ANMELDENWhat?"
I repeat—this is my third time saying ‘what’. I am certain I resemble a parrot, yet if that is the case, shouldn’t they change the contents coming out of their mouths?
"Haaaa....what exactly are you saying what to, Agent?"
The deputy commissioner asks, bringing forth his irritation. If ‘Director Heinrich’ weren’t here, I am certain he would have made a comment about how my being an omega is affecting my comprehension skills.
At least I don’t look like an onion, I guess.
"It's simple, Agent Sinclair. I apologised to Director Heinrich about what our organisation attempted to do, but he understood our mission and offered to help with the case."
"So what I am hearing you say, Deputy commissioner, is that our military unit, the one that serves to protect this country, has offered an apology to a known arms dealer, making a mockery of-”
Before I can finish my hastily spilling words, the chief’s warm hand lands on my shoulder, squeezing my flesh warningly.
"Are you questioning me, Agent Sinclair?"
"I-"
Again, the hand on my shoulder tightens its grip, forcing me to swallow my words.
If not for Chief Owen, I’d have been killed twenty times over by the sketchy higher-ups.
A chill in the room forces everyone's attention to Heinrich, whose eyes seem stuck on the hand on my shoulder.
"Ap- I apologise, director. Agent Sinclair is our only omega in the unit, so he gets carried away easily."
Something flickers in Heinrich's eyes before his lips turn downwards in distaste.
"Is your hand heavy? I can hold it for you."
The chilly words were spoken without a trace of humour, and it took us all about a full minute to figure out the words were meant for the chief.
"Excuse me?"
The chief asks, his hand unconsciously squeezing me as the tension in the room grows.
"I asked if your hand is so heavy that you have to place it on your omega agent's shoulder. That is sexual harassment, right? Let me hold it for you. I am an alpha like you, so it’s fine."
"My agent doesn't seem to mind.”
Chief Owen responds.
Huh? What the hell kind of childish discussion is this?
"Chief Owen, please."
The deputy commissioner warns; his forehead looks greasier than usual. I wonder which politician he upset with this mission. Did he not think when he insisted on it?
Then again, the elections are close; he was probably thinking with his bank account.
The mission was a success in the way that matters. The virus was uploaded, so our team should be able to hack their servers. By all accounts, we should have Heinrich by his b*lls by now, but instead…this?
"The hand."
The deputy commissioner reminds, and with a reluctant sigh, Chief Owen’s hand drops from my shoulder.
"I am only an agent."
I say, suddenly feeling a headache come in.
I've only been in the country for three days, and I already want to leave, maybe even switch my branch of operation so I don’t have to see Heinrich.
F*ck, Maya.
I know Heinrich refused to meet her, and she was blacklisted in all his companies because she went there too often to beg him to see her, so she should be fine if I leave again, right? He still won't meet her, right?
He won't feed her false hopes, right?
She’d never agree to leave the country with me because she still wants this crazy f*ck in front of me. If she agreed, I would never have a reason to return here.
"I will leave the main talk to the heads; I'm due for my break anyway.”
I finish, drawing a clear line by asking them, albeit politely, to have their discussion in a boardroom and not my infirmary.
"No, you are the main task force for this mission."
This mission?
I frown at the deputy commissioner’s words.
"Deputy commissioner, agents don't leap from mission to mission; They are given at least two weeks rest, especially if the agent is injured."
"You are more than capable, believe in yourself."
Didn't this f*cker keep saying omega this omega that? What the hell?
"I-"
"In any case, the mission is easier than any you have done before. Director Heinrich will only accept you as the lead; I will let him explain the mission-"
"But inevitably, the choice of following through is Agent Sinclair's, right?"
Chief Owen interrupts, and silence follows his deep voice.
The deputy commissioner doesn't reply. He only scratches the back of his neck uncomfortably, while Niklaus Heinrich only smiles.
"I want you to find the person in my company responsible for dragging my name into the world of human trafficking."
Niklaus says, as if ‘moving on’ from the earlier posed question.
"Oh? Human trafficking? I take it that's a line a murderer of your calibre will not cross?"
Heinrich shrugs at my pointed insult before continuing with his instructions.
"For that, I will allow you to act as the acting janitor of my building."
What?
"The culprit is probably in your staff. Isn’t it better if I am an ordinary office worker promoted to the section of the person you suspect as the ringleader?”
I ask, but he only smiles.
"I thought so, too, but when I saw you in those blue overalls….”
His light blue eyes rake my body.
“Well, let's just say that cleaning up after me suits you..."
Huh? What the hell?
Ah...my blood pressure.
"I refuse."
I answer almost immediately.
"Really? So the deputy commissioner here will have to pay for the damage your virus did to our system."
"I'll give you a promotion. "
The deputy commissioner says desperately.
"I want to retire. "
I respond.
“Fine, I will permit it.”
The greedy commissioner says.
Agents only retire in their late-thirties and mid-forties unless you are Heinrich and you pull a reverse card by being the very enemy they are fighting, and oh...I don’t know, having billions of dollars that can buy you the law. Agents cannot retire before their age range.
The espionage unit takes advantage of agents at their prime; the pay is high, so no one complains, but the dark side is that even PTSD cannot get you excused; if a regular agent leaves their post before they are dismissed, they are marked as treasonous and will most likely be hunted down.
I finished paying off my parent's debt, sending Maya to school and paying for her house and our family home—I want to rest now, maybe get married and grow old with a sweet beta woman.
"I need that in a contract."
I answer the deputy commissioner.
"Done; I will process it tomorrow."
"Good. Now that everyone is happy, I-"
"Also, add that this mission will not last more than three months from the starting date, and if ‘Director’ Heinrich visits any of my family or friends without my knowledge or permission, the contract is immediately void, and I shall return to my post.”
“What are you-”
“I am not negotiating on this.”
Maya is my life.
As if sensing my seriousness, the deputy commissioner turns to Heinrich as if to say ‘the ball is in your court’.
“I understand.”
Heinrich answers before the deputy commissioner sighs in relief.
“Now, everybody leave. We should talk, Lucien. Mission details. You know… now that we are partners again.”
Heinrich says with a cold smile, and I feel my intestines coil in disgust.
“Right, chief, let's excuse them.”
Chief Owen frowns at the deputy commissioner’s words but after a reassuring nod from me, he leaves but gestures that he is right out the door.
**
It's been five minutes, and still, Heinrich hasn’t said a word.
It's getting awkward.
Before I can break the silence, he strides to my side, his hand cups my chin, and his thumb strokes my lip.
What the hell is this?
I try to fight his hold, but he cups my chin forcefully.
“Don’t turn away from me.”
His thumb presses the wound on my lip until the taste of iron fills my mouth.
It hurts, but I will be damned if I let myself wince.
“You are still acting like a wounded kitty that doesn’t even know where it hurts. When will you ever grow up?”
His thumb, now wet with my blood, releases the wound and instead presses against the corner of my lip that is raised in a sneer.
“You make me want to break you further, Lucien.”
He releases his hold on me and my body jerks from the force of the sudden release.
He places his thumb on his mouth before his tongue darts from his slightly pink lips and laps up the crimson blood staining the tip as if it were melted ice cream.
Crazy f*ck.
The car ride back is silent; of course, it is, given our last argument. Hell, we argue every time we are in the same room, every time we speak.My gaze watches the streetlights melt away.The only thing I would like now is for the driver to play some sappy music; then I’d actually feel like I’m in a music video.“Did you kiss him back?”“What?”The question is so abrupt that I need to double-take.“Did you kiss Noah back?”“Of course not, what kind of question is that?”“Did you want to kiss him back?”“The-….”I stop myself because I don’t know how to explain that Noah didn’t even ‘mean’ to kiss me to someone with a jealousy feature turned on max.“No.”I simplify my answer.“Did you enjoy it?”“I thought I answered no?”His hand lashes out from the side, seizing the hair at the back of my head, but despite his aggression, I know I can pull away.“Open it.”“What?”“Your mouth.”“No.”“Open your mouth, Lucien.”My breath catches in my throat because despite his commanding tone, resig
Music seeps through the balcony doors and the people inside laugh, but the space between us is so silent that I can hear my heartbeat.The words ‘he didn’t kiss me’ caress my tongue, but Niklaus did not mention kiss in particular, so if I bring it up… his suspicions will narrow.“Answer me, Lucien.”The words are quiet, so quiet that for a second, I wish he had shouted instead.“Niklaus, listen-”“Then tell me what I want to hear.”His scent presses closer.My body wants to lean into it, but my mind wants to run. That combination leaves me wide-eyed, like a deer against headlights.As if reaching the end of his patience, his gaze scans the walls, so I follow, and my eyes land on the security camera a second later than his does.His steps begin abruptly, forcing my hold on his wrist to tighten.“Wait!”“What am I waiting for, Luci? I just want to see how much my beloved husband has drunk today.”“I am not proud of drinking, so just leave it.”“What do you mean, ‘not proud’? What does y
“I should go.”Noah says, as if sensing something beneath the pointed stare.“No.” I say before thinking.“Stay.”Niklaus laughs softly, a sound that sends me on guard.“My…”Niklaus drawls.“The love of my life sure is generous to everyone but me.”He finishes in a tone that sounds playful but feels otherwise.“I’m going. Let me.”Shame washes over me at Noah’s firm words that were barely a request and more a plea not to ‘drag’ him into anything that would threaten his ‘freedom’, just because I did not want to deal with Niklaus alone.“Go ahead.”I answer finally after clearing my throat, and he turns away to use the second balcony door, away from where Niklaus stood.“The love of your life?”I ask with a mocking laugh, but Niklaus only cocks his head.“Did I use that phrase wrong?”His tone is genuine; somehow that makes it worse.“I was speaking with the vice president of Clear Motors, and he said he had to leave the party early because the love of his life was giving birth. I ask
The sweet taste of grapes and the lingering aftertaste of alcohol fill my mouth as a soft tongue invades.My eyes fly open, locking with Noah’s as he intentionally presses his body against mine.“Sto- mph.”My words are crushed entirely by his mouth that pushes for deeper contact.Unlike Niklaus, the second I push his body away from mine, he nearly doubles over, forcing me to hold him in place by his thin waist.Before today, I had never noticed how frail he is.I almost forgot what it’s like to have strength over another person.“Are you crazy? What the hell was that?”“There is no such thing as a free meal-”“I am not going to ask you to have sex with me in return, you moron; your idea of breakfast has wine in it. You are obviously depressed; having sex with you is like taking advantage of a child.”The words leave my lips in quick succession, but his frown only deepens.“I don’t want anything for free. Who knows when you’ll get tired of acting like Mother Teresa and cast me out in
Niklaus’s gaze rests first on the soft dominant omega before shifting to his father and letting out a smug smile.“Don’t do that, Dad; you’ll suffocate your grandchild.”My stomach drops the same time his father’s jaw does, and a wave of silence ripples through."My... what?"The older man asks as if the most sardonic thing in his statement wasn’t the use of ‘Dad’.“Surely you know what happens between a married couple? Or have you lost your …functions in your old age?”Niklaus asks, his deep voice dripping in sarcasm.A vein burst through his father’s neck, but what surprised everyone was the small, confused voice of the omega next to him."I thought the spouse was a beta?"It didn’t seem as if his words were targeted at anyone specific, but the horror on his face was too pronounced.My gaze lifts to a familiar pale head of hair vanishing into the corridor. From a mile away, I can tell that it's Noah.Shit, not only did I take his place next to Niklaus in the public eye, but the anno
The way she called my name changed. It was the slightest change in intonation as fatigue crept into her bones, but I noticed.I noticed a lot.How she stopped eating to grow thinner.How she wore tighter clothes to expose her pronounced bones, as if screaming ‘look at me’.When that didn’t work, she turned to looser clothes.Perhaps to hide what she had become.She first held her tongue, then her breath, before she began to drown in red wine, all to keep from suspecting Father’s late nights.The night her suffering had reached its crescendo, he brought home a child.His child.Whom he conceived while she starved herself for sleep in the name of being the ‘perfect wife’.“It was rut... I had no control; you have to understand.”His excuse…And flimsy as his words were, they moved like bullets that pierced through her heart.I saw my mother die twice in one night, only to resurrect and birth a child she did not even conceive.*"Lucien."My eyes flutter open, and for a moment the lights
"Your alpha?"I repeat the words that were thrown at me so carelessly; if it wasn’t for the tears teetering in her eyes, I would have pushed her body aside and walked to a hotel.What the hell does she mean by her alpha? I almost died on the day I fought Heinrich after he betrayed me.He was my forc
Niklaus Heinrich‘Disgusting.’That was the first thought to fill Niklaus's head as he passed Lucien's sister, whose desperate green eyes watched his frame as he returned to the car."Nik...Nikky!"She called to him using his nickname, a nickname that he had only permitted Lucien to use, but he nev
"Ow... gently, Maya."I fuss at my younger sister as she holds my head to examine the bandages tied tightly."What the hell were you doing? How did you get this banged up? You are good at fighting, aren't you?"She asks, her brows furrowed so low that a crease forms against her make-up.My forefing
The pale blue eyes that seem to stare into my soul widen in surprise before another, more sinister emotion covers them."My Luci..."The words are spoken in a deep and low murmur.‘My’? Did he just say… ‘my Luci?’As if mocking my surprise, Heinrich drops the body he dragged on the floor with a lou







