Gold is fake and real love hurts. But nothing hurts when I'm alone. And you're with me and we're alone. Let me crawl inside your veins. I'll build a wall give you a ball and chain. Its not like me to be so mean you're all I wanted. Just let me hold you. Like a hostage.
* Billie Elish *
The books lied ,the stories were false and I was a fool to think I could find love too.. I was orphaned at the age of five. I remember that day clearly because it was my birthday. Three men broke into the house and shot both my mother and father right in front of me. Sad thing was that they didn't die immediately.
I was left to watch them struggle and choke in their own blood . Tragic ,I know.
At the age of six I was taken into a foster home. That was after my so called relatives had taken away any sort of inheritance I had left and made sure that I could never get a way to claim it back
At the age of twelve I was left at the edge of the forest.I for one suspected that it was one of the ploys of my relatives or maybe they were tired of me. From then on,I had to fend for myself
At the age of thirteen I learnt of the existence of werewolves. I didn't have a choice back then, they took me in, Elizabeth and Ben, the pack's omegas, and became my new family. Despite them being treated harshly by other pack members, they gave me all the love and care
They clothed me ,fed me and even educated me . They gave me one important lesson ,one that I would never forget. Mates. They taught me about mates. Mates were meant to love each other, protect each other be there for one another and finally complete each other
They were wrong
I met Nathaniel when I was seventeen. He was the Beta of the pack. Like prince charming he took me from Ben and Elizabeth and took me to his place. He was like a dream come true.
He was kind patient loving and understanding. He made me feel special and perfect
I miss those days . I miss my old Nate. Everything changed when his sister was killed by hunters.
Honestly she had it coming. Don't get me wrong,I never hated her , despite the fact that she treated me like dirt..
She was dating a hunter's son. Nate warned her severally that he was bad news but she never listened
His eyes that once held pure admiration for me changed into nothing but pure coldness. He blamed me day and night claiming that I was the one that caused her death.
He hated me for being human. He hated me for being me. I tried every single thing to gain his love again . It was useless
Despite being his mate, he never marked me. Wasn't I good enough. I remember the first time he proved me right.
He came home at around midnight with another girl. He never acknowledged me. He went into our room with her . That was the day I gave up on us. Everyday he would come home with someone different.
One of his girls once asked him who I was and what I meant to him.
Trash
I cried that day. I couldn't take it anymore. I broke down on the arm chair as he ravished another girl in the next room.
I tried seeking for help once,from the Luna of the pack. Why did I do it,one might ask, well because she was female and I thought that she would understand,I mean who would want to see their mate with other females.
However,I soon regretted it because instead of helping me,she made things even worse. She claimed that I was being unreasonable and went further ahead to summon Nathaniel, claiming that I was planning to run away.
That was the first day he hit me,I don't think I want to remember what followed after.
I checked the time. 12:05. Nate. He's home. I sighed and opened the door. He pushed me aside making me hit my head against the wall. His new companion, Lera ,I guess, gave me a sympathetic look before walking in
"I prepared dinner for both of you incase you get hungry" I whispered
Fuck, I sound so pathetic
"Shut up human, nobody asked"
His words never ceased to sting. I wasn't going yo cry. Don't cry
"Thank you Andrea ,I'm sure its really nice" Lera answered
"I'll be in the kitchen' if you need me"
I didn't wait for his response. I silently walked away. I heard our bedroom door shut. I tuned out their voices and began to hum. Everything's going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay. I am not going to cry
I lowered myself gently to the ground and leaned on the kitchen counter. I folded my legs and rocked back and forth. I couldn't sleep. The floor was too cold.
I heard Lera's voice . They were having an argument. I listened in
"You can't keep doing this to her" Lera yelled
"I can and I will"
."She did nothing wrong! She's your mate Nathaniel"
"I don't and will never love her, I love you Lera , don't you see that"
Don't cry Andrea. Don't break. Nobody is going to fix you again.
"Nathaniel"
"I am going to prove it to you right now"
I heard the door opening and the padding of the feet on the stairs. The kitchen lights were switched on and my eyes met with his. I didn't look away. I already knew what was to happen.
As funny as it sounds I've been practicing for months .
He pulled me by my hair and dragged le to the front porch outside the house.
"Nathaniel stop it" Lera screamed
I stayed silent. There was no point in struggling. He pushed me down the stairs. I watched as Lera's eyes filled with tears . If she really felt bad for me why couldn't she help me. Why couldn't she save me from him. Why did she still fool around with him even though she knew I was his mate
"I have had enough of you Andrea" he yelled
I spat out blood and crooked my head showing my neck
"I know" I whispered. I couldn't deny what was true.
"You are weak pathetic and you don't deserve to be my mate"
"Go ahead Nate, there's no point of this anymore . I can't do this anymore.. Its over you won"
"Shut up"
"I finally learnt to hate you Nathaniel"
"I Nathaniel White reject you Andrea Everdeen as my mate"
They say rejection hurts like a bitch, though I didn't feel anything ,Nate definitely did. I watched as he balled his fists and clenched his jaw . He was trying to hide the pain. I was sure that his wolf was hurting when I saw his eyes gleam
"Any last words human" he rasped out
"I'm happy for you'
I saw his claws extend and for a minute I felt numb. Something burnt in my stomach. When I saw his hand I shut my eyes. He clawed me. Lera had a mortified look on her face . I remember Lera following quietly behind. I remember Blue, his wolf. I remember feeling shattered too
I pried my eyes open but shut them immediately. Darkness . That's the only thing I could see . I rubbed my eyes twice, I rubbed them again three times. Nothing. That's when I noticed two pairs of bloody red eyes staring back at me.It didn't take a genius to figure out what it was. A rogue. I could see the sickening yellow foam on its snout.Move! Run! I yelled to myself but it was as if my feet were rooted to the ground . It took a step forward and I took one back. I couldn't hesitate anymore. I made a run for it. I didn't know where I was going to though. I didn't know why I was running to begin with. I made the mistake of of turning back. It wasn't just one rogue this time but ten. I pushed forward and noticed that they stopped chasing ,instead they started pacing back and forth.Something wasn't right . Up ahead I noticed three wolves looking directly at me. I must have crossed another packs borders. I had no where to hide nor run. This was it. I was going to die. One of them sh
The house was big. Too big if I may add. Everything seemed modern and new. How long did it take to build this thing? I looked at the wall clock . It was heading to nine. Where was he? That's when the lights went out. One minute I remembered standing staring at the clock and the next I felt air leave my lungs. My back was slammed harshly to the wall and I felt my air pipe constricted.Horrible memories that mainly consisted of Nathaniel flooded my mind.He is not here. He isn't here. This isn't real.Fucking hell Andrea breath.My eyes then met with stormy ocean blue eyes bringing me back to reality. Breathtaking.I meant it literally because I couldn't breath. His grip never ceased , instead it grew tighter. He was storming with rage. I wondered what got him in such a bad mood.I looked straight back into his eyes pushing my fear aside. If I were to die , I wanted my last memory to be staring at those ocean eyes. I smiled and placed my small sized hands on his. He seemed startle
I'm alive.The Alpha didn't kill me, instead he kind of let me stay . One thing's for sure though,this house was lovely.It was a two storied building and it seemed to be in the outskirts of the pack near the borders. Not many people were around this place so it was pretty peaceful. There was a drawing room, a guest room in which I was currently staying in,two bedrooms that I assumed were for his future children judging from the wallpapers and his room that I never managed to get access to .The house also had a European styled kitchen, a training room that was in the basement, a room full of all kinds of weapons you can think of. From machetes to guns and what I assumed to be a torture room , judging from the blood stains on the walls.Totally normal, aren't I right? Note the sarcasm.It's been a week and so far , I'm counting days for me to officially become mad. I mean this alpha guy has been nothing but an egoistic, self absorbed asshat I tried everything I could think of to get
"Tell her that I said no""Luna doesn't take no for an answer,you know that right?"I couldn't believe it. They were literally talking about me as if I wasn't too here. Doesn't my opinion matter?I slowly backed away from them and headed towards the door . That's when a stupid chair came out of nowhere and made me trip. I unluckly if that's even a word, landed on the exact place that I hurt earlier. If that wasn't enough both the alpha and Jaxon turned their attention towards me. The alpha growled.Oh come on, I was the one who got injured not him."Forget what I said Jaxon ,you can take her to her right now"Ok that stung. Was I really unbearable to live with. The alpha's eyes were cold and full of hate. I lowered my head and made an effort to stand despite the pain. Enough of being weak. Enough of being sad. None of them deserve me anyways.None of them could ever deserve me so screw it.To hell with formalities."That's it I'm done with this shit ok"Both Jaxon and the alpha look
As I stood right outside the door of the orphanage,doubt filled my mind. Will they like me? What if it hey despise me because I am human and different from them. I tugged my hair a bit harder than expected . The Luna noticed my struggle and shot me a warm smile."They'll love you dear"she spoke and gave me a gentle squeeze.Her goes nothing. I opened the door and braced myself for crowded and noisy halls but instead everything looked orderly and try he halls were deserted. Where were the kids? I was ushered to a door. Apparently the kids were in one room waiting for me. The Luna had already left leaving me alone.I pushed the door open and what I saw made me speechless. It was the kids but something was wrong....with all of them.The hey looked like zombies. Their eyes hard dark circles and bags and a sickening darkness that made shivers go down my spine.I didn't even want to know what caused their current state,all I knew was that I needed to get them out. From the youngest who l
"Now kids ,as you know , I am Andrea the new manager of this place and of course you as well. I have no idea of what that Grinch , Greta ,did but all I want you to know is that things will be a bit different" That earned a few smiles."Different" one of the kids spoke but then froze.I guessed it might have been an offense when Greta was here. The kid looked like he was going to cry."What's your name little one""Tom" he replied,fear lacing his voice"You know what Tom, come over here" I smiled.He seemed confused and when I took him into my arms and nuzzled my head onto his neck, he gasped but soon melted and finally laid his head on my chest.What happened next was abit humourous. He fell asleep. The children held astonished looks."As I said kids, everything is going to be a bit different. I am going to teach you a lot of things but the most important thing is that I'm going to allow you to be kids again"Whispers broke through the room . I let it happen while little Tom let out s
It's been a month now and so far everything in the orphanage was going quite well .The Luna, Emelda ,would drop by at times in order to check on the progress. The kids had been coping up well ,more staff had been hired and more buildings had been set up.In terms of academics ,the children had really improved according to their various report cards and a kindergarten was opened up recently within the grounds for the smaller kids.The family thing still existed and a lot of the older kids really took care of their selected children . The few that could not were training with the warriors.The bell rang thus meaning that recess was over . I clutched onto my books that I would use and walked into the class.I decided to stick with the younger children because they always made my day."Good morning everyone?" I smiled"Good morning Miss Andrea" they said in a sing-song mannerThey were too cute." So we're going to go through what we did yesterday ok ""Ok ""Let's begin . What is one
Angry and enraged was all I could feel after I saw her. The moon goddess is truly cruel and pure evil .I didn't want a mate, especially not a human one.The thought of her just made me want to punch a wall .Andrea. Her name is Andrea . My wolf found it amazing that we had another chance at love but I on the other hand had a different opinion.She was slow, clumsy and fragile. She was too fragile and she talked a lot.Everyday she would somehow find a new way to just make me angry.She makes me angry and I .... I like it.I thought of sending her way. I thought sending her away would make these feelings go away but it's just made them grow stronger .I passed by her former room everyday and just took in her scent that was already fading.I see her in every corner of the house. I see her in the kitchen doing something stupid as usual.But I also see her making coffee every morning in the kitchen. I see her brushing her unruly hair and cursing at it . I see her talking to herself abo