Six- Finding Kiara

Nathan leaned forward one more time to capture Jessica's lips and feel their softness in his when he suddenly stopped mid-way feeling different. 

His wolf, restless. 

A curious frown appeared on Jessica's forehead at his odd behaviour, "What's wrong Nathan?" She asked, reaching out to caress his jaw.

Something felt odd, he could sense Kiara's presence which wasn't possible because it was only he and Jessica in the room.

Or was it?

The room was dim so it was a bit odd to see a shadow reflecting through the door and a brighter source of light reflected into his office from the opened door the shadow of a figure reflecting through it.

The door was opened? 

He turned sharply, walking away from Jessica who was seated indecently on his desk to his door and was met with the last person that should see him in this position.

Kiara. 

She looked lost and was frozen to her feet, her eyes lacking the vibrance they always carried.

He could see brimming tears underneath her lids threatening to fall.

Kiara could hardly comprehend her own emotions, she was somehow lost in them unable to find a way out. The pain she felt wrecked her insides to nothing.

This can't be happening truly, can it? Was she asleep making this one big bad nightmare?

It has to be.

Her heart raced hard against her chest, frantic and scared as she pinched herself to wake up but each time the pain sears from her action, it didn't change anything. Nathan was standing in front of her, his expression holding worry as he stared at her. She glanced at his desk and saw her. 

The woman he was with.

Her green orbs pierced into her own, and a smirk was stained on her lips. "Kiara..." He started softly but she cut him off her hands waving off any explanation.

Nathan closed the door behind her but she hardly cares if it was open or not. Her mind played back to her and Luna's conversation.

"Nate has a mate and she would take her rightful place."

How could she miss it? 

How could she be blind to the truth staring at her in the face?

Keeping her expression blank, she looked straight ahead ignoring Nate's dark orbs resting on her face. 

She was hurting deep within the pain of betrayal eroding whatever she thought they had. 

She thought they mattered, she and Nate. Their love but she was wrong.

"She is the mate your mother talked about," she whispered, realization in her voice as it was unbearably shaky.

"I guess I was never one for this pack, your family and you," she whispered the last part, he could feel the weight in her words, she craned her head to look at him, her eyes boring into his sapphire orbs, he soon averted it. 

The guilt in them was visible.

She wished he was the Nate that still loved her. The one she chased after in the woods days back, the one that kissed her under a waterfall. The Nate that loved her to the ends of the earth and back but he wasn't that Nate anymore.

Nate dropped his gaze to her and surveyed her briefly.

She was dressed up in her favourite gipsy long skirt looking very beautiful, her dark hair in waves resting on her shoulders while her face was lightly made on.

Why was she dressed up for? Her tears glistened in the dim lights radiating from the lamp lights in his office, threatening to fall anytime soon. 

She is the mate your mother talked about. 

His mother told her about Jessica. "Mother told you?" He asked, unsure of what he heard.

"And I just confirmed it." She whispered disappointment laced in her voice, trudging into his office and staring pointedly at Jessica, her eyes catching her undone dress.

Disgusted, she averted her face away from both of them.

She couldn't explain the pain searing in her heart, she felt weak to every cell in her body it felt like her world has ended but she living through it.

If she had not interrupted them they would have been intimate. She wanted to cry so badly but her sobs were choked up in her chest, alongside her breath.

Nate could feel guilt eating him from every corner, Kiara has never looked at him with such disappointment in her eyes and he could see how much suffering this alone is putting her through.

He reached for her hand holding them tightly in his and drawing her close to him, he wanted to look into her hazel eyes but she gazed at everywhere but him.

"Kiara please look at me, please," he pleaded, reaching for her face and cupping her sides causing her to look at him.

"Don't touch me," Kiara said, disgust expressed on her as she peeled his hands off her."I don't need your explanation, Nathan. I would be fine without it. You should have let me know earlier you had no more interest in whatever I believed we once shared-" She paused trying to remove emotions from her voice "So you won't have hurt me in this manner, your mother was right when she said I should go for a severance. I would take her advice." Kiara couldn't believe those words came out of her mouth. Never in her life did she believe she would sever her ties with her mate.

He was everything to her. 

Was... Right.

"Nate would never agree to that and I won't as well." Her words to his mother rang into her ears, reminding her she promised to never go through with a severance but in a few hours so much has changed. 

Everything had.

She can't stay here anymore, it was torture. It felt as though she is punished for the sins she never committed.

Her legs turned to the door and attempted to go by it when long hard fingers wrapped around her arm and drew her back to where she was previously.

She is met with Nate burning orbs, he seems infuriated. The irony.

Was he mad at her?

That was her place, not his."I. Won't. Be. Breaking. My. Bond. With. You," he spelt it out, coldly.

Kiara felt anger burning her insides, the anguish his actions are putting her destroyed whatever authority he thinks he has over her. "I would do that tomorrow in front of the council, the pack, your parents and you." He could feel her words scald into his skin. Those words made him uncomfortable for some reason he can't see himself without Kiara.

Whatever illusions Jessica's return brought were squashed. Jessica wasn't as important as Kiara, their fate as mates weren't the same as what he shared with Kiara.

He closed his eyes dreaming of the woman he wanted by his side, the woman to rule by his side, the mother to his children, the woman he wish to grow old with and it was Kiara.

Not Jessica, how could he let messy attractions of whatever cursed bond he and Jessica shared ruin the real deal? 

Why did he lose the one thing an Alpha is supposed to have? Self-control, now he is lost in this dilemma.

There was this feeling inside of him as her hazel orbs bored into his in anger, she was defying him. It was fear, fear she would go through with Jessica couldn't believe her ears as she heard those words fall off Kiara's lips. 

She would be divorcing Nathan. 

This is like dream but it is real. 

She felt overjoyed, but it didn't last for long when Nathan reacted in the manner he did.

He doesn't seem too happy with what Kiara has decided on but moments ago the kiss and their make-out sessions together implied to her, he was just as crazy about her.

She could feel it, what changed now.

Was Kiara more important to Nathan than her? 

She assumed he wanted to get back with her, what's the need of hiding with your fated mate when you can be with her for real?

Her attention was drawn away from her thoughts to the two, she could see the fear in Nathan's eyes. 

He doesn't want her to break their bonds, but what of her?What importance does she have in Nathan's life?

Was she just an ex?

"Kiara, you don't love me anymore?" He asked, his eyes searching for hers as she averts her face from him.Her retort echoed through the room and she passed a condescending stare at Jessica then back to him, "You didn't think of our love when you decided to cheat." 

"I made a mistake everyone does but I can't afford to lose you because of my poor decisions.

"Mistake?" His voice echoed in her head."I am your mate, Nathan!" Jessica asserted, walking towards him. She has had enough. 

He can't downplay whatever they just shared.

Kiara detached herself from Nathan's hold and watched them, uncertain if she could handle whatever they wanted to say. 

The fact she asserted herself as Nate's mate pointed out there was more to what Nathan let her through."I was your first mate and you are my fated mate, not her. I deserve all of this, to be by your side, to be called your Luna. I was destined to have this position, not her!" She reiterated, her voice a pitch higher than her last.

She was his fated mate? Kiara was dumbfounded at the reveal. She was his mate, really, but why hurt her in the process of getting back to his first mate? Why did he make her fall in love with him all these years? Their love and his presence became the source of joy in her life.

Kiara felt her eyes brimming once more in tears but she kept it at bay. She won't cry in front of him.

Jessica ran her fingers through her blond curls, taking in a deep breath in a bid to calm herself down before she continued."And whatever we shared, was definitely not a mistake," she turns around to face Kiara, her face scrunched up in contempt. "And why do care so much about your relationship with her? She is ready to free you from it, Nathan. She is giving you another chance to correct your errors. She is the mistake, why do you want to continue with it." Her hands reached for his hands, she was clearly agitated holding them tightly in hers.Nathan slowly peeled her hands from his, his voice cold and lacking any emotions, "One last kiss you said, and I gave you just that. I have done my part, Jessica, leave my life and this pack just like you did four years back. I have realized nothing equates to you and Kiara. She is not a mistake but the moon goddess made a big one making us fated mates. "

Her eyes widened with every word he said, disbelief worn on her face. "You can say those things but we know they are not true. I didn't come here to leave Nathan, I came here for you!!!" She screamed, her tears spilling down her face, ruining her makeup as dark tears streamed down her cheekbones.

Nate seemed irritated by her tone, his blue orbs filled with anger gripped her arm and forcedly walked her to the door."Get out! You should leave this night, it's in your best interest." He warned coldly before throwing her out. She stumbled in her steps a bit before stabling her feet. 

Jessica was pained by his actions and his harsh words, as they pierced through her heart and shattered it to nothing just little fragments mirroring the state of her life presently. She was a fool to believe physical intimacy was enough, as long as Kiara was in the picture Nathan would never see her deserving of him. It was her, always her. 

A hybrid stunt has what she wanted always.

With Jessica gone, Nathan felt confident he could convince Kiara not to go through with a severance. It was odd having the two of them together in his office, one was his past and another his present And the tension in the room made it worse.He turned to Kiara, observing her briefly,

"Kiara," he started unsure of where to start. 

She looks at him abruptly and it was enough time to see the pain riddled underneath her orbs, the pain he caused. Then a tear fell from her eyes but she quickly averts her face from him and hurried to the door walking out without a last glance or chance.'Shit,' he cursed and ran after her.