Don't Go Easy On Me

"Come here then", she said then offered a hug which I accepted.

 I hugged her tightly while my tears are still streaming down my cheeks. For a moment, it seems that I felt comfortable with her even after what I’ve been through in this house.

 "Just let it out for now", she calmly told me and pat my head.

 I just cried until I haven't noticed that I fall into a deep sleep on her shoulders. When I woke up, I saw Miss Portia placing a tray of food on the bedside table.

 "Miss Portia, I'm sorry if I hadn't helped you with some of the house works today. I fall asleep unintended. Don’t worry, I’ll make it up to you” I explained with the puffy eyes I got from crying.

"Don't worry about it, Avery. I can handle it and you need to rest. Here, take this food before going back to sleep. And Devin is looking for you but I told him that you're sick and badly need to rest. Just talk to him whenever you feel alright already", she told me with a smile.

 "I really appreciate it, Miss Portia. Thank you so much", I replied to her and hugged her once more before she went out from the room leaving me behind, thinking the next steps I should be taken moving forward.

…

 "Miss Portia, I want to see her in this instant. I just have to tell her something very important", I can hear him pleading to Miss Portia outside our room.

"Sir, I told you a while ago. She is terribly sick and was requested to take a rest for now. Let's just give some peace to her for a while", she answered him calmly.

 "This could be my fault, Miss Portia. I could be the reason why she isn't feeling good right now. My conscience is digging me up deeply. So please allow me to pay her a visit just for once", I can sense the regret in his voice but what he'd done to me was terrible. I'll be serving him a good lesson.

“Well, let me check her for a moment. Just wait in here while I do that, sir,” she answered him.

“Thank you so much, Miss Portia. I really appreciate it.” He answered with a hopeful voice which is truly evident.

Miss Portia went inside the room and looked at me meaningfully. 

“Would I allow him?” she asked while standing near the door.

“I can’t still face him, Miss Portia. What he did was truly childish and insensitive. He must learn a lesson from it.” I told her with calmness in my voice.

She nods and gave me a smile before going back outside the room.

"I'm sure that she will be delighted if you will give her peace at this moment. Let's just leave her with some peace for now, sir", she added and I think she had successfully persuaded him since I can hear the footsteps going away and slowly fading.

 My hatred to him is still there. He made me a fool and he might be thinking that all the women he laid his eyes on will fall on their knees and beg for some attention from him.

He is a very self-centred man that doesn't know how to decently ask a woman out. But remembering that night with him in the garden, it made me shiver for a while.

 I hate to admit that I felt great partly on what he did to me that night when I first met him, because I can't see and I can't feel that exact man in this house anymore. Maybe he was just too drunk at the party which made him extra romantic. My thoughts are stirring until I fall into a deep sleep again which could be the effect of the medicine that I took a while ago.

The next day, I'm already dressed up when Miss Portia came back into our room.

"Do you feel better this time?", she asked me with a smile.

 I just nodded and smiled back at her.

"Yes, Miss Portia. I'm feeling good already that I can start scrubbing the bathroom floors again", I told her jokingly

She laughs and taps my head lightly.

 "Let's get back to work then", she said with a smile before leaving the room.

I let out a deep sigh. This mission is getting harder day by day. I had stayed here for a week already and I haven't touched the base of my plan yet.

God knows how much I really want to give up on this mission but I'm thinking about my father and the children in the orphanage I am funding right now. They are the reasons why I keep on going. I don’t want to fail them.

 I can't imagine those kids scattered in dangerous streets to survive and end up without any bright future that lies ahead of them. So, I better keep going. Let's get the real party started!

"Good morning, Miss Portia. Good morning, Avery", Devin greeted upon making his way to the kitchen.

 I never dared to look at him and just get myself busy with what I am doing. There was a silence that I can just hear his footsteps going back and forth in the area. I felt that he stopped near me but I didn't even glance a bit.

 "Hi. Uhm...", he was uttering and I really find it hilarious since I'm used to his egoistic side.

"Avery, can I have a word with you?", he asked me in a low and calm voice.

I still ignored him and just placed the plates in their places while walking past him.

"Avery, please. Stop ignoring me", he begged with a tone that sounds like he is almost giving up on persuading me.

I want to control myself and not to get distracted to give in this easily but the silly part of me is doing the spiteful one. 

"We can just talk here, with Miss Portia", I told him without looking at him still.

"I want to talk to you in private. Please...", he begged once more.

"No. I'm quite busy as you can see and I'm not being paid here to do nothing.” I added with a firm tone in my voice.

 "Look, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be hilarious at that time in the pool. I'm meditating under the water when you dived in front of me that I don't know how to react on it", he explained and I can feel his deep stares at me.

 "But you just let it happen after all. When you saw me struggling in pulling you up, you should have stopped. But you didn’t. You never cared on what could possibly happen after that incident", I briefly answered him.

"Yes. I’m sorry. I just had a clear thought on that and I regret what I did. Please. Do accept my apology, Ave", my ears rang upon hearing the name that he used to address me.

 I can't hold it off anymore that I gave him a deadly glare.

"First, you knew that I dived and tried to save you there thinking that you're drowning. It is quite impossible if you can't figure it out since I did let you out from the water and even pumped your chest. Are you dumb?” I haven’t noticed that my voice is raising already.

“Next, you don't have the right to call me ‘Ave’. I only let well-mannered and decent people to call me that. I'm not accepting your apology at all. What you did was a really horrible and inconsiderate thing. And you just don't know how worried I am that time", I told him before leaving the area as quickly as I can.

I can easily tell that he was flushed and dumbfounded upon hearing those from me. But I guess he fairly deserves such punishment and everything is going smoothly as how I planned it to be.