LOGINThe car ride home was thick with tension. Savannah sat up front with Derek, chatting about old times. I almost wished I was as deaf as my daughter, so I wouldn’t have to listen to them giggle and whisper together.
Emma sat with me in the back seat, looking out the window. Her world was silent without her hearing aid.
Savannah twisted in the passenger seat to smile at her. “Hi, sweetheart,” she said. “You must be Emma. You’re so pretty. How old are you now?”
Emma didn’t respond. She couldn’t see Savannah’s lips move.
Savannah’s smile faltered. “I guess she’s shy,” she said, turning to Derek. “Or maybe she doesn’t like me.”
I touched Emma’s shoulder gently. When she looked up, I signed, “Your aunt is talking to you, sweetie.”
Emma turned to Savannah. “Sorry, I can’t hear you,” she said. “My hearing aid is broken.”
“Oh,” Savannah said. “I thought…”
Her voice trailed off, and I knew what she was thinking—that Emma had been ignoring her on purpose.
Derek’s hands tightened around the steering wheel. “Claire,” he said. “You could have told her about Emma’s hearing problem.”
I frowned. “I didn’t think I needed to. It’s not something I announce to everyone.”
Savannah gave a small, dismissive laugh. “Of course not. But it’s important, right? Especially if it leads people to misunderstand her behavior.”
Derek kept his eyes on the road, his voice cold. “She ignored Savannah completely. You could have told her to be polite. I know you don’t like Savannah, but at least try to be friendly about her coming back. And I hope you won’t pass your hate onto my child.”
My stomach turned. “Derek,” I said, struggling to keep my voice steady, “she didn’t ignore Savannah. She couldn’t hear her.”
He didn’t respond. The silence stretched, heavy and accusing. Finally, he muttered, “This is your fault anyway. You should have taken better care of her.”
I felt like he’d slapped me.
Emma had been three when it happened. She’d had a fever. I was at work and hadn’t realized that my phone had died, so I didn’t hear it when the nanny called. She’d given Emma some medicine and everything seemed fine… at first. We thought it was just a cold, or maybe a mild flu.
It was much more serious than that.
By the time I got home, my daughter was burning up again. I rushed her to the hospital, but those few hours had cost her hearing.
I’d quit my job the next day. I felt it was the least I could do. But no amount of love or sacrifice could get rid of the guilt that twisted inside me.
And now Derek, who hadn’t been there at all, dared to accuse me of neglect.
My hands clenched into fists. “Where were you, Derek, when she had that fever? Do you even remember? You said you were working late.”
He didn’t answer.
“I know exactly where you were,” I said, the words spilling out before I could stop them. “You were at the office. With her.”
Savannah whipped around in her seat, eyes wide. “Claire, that’s not fair. Derek and I—”
I let out a bitter laugh. “Don’t bother denying it, Savannah. I’d suspected it for a long time, but today I saw you together.”
Derek slapped the dashboard. “That’s enough, Claire.”
“Oh, is it?” I shot back. “You’re angry because I finally said it out loud?”
He pulled over abruptly, tires screeching. He turned to me, his face hard. “You want the truth? Fine. Yes, Savannah and I are together, as we always should have been before you ruined things.”
For a moment, I couldn’t breathe. My heart was pounding so hard it hurt.
All these years, I had been nothing more than a replacement. A shadow filling the space she’d left behind.
Something inside me broke.
“I want a divorce,” I said quietly.
“You’re being dramatic,” he sneered.
“No,” I whispered. “I’m finally being honest.”
“Claire,” Savannah said. “You’re upset. Don’t make decisions in anger.”
“Upset?” I snapped. “You’re sitting there, holding his hand, smiling in my face and pretending you’re the reasonable one. You think I don’t see what you’re doing?”
“Enough,” Derek snarled. “You’re making a scene.”
“No, Derek. You made this scene. And now you can live in it.” The coldness in my voice surprised even me.
He opened his mouth to reply… And then everything happened at once.
A horn blared. There was the sound of screaming tires, and the car jolted violently.
Emma screamed. The car spun; the world turned upside down.
And then there was silence.
***
When I opened my eyes, everything hurt and I could taste blood. I tried to move and pain shot up my leg. It was trapped in the crumpled frame of the car.
“Emma!” I croaked. “Emma!”
I twisted around and saw her crumpled on the seat beside. I put a trembling hand against her chest. Still breathing, thank God.
Savannah was slumped forward, her hair matted with blood and her arm twisted at an odd angle.
Derek was gone.
Someone screamed outside. “Get back! The fuel tank’s ruptured! The car could explode!”
I tried to shout for help, but my voice was gone. I pounded on the window, but my strength was failing.
Then I saw Derek running towards us.
For a heartbeat, relief flooded through me. He was coming to save us!
But then he ran towards Savannah. He yanked her door open and pulled her out of the car.
I couldn’t believe it. He’d run straight past me and Emma, his wife and daughter, to save her.
Something inside me shattered completely.
My vision started going dark around the edges. I put my arms around Emma as best I could. “This is it,” I thought. “This is how it ends.”
“Claire?”
It was Adrian.
“Hold on, Claire!” He ripped my door open, ignoring the flames that were licking up the sides of the car.
“My leg,” I gasped. “Emma—”
He nodded sharply. “I’ve got you both.”
He reached in, unbuckling Emma and gently lifting her in his arms. Then he came back for me. The pain was excruciating as he freed my leg and pulled me out. He lifted me in a fireman’s carry and ran to the side of the road.
Behind us, a surge of heat bloomed as the car exploded.
We fell to the ground, Adrian shielding me from flying debris. My ears rang and the world blurred into smoke and chaos and distant sirens.
When I opened my eyes again, Derek was kneeling a few yards away, holding Savannah, gazing tenderly into her eyes.
I stared at him and suddenly everything became crystal clear.
There was nothing there to save. Never had been.
And now I could accept it.
I would divorce him. For myself and for Emma.
Somehow, I would find a way to move forward.
Bernard was looking good. His face was leaner and glowing with health. He said Matthew was making him eat healthy and save his drinking for the weekends. He was hunched over a chocolate croissant like a dog over a bone. Healthy food will do that to you.He’d come over because he’d brought some new files he’d “acquired” from his source in the police department. I put his coffee in front of him and sat down. “She wasn’t mentally ill,” he said. “The girl who kidnapped Emma—Dora. She was as sane as anyone.” “Good God, I hope not,” I said.“It’s true! Or at least, it was true. She had drug-induced psychosis.” I could feel the tension in my forehead as my eyebrows went up. “Dora?” “What about Dora?” Savannah slouched in and reached for the coffee. She was still wearing her nightie. It was a slinky silk number, so Victor had probably stayed the night again. “She was a good kid. I was devastated when I found out it was her.”“She was on serious drugs,” Bernard said. “I guess kids can be
Emma fell asleep with her head on my shoulder, her little hand clasped trustingly in mine. That made everything worth it. It didn’t stop my brain from replaying the way the girl’s jaw had collapsed under my blow with a crunch, and the brutal snap that followed. Emma was alive and undamaged. It was worth it.I’d killed a child. A mentally ill child. One who’d completely lost touch with reality. She wasn’t evil. Wasn’t even really trying to harm anyone. Just doing the best she could with her broken mind.Emma stirred. “Daddy?” Her damp fingers clutched at mine.“I’m here baby.” I kissed her forehead. It was worth it. The car came to a halt. We were home. Mrs. Sutton ran outside. She must have been watching for the car lights. “Oh Mr. Derek! I was so worried! It was all over the news—” Her eyes widened. “—And Ms. Claire! Are you hungry? I just made dinner for Mr. Derek, but I can easily whip up something else…” Emma stirred sleepily against my shoulder as I carried her inside. Cl
I walked the perimeter, my hand near my gun and my stomach fluttering with anxiety. The kids huddled together in the soft blue glow of a phone’s light. Many of the younger children were crying. Savannah and her co-director were doing their best to keep everyone calm. Savannah had her arm around Elijah and her co-director was talking softly to everyone. It sounded like he was telling them a story, something to keep their minds occupied.The next time I passed her I leaned down and asked, “Can Rory drive? Do you think he might have put Emma in a car and taken off?”Savannah shrugged. “I don’t know. He’s about fourteen I think? Not old enough to get a learner’s permit. Why are you asking about Rory?”“Wasn’t that Rory? Ethan found a notebook right where he fell at dress rehearsal yesterday. It was full of scary stuff like he was spouting about—” I gestured at Elijah. I didn’t want to upset the boy any more than necessary.“That wasn’t Rory. He’s got a pretty distinctive gait. I don’t kn
I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face, but I could hear.“Help!” Emma’s voice was raw and terrified. Her scream echoed down the dark corridors, bouncing off the walls until it sounded like it was coming from everywhere at once.“Derek, that you? Stay behind me,” Victor’s voice came from my left, low and cool, not out of breath at all.Bastard. My chest was heaving so hard it hurt. Anger and fear for Emma were clawing at my throat. To top it all off, I had to deal with Victor. I was trying to be a better man and let Claire have her chance at happiness.That didn’t mean I couldn’t hate Victor. I hated Victor with every fiber of my being. “Stop breathing through your mouth,” he hissed. His hand clamped on my shoulder with a vice-like grip. I tried to shake him off. “Mommyyy!” Emma screamed again.“Shut up!” Even through the voice changer I could hear the kidnapper’s frustration. There was a sharp slapping sound and Emma screamed again. The sound was abruptly muffled, then foo
There were a few nervous laughs in the darkness, but mostly people sat quietly, waiting for the power to come back on. “Shit,” Victor said. “You carrying?” I couldn’t see him, but I figured he was talking to me. “Yes,” I said. “Good,” he said. “I’m going to check on Savannah.” He slipped silently out of his seat. “What does this Rory guy look like, kid?”Ethan described him, then added, “I’m coming with you. I need to make sure Isabella and Emma are safe.” Derek stood up, holding his softly-glowing phone. “We’re all going.” In the pale blue light I could see Ethan, backpack tightly strapped on, face pale and determined. “Going where?” Bernard said. “To check on Savannah and the kids. Listen—” I beckoned him closer and whispered in his ear. “We think there might be trouble. We found this notebook, it’s very disturbing. Can you call nine-one-one? Ask for Detective Lowinsky.” I handed him the notebook. “Here, give this to the detective when he arrives.” He nodded, his eyes huge
“They finished the autopsy,” Bernard said. “I’ll email you the documents, but I got the coroner’s assistant to explain it to me. Unknown hallucinogens, he said. That cause permanent changes to your brain.” “That’s why he looked so rough and acted so crazy,” I said. “When he was holding Savannah and me he was very sharp, very competent.” “I heard somebody say my name,” Savannah said, bouncing in through the back door. She’d done something new to her hair. It was short and spiky, with bright blonde tips that brought out the blue in her eyes.Victor came in behind her. He was a frequent visitor nowadays. He was still annoyed with me for killing the guy, but he couldn’t argue that Savannah was doing a lot better now.Bernard repeated his information for them, and it sparked a memory somewhere in my brain. “Helen said they found the same thing in those kids they took in at Haven!” I said. “I always thought the cases were related and now we have proof!” Victor’s gaze sharpened. “Can you
I walked back into the ballroom, ignoring the music and the high society donors in their best formal wear. I was looking for a waiter. Spotting one across the room and heading over, I nabbed a glass of champagne and gulped it down. The next glass received the same treatment. Then I picked up a glas
I put my phone down with a loud click. Claire still had me blocked. I’d tried everything. I’d sent a series of increasingly desperate text messages that went undelivered. I’d voicemailed until I could barely talk. No reply. I’d even resorted to that ancient technology, a handwritten letter. It had
I yanked open the front door. “Savannah,” I said. “Claire.” Her hair was mussed and her eyes were sparkling with rage. In the morning light, she was incandescently beautiful. “What do you want?” I was done being gracious, especially with her.“Aren’t you going to invite me in?” she said, moving f
Mrs. Sutton was packing up the last of the vanity, neatly placing Savannah’s expensive skincare serums in a box. She kept her face neutral and professional, but my housekeeper had never liked Savannah. I could see the satisfaction in the way she wrapped the tape around the boxes, sharp and final.







