ログインThe morning after the burial I could still smell the dirt and sadness in the air.
I stood in the training yard with Damon next to me. The pack was spread out in front of us. Not everyone showed up. Some were still hurt. Some were too angry or scared.. Over a hundred people came. Warriors, a few omegas and some older teens who looked both excited and terrified. They wanted to train with the White Wolf. They wanted to learn how to survive the attack. I felt sick to my stomach. “You’ve got this " Damon said quietly. His hand brushed mine once before he stepped back. "Just show them what you can do. They need to see you. Not be afraid of you." I nodded,. My throat felt tight. Yesterday I tore out a man’s throat with my teeth. Today I was supposed to teach people how to fight beside me. My life still felt unreal. “Alright " I said, stepping forward. My voice came out steadier than I expected. "I’m not going to pretend I know everything. I only started shifting a days ago.. I’ll show you what I can do and we’ll learn the rest together." Rafe grinned from the front row even though his chest was still bandaged. "Show us the light again!" I took a breath and reached inside. The wolf answered now. She was always close to the surface. White light flickered under my skin soft at first then brighter. I didn’t go shift. Not yet. I just let the power glow around me lighting up the yard. Some people gasped. Some stepped back. Marcus, standing at the back with his arms crossed didn’t move,. His eyes narrowed. I started simple. I showed them how the light could blind an enemy for a second. How it could make me stronger and even in human form. Then I shifted. Controlled this time not the explosion from before. White fur rippled over me. I stood tall on four legs than most of the wolves in the pack glowing softly. Damon shifted too his big black wolf moving to stand beside me. We ran through drills together. How to fight as a pair how to share strength through the bond how to protect each other’s blind spots. The pack watched first then started joining in groups. It was messy. Some warriors were hesitant to get too close to me. Others pushed hard trying to prove something. Lila surprised everyone by asking to train with daggers of shifting. She was fast and sneaky. Rafe was strong but reckless. Marcus watched everything with an expression but eventually stepped in to spar with Damon. By midday everyone was. Exhausted. I shifted back. Sat on the ground breathing hard. Damon dropped down beside me shoulder pressing against mine. “You’re doing good " he said quietly. "They’re starting to see you as one of us." “Some of them " I muttered, glancing at Marcus. "Others still look like they want to put a collar on me." Damon’s jaw tightened. "Give them time. Change is hard for people who’ve spent their lives believing one thing.” We sat there watching the pack train in groups. The bond between us felt warm and steady today like a river. Every now. Then I felt a soft pulse from him. Worry, pride, love, all mixed together. Later when the sun was high and most people had gone to eat or rest Damon pulled me away from the yard. We walked in silence to a hidden clearing deeper in the woods. One of his secret spots. A little stream ran through it the water clear and cold. He sat on a rock and tugged me down between his legs, my back against his chest. His arms wrapped around me from behind. I leaned into him letting out a breath. “I keep thinking about yesterday " I said quietly. "The way you looked when that blade hit you. I thought… I thought I was going to watch you die there." His arms tightened. "I thought the same when I saw you bleeding. When that bastard got close to you." He pressed his lips to the top of my head. "I’ve never been that scared in my life. Not even when my father died. Not even when I took the Alpha title. Losing you… that would break me Isla.” I turned in his arms so I could face him. His eyes were dark and raw. No walls. No Alpha mask. Just Damon. The man, not the title. “I’m here " I whispered. I touched his face tracing the line of his jaw, the scar there. "I’m not going anywhere. Not without you." He leaned in. Kissed me. Slow at almost careful. Then deeper. Hungrier. Like he needed to taste that I was real and alive. We didn’t go further than that. Not today. We just. Touched and breathed each other in letting the bond hum between us. Every brush of his fingers felt like a promise. Every soft sound he made when I kissed his neck felt like love. “I love you " he murmured against my lips. "I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of saying it." “I love you too " I whispered back. "Even the parts of you that still piss me off." He laughed softly the sound vibrating through his chest into mine. "Good. Because I’m still an asshole sometimes.” We stayed there for a time. The stream bubbled quietly beside us. Birds moved through the trees. For a while the war felt far away. It wasn’t. When we finally walked back the mood in the pack house had shifted again. People were quieter. More tense. Rafe met us at the gate with a face. “Scouts came back " he said. "More tracks. Bigger force this time. They’re maybe two days out. Maybe less." Damon’s hand tightened on mine. “Call a meeting " he said. "Everyone who can fight. Tonight." Rafe. Ran off. I looked up at Damon. "We’re not ready." “We’ll get ready " he said.. I could hear the worry under his words. That night the great hall was packed again. This time there was no hesitation when Damon and I walked in. People made space for us at the head table. I sat beside him our hands still linked under the table. Marcus spoke first. "We can’t win a war. Not against this many. Not with the numbers we have." Some people nodded. Others looked angry. I stood up slowly. “Then we don’t fight a war " I said. "We hit them hard. We use what I am. The light. The shift. The bond. We make them regret ever coming for us." Rafe grinned. "I’m in." More voices joined him. Even some who had been doubtful yesterday. Marcus looked at me for a moment. Then he gave one nod. “I’ll fight " he said. ". If this goes wrong it’s on you, White Wolf." Damon started to growl. I squeezed his hand. “It’s on all of us " I said. "Together.” The meeting went on for hours. Plans. Strategies. Who would guard what. Who would stay with the children. By the time we finished my head was. My body ached again. Damon and I barely made it back to our quarters before I collapsed on the bed. He lay down beside me pulling me into his arms. “You were strong today " he whispered. "In the yard. In the meeting. Everywhere." “I’m trying " I mumbled, already half asleep. “You’re doing more than trying " His lips brushed my forehead. "You’re becoming everything I didn’t know I needed.” I fell asleep like that. Safe in his arms the bond warm, between us, the weight of tomorrow pressing down but not crushing us yet. The war was coming. Tonight we had each other. For now that was enough.The days after the ritual felt really normal which was almost worse than all the things that happened.I woke up every morning with Damons arm around me his breath warm on the back of my neck and for a seconds everything felt okay. The bad thing inside me was still there a little knot behind my ribs but it was quieter now. Weaker. It did not. Give me bad dreams every night. It just waited. It whispered to me when I was tired or angry or alone. It said mean things that sounded like my thoughts.They are watching you. Waiting for you to make a mistake.Damon says he loves you. He will see the bad person you can be eventually.I tried to ignore it every time. I focused on Damons heartbeat. On the way his fingers touched my skin when he thought I was asleep. On the connection between us that felt stronger since the ritual like our love had made some of the bad things go away.The bad thing inside me was patient.The fighting outside our walls was not.We spent the week getting ready. We t
The decision to do the ritual happened fast. We could not wait anymore. The seed was getting worse. It did not wait for me to be tired or distracted. It spoke to me during the day in the middle of conversations while I was eating while I was training. Sometimes it was a cold feeling. Sometimes it was a voice that sounded like mine saying things I did not want to think about. They are all waiting for you to fail. Damon says he loves you. He will leave when you become something he can not control. Why fight for people who never fought for you?I started waking up in the middle of the night with my hands around my throat like I was trying to stop the whispers from coming out. Damon would wake up with me every time pulling my hands away gently holding me until the shaking stopped. He never got angry. He never looked at me like I was broken. He just held me. Whispered that he was there that I was still me that we would beat this.. I could see the fear in his eyes when he thought I was not
The seed was taking over.I could feel the seed every second now like a second heartbeat that beat just a little out of rhythm with my own heartbeat. The seed did not shout at me anymore. The seed whispered to me. Constantly. The seed made suggestions that sounded almost like my own thoughts. The seed told me that the people around me do not really trust me. The seed said that they are waiting for me to fail. The seed asked me why I fight hard for people who spent years wishing I was dead.I started avoiding the people around me.During training I kept to the edges working alone or only with Damon. In the hall I sat quietly eating fast and leaving early. Even Lilas worried glances started to feel too heavy for me. I smiled at Lila when I could. The smiles felt fake to me stretched too thin.Damon noticed everything that was happening to me.He did not push me at first. He just stayed close to me. His hand was on my back when we walked. His arm was around me at night. He gave me kisses
The seed did not give me any peace. It followed me everywhere now. During training the seed was there. While I was eating the seed was there. In the quiet moments when I tried to steal a few seconds alone the seed was there. It was always there like a pulse under my own heartbeat, cold and patient and whispering things I did not want to hear.I started avoiding mirrors because every time I caught my reflection my eyes looked a little darker. Not the warm brown I was used to. Something sharper something hungrier. I told myself it was exhaustion. The pack was still. We were training harder than ever. Sleep was rare and broken.. Deep down I knew it was not just that. The seed was changing me. I could feel it.One evening I was alone in the clearing behind the pack house trying to meditate like Mara had suggested. The air was cool. The sun was just beginning to set, painting the sky in soft oranges and pinks. I sat cross-legged on the grass. Closed my eyes focusing on my breathing. In, ou
The next few days were a blur.We kept burying our dead. We kept fixing the walls. We kept training until we were too tired to move.Every night I fell asleep in Damons arms. I tried not to think about the thing growing inside my chest.It felt like a darker heartbeat.It started small.I felt a spot behind my ribs. A quiet chill that wouldn't go away.Damon held me close. It didn't help.Then it spread.Little tendrils of darkness made my wolf restless.She. Growled, even when there was no threat around us.Sometimes I stared at nothing.I got lost in memories that didn't feel like mine.I remembered fire. My moms voice.My dad casting a spell with his breath.I didn't tell Damon how bad it was getting.Not at first.He knew.Our bond told him.One night after a day of training we lay in bed.The room was dark except for the moonlight.Damons arm was around me.His chest was pressed to my back.His breath was warm against my neck.His hand rested on my stomach.He moved his thumb in
The next few days were a blur.We kept burying our dead. We kept fixing the walls. We kept training until we were too tired to move.Every night I fell asleep in Damons arms. I tried not to think about the thing growing inside my chest.It felt like a darker heartbeat.It started small.I felt a spot behind my ribs. A quiet chill that wouldn't go away.Damon held me close. It didn't help.Then it spread.Little tendrils of darkness made my wolf restless.She. Growled, even when there was no threat around us.Sometimes I stared at nothing.I got lost in memories that didn't feel like mine.I remembered fire. My moms voice.My dad casting a spell with his breath.I didn't tell Damon how bad it was getting.Not at first.He knew.Our bond told him.One night after a day of training we lay in bed.The room was dark except for the moonlight.Damons arm was around me.His chest was pressed to my back.His breath was warm against my neck.His hand rested on my stomach.He moved his thumb in
I woke up way before the sun came up. The room was still really dark no moonlight, a weird gray light coming through the curtains. It was like this light was too afraid to be. Damon was sleeping next to me lying on his back one arm thrown out like he owned the bed. His chest was going up and down s
The yard felt all of a sudden. It was like the fences were closing in on us Damon and me. Damon let go of me. His arms just dropped to his sides. It looked like it hurt him to stop touching me. His hands were shaking a little like he did not know what to do with them if they were not on me.I took
This stupid skinny stripe of sunlight snuck through the curtains and fucking punched me right in the eyes. I let out this sad, whiny groan thing and flopped over like a dead fish on the lumpy piece-of-shit cot Damon had basically hurled into the corner last night. “Protection,” he’d grunted, like
The forest just… stopped. After they vanished back into the shadows, nothing moved. No breeze. No bugs. Nothing. Like the whole place was holding its breath, waiting to see if it was really over. Isla was doing the same. Everyone was hurting. The pack shuffled across the grass, dragging or carry







