

An unfamiliar young man entered--tall, with his head bent in good style, respectfully. In his hands he had a piece of silk rolled up.

“I was sent by Alpha Xavier to bring this. He said you should put it on. It was made for you specifically.”

I knit my brows. “Really? He did not say so when I saw him this morning.”

I was summoned in distress. “He told me to see that you put this on before the ceremony.”

There was something wrong with his tone, a little bit too practiced, and I dismissed it. And I took the dress, smiling. “Say to him that I thank him.”

He nodded calmly and turned to leave but stopped mid-way. “Do you mind if I help you unzip the gown you're putting on?”

I hesitated at first, “yea just the zip please”

Has he tugged down the zipper, I felt slight sting on the side of my neck just like bee sting. I gasped and tried to turn around but my limbs are already weak. The room swirled, color became blurred and the man faced was the last thing I saw.

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I woke up feeling tired, the air was still and my limbs become heavy like it has been tied down to a rock. I blinked In this dark light. It's too late, it about two hours after the ceremony.

Then suddenly I became conscious of my body, I'm naked. Wha..what happened?, where I'm I?, How did I get here? Then the thoughts of came back to me the knock, the dress, the man and the sting. Ohh what has happened, tears filled the corner of my eyes as I sat up on the bed, pain surged in my chest, my heart pounded in my rib-cage trying to make out the meaning what has occurred.

“Xavier”.... I wishpered. These are thoughts going through my head as two of Xavier guard came in through the door and stood frozen.

“What the hell…” one of them shouted but the other quickly grab him and cover his mouth with his hand silencing him.

He moved closer to me and said “Luna what has happened here?”

The question cut through my spine like a dagger, how do I make them believe I know nothing about what has just happened, this I'm still trying to find answers to when a tall elegant figure appear by the door.

Xavier.

With his gazed fixed on me….

The stare stings more than the needle,

“Xavier I swear I didn't know…”

“Don't..” he snapped

“Take her to the cell..” he didn't let me finish

“Xavier you have to trust me, I didn't do this, I don't know how I got here” I shouted but all fell on a deaf ear.

My heart shattered. Who could have done this, how could this have happened. These questions lingered in my mind as I was dragged down the hall to the cell.

The cell door clang behind me. I stood with my legs trembling as the face of Xavier replay on my head the looks on his face– a flicker of doubt appear in his eyes at first but was subdued by the fury burning right inside him.

I flooded my knees to my chest, I was shivering pathetically as my teeth gritted over one another.

Did he believe all this? Is it that easy for him to believe despite all we have shared together lately. He has to believe me.

I couldn't stop the tears rolling down the side of my cheek, I stared at the celling of the cell and let myself feel the coldness of the ground where I sat.

The new Luna now a prisoner of the pack. The thoughts hurt deep into my skin I could feel it cutting down my flesh hitting my bones.

I thought about the shame, the disgrace coming. But who could have planned this.Someone who could have done this somehow wanted me ruin and looks like the person is winning.

As these thoughts was ragging through me, I tried to make peace with one thing–my fate.

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The cell had the odor of damp stone and corroded metal. it was moldy, sharp and acidic, with a trace of old blood that made my stomach rumbled

I didn't sleep a wink through the night, eyes opened, I stayed through the night hoping just one thing–he’d show up and come to comfort me and tell me he believed me and trust me but he never show up.

They all believe I did it.

My thoughts was interrupted by the loud clang of the cell door and I looked up as Xavier guard motioned for me to stand up that Xavier wanted to speak with me outside the cell.

Could it be that it's happening, relief came over my face as we moved out and I caught the sight of Xavier standing across facing me. I wanted to run and fall right into his arm but the gaze and face he put on tells me I shouldn't try it. I stopped right in his front trying to look for his sympathy gazed but found none.

This isn't Xavier, the man that once told me sweet words weeks back, the man that told me I was his world and he'd love me more than anything. The man is gone and all I could see is a man ready to tear me apart and rip out my heart and feed it to the wolves.

This is a different person. A different Alpha.

Cold fear washed over me, my knee quivered.

His voice landed on me like an heavy metal

“I'm not going to repeat myself,” his voice came out cold “why did you do it?”

I stared into him trying to find the man who had promised me love.

I tried to speak but my throat felt like it's has been blocked. I tried to find the words but it keeps failing me.

“You know I have never thought you could be so heartless to do this– against me, against the pack.” His words came out and landed on me like whip that cut my flesh.

I tried to move closer and touch him but he moved backward telling me don't ever… this broke the last string of hope in me. “I didn't do it Xavier” the words finally came out cold betraying me.

“You think I will be dumb enough to believe your filthy lie?” He snapped.

“Well I will leave it for the council to decide your punishment” he said “but I don't know if I can ever believe you” he sparted.

“Xavier please” I mumbled.