LOGINChapter One Hundred-six[ The wounded heart]According to the mistress superior, "Now I discovered that I was already driving in the wrong direction and I needed to make a U-turn till I found the correct road leading to the city.,that is really absurd!" Ericka ignores her visions of Jesus in favor of following the superior's instunauations to keep quite.After collecting payment for all the antique jewelry that Ericka had gathered from the ashes of the elderly nuns' corpses inside the cemetery, the superior brought Ericka into the food chain. Ericka was unaware that the superior was putting her fortitude and naiveté to the test by forcing her to confront the dreadful grave yard basement located beneath the nuns' sleeping quarters in the former ancestral home.However, Ericka was still unable to comprehend what the mistress superior wanted her to. At the dinner table one Sunday morning,“As a result of working too much for her training, Ericka began to encounter things beyond reality.
Chapter One Hundred-five [ The paranormal ]The nuns were unable to comprehend what Ericka was attempting to say since she was gasping for air. "Hello, Ericka, please speak to me in my native tongue as I find it difficult to understand you."The nuns advised Ericka, "My dear, you go and rest," after she spoke in the language of the foreign nation. "I still have a lot of things to take care of, and I am the only one who can. do it.Dont worry,we will bring these difficulties to the attention of our supervisor. Okay.” Ericka walked away from the nun, sobbing in a mixture of doubts and sympathy.Afterwards, when Ericka is by herself, she is attempting to understand the situation by asking, "What's wrong with them? It seems that they put up with my companion's negative attitude and disregarded my request for justice. My companion punishes me for doing good deeds in private, which is unfair. All I wanted was to please her. But why does she become enraged over what I did?"Since then, Erick
Chapter One Hundred -four [ The difficulties on training]After a month of vacation and a period of acclimating to a new environment, Ericka always feels alone, even though her face appears so serene and innocent.She can't speak well, but she always has a smile on her face. There are already a lot of candidates from various nations, and Ericka felt shy around them because they seemed so assured in their linguistic interactions.Her friends become quite amiable with the other foreigner, cracking jokes and speaking candidly. In contrast to Ericka, who lacks confidence due to her group's constant accusations that she is a covert spy for the nuns, they are quite confident in their defense of their rights.Until one time one candidate from the other group misunderstood her and she reported Ericka to the superior whispering,” She is ignoring her work and letting me handle everything while she stands by and observes me, mother superior.”Ericka remained composure and didn't react, letting
Chapter One hundred three[ The phases of formation]Ericka goes on to describe her responses to the mother superior's interview: "I told myself, this is the life I want to live with God. My heart longs for His. And it is like waking up my entire being, making it impossible for me to resist any longer, Mother Superior.”Adding "when I discovered this church." I wanted to get to know our Lord, talk to Him, and grow closer to Him in this sanctuary, but I have to pray alone to avoid idolatry and public attention. I trust that He will shape, fit, and prepare me for something that aligns with His higher purpose. And I know that I must be open to learning a lot of new things to grow and be prepared for His greater purpose. I am passionate about praying constantly in addition to applying the lessons I have learned from my public service in a humble and submissive manner.Ericka stops when she is at a loss for words.Abruptly, “All right, kid, get ready now. “The superior says."Mother Superio
Chapter One Hundred-two [The initial reaction]She was still able to attend the spiritual retreat for free in the mountain region. Another man had shown interest in her and was willing to marry her, but she avoided him until she returned to the lowlands.She stopped interacting with everyone in the group and hid inside the convent. Her parents recently learnt that she is no longer employed as a catechist due to her need to remain secure within the convent. Ericka is content to compose a lengthy letter and deliver it to her cherished parents.Her parents responded to her letter brought by her older brother Willie, who frequently travelled to the countryside, by saying, "We are no longer worrying of your safety and security because we leave all to God, trusting you under His loving care, Ericka our beloved." She had assumed that they would be enraged, but when she went to see them, they all had happy faces.But it wasn't enough to convince her, and she continued. She even sent a messag
Chapter One Hundred One [ The temptation ]Ericka is experiencing internal conflicts as she attempts to discover her new personality. .”My previous college coursework seems insufficient to claim that I am a self-satisfied, fully developed, and mature person. All pertinent information was provided to me, but the fundamental principles of social, psychological, and spiritual development—all of which are essential in all fields of endeavor—were overlooked."Adding,"I find that I need additional experiences and training workshops to improve my dull personality after encountering rejection and carelessness in the social interaction and job application fields. However, given my family's high expectations of me, I lack the confidence to tell them the truth.”Ericka is going through an identity crisis and has found that the only way to fully develop her personality and interpersonal relationships with the world is to adopt a religious life. Ericka learnt to grant others’ rights and priorities







