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I wrote the best poetry of my life during the time I lived with Axel and Minah. It was really the only good thing that came of it.I wrote constantly, nightly, daily, eagerly and fanatically. Most of the poems never saw the light of day. Two of them earned me A's in my Advanced Creative Writing class, and one of them was published in an anthology. The rest were too disturbing to even leave in writing. I ripped page after page from my notebook, tearing the sheets into tiny pieces of confetti, and threw them off our balcony to scatter in the wind, or flushed them down the toilet, or just buried them beneath the trash in the kitchen.Minah and I graduated when Axel still had a year of school left. I began looking for jobs, something that would supplement any meagre income I scrounged from my writing. I applied at publishing houses and newspapers, then bookstores and libraries, then finally got a job as a sales associate at the fine art supply store near campus. My lack of knowledge about

Even having moved, everything was still the same for me. Minah applied for a business loan to get her yoga studio started. Axel was promoted from junior video editor to video editor. I still worked the same shitty job at the art store. Still made almost no money by writing. Still obsessing over Axel, still knew it was wrong, still couldn't stop. Minah suggested getting together at least once a week. I always said yes. At first, Axel was there every time. The more he was there, the more I convinced myself he knew exactly what was going through my mind at any given moment. The more I convinced myself of that, the quieter I became around him, until I caught myself responding to questions only in my mind. "How are things going?" he asked one day. it's going terribly i'm miserable and i miss you There was a long, long pause. "Uh... Cecily?" "Sorry," I said. "I was... thinking. Things are going fine." He stared at me, nodded slightly, and looked to Minah to continue the conve

"...the best wedding party we could possibly ask for. I have to give a special thanks to one of my bridesmaids. Not that you aren't all completely amazing, but, well... Cecily, can you stand up for a sec?"Me?Oh, God. She was going to tell everyone. She knew, she had heard me, and she was going to tell everyone in the room that I was in love with Axel and that I touched myself to the thoughts and sounds of them fucking and that I was obsessed I was a creep I was gross and creepy and weird and wrong and—"Cecily?"I stared at her for a moment, stricken with nerves. Minah smiled gently and gestured for me to stand. I staggered to my feet, shoulders tense, ready to bolt the moment she revealed my secrets to everyone."If you don't know my best friend Cecily Larch, you are doing yourself a disservice. Cecily is the sweetest, kindest, most caring person I know. She's brilliant and creative and an incredibly talented poet." Minah beamed at me from where she stood. "And if it weren't for Ce

He followed me in, lips crushing against mine as soon as the basement door swung shut behind us. Before I could even turn the lights on, he was fumbling with my jacket, pushing it down my arms and I was pulling at the hem of his shirt."Fuck, you're eager," he murmured as I gave up on his shirt and started unbuckling his belt."Is that a complaint?"The response was a hand suddenly gripping my breast, squeezing painfully hard as I gasped against his mouth.We stumbled through the dark basement to my bed, clothes shedding here and there as we undressed each other. He reached for the light when we crossed into the bedroom, but I grabbed his wrist."I like the dark," I murmured.He chuckled, his hands finding the band of my bra and unhooking it."Little bit of a freak, Cecily?""You don't know the half of it."He laughed again and kissed me, grabbed my tits, and pushed his hardening cock against my pelvis.I let him grab me, let him fondle my breasts and suck on my nipples and push me to

It might have just been in my mind, but it felt like there was a moment where the world froze. A beat, a heartbeat, a long beat of processing, processing, processing, turning the words over and over in my mind.baby baby baby baby baby baby they're having a babyBlaine was staring at Minah. I only knew that because I got past the moment first and let out another deranged laugh as I grabbed his forearm."A baby! I can't believe it!" My voice was shrill, shaking, shocked.Blaine recovered as I glanced at him, tearing his eyes away from Minah and grinning broadly."Fuck, dude, congratulations!" He bounded out of his seat and clapped Axel on the back, then leaned down and kissed Minah on the cheek. "Congrats, mama."She teared up and dabbed the corner of her eye with a napkin."It's still early," she said quietly. "Really early. So just... don't tell anyone yet, okay? Just in case, you know, things... happen.""Nothing's gonna happen." Axel's voice was a low rumble and he squeezed Minah's