So Much, For Love

Markus The intense smell of caffeine hit me in the nose like a turmoil and I blinked a couple of times before willing my eyes to open up. When my gaze landed on the clock near my duvet, I instantly shot up from my bed and picked up the coffee that was served. As always, I woke up before anyone and started my routine, morning jog at 4am, gym time at 5, breakfast at 6, then freshening up by 6.30am to leave for office. This is the life I signed up for when I decided I wanted to start a billion dollar company, the success of my company depends on me and I won’t let anyone down. To me, ‘work’ is my first and last priority everything else comes after it, everything except one person, my 5-year-old niece. She is my only source of happiness, every time I listen to her laugh my soul soothes and my mind calms down. I never really liked children, because of their screaming qualities but Emily, she’s different, she is like the rays of first sunsh

LizzyI walk back to my apartment, my thoughts wandering in the direction of the handsome stranger, his striking features and his piercing gaze I wonder how it would feel like to have his soft lips pressed against mine, or at least I think they were soft. Get a grip Lizzy! He isn’t going to come back anytime soon. I reach at my apartment building and sigh, my apartment isn’t anything big but it serves the purpose, living room, kitchen, bathroom and a bedroom, and that’s it, nothing more nothing less. I love my place it’s cozy and comfortable and the best part is, I don’t have to share it with anyone.I heave a sigh of relief and flop on the couch, I think about Mark and his physique and it instantly gets me hot. I walk towards my bedroom and bring out the big guns (I mean the vibrator) don’t judge me, I haven’t had real sex for around 12 months and this is the first time a guy has brought me to the brink of an

LizzyFor a brief moment I thought I was hallucinating but when I blinked and he was still there standing in front of me with a teasing smile on his beautiful face, my heart squeezed. This is definitely a pleasant surprise, and is he teasing me? “Mr. Espinoza? To what do I owe this pleasure?” I say this with a sly smile and he rewards me with that charming grin which usually makes my knees weak. All the sadness I had when he said he had to leave and I thought he wouldn’t come back has been momentarily erased from my memory, the only thing or rather person I see right now is ‘Markus’.“What can I say, I’ll always be there for a damsel in distress, and do you need help with that?” he said, pointing at the heavy trays I was lifting. Honestly, I’m too tired to refuse any help from him so I take it, “I really wouldn’t mind an extra pair of hands” I give him an apologetic smile, I know h

 LizzyHe bought me flowers, he bought me fucking flowers! And I lashed out at him, on what basis? I’m an awful person. I’m focusing so much on protecting myself all the while people are hurting because of me. But the words are out of my mouth now and I regret them already. He has been nothing but polite to me since the very beginning, the anger and hurt in his eyes is evident but he is doing a better job than me to hide it. I need to make this right, I’m not this person “I’m not this person” that is the only thing that comes out of my mouth. I lower my eyes and look down; I am ashamed and embarrassed with my behavior this is not me I’m judging him on the basis of my past when Mark is nothing like him.“I know” Mark says softly and I look up at him in surprise, I’ve been nothing but rude to him and now he’s acting all cute and sweet and making me feel more guilt

LizzyThat was pretty easy, “didn’t you say you hate chocolates?” I ask utterly confused by his sudden change of heart. “Didn’t you hear me? I said I’d do anything for you” oh god! He is giving me that cheeky smile again, this will never get old. ‘Anything for me?’ that is too big of a promise to keep, anyway it is good to hear so I don’t mind, “alright then, why don’t you try this one for me?” I say handing him one of my newest combinations.He takes it and I look at him expectantly, it’s taken almost a month to master this one and if it fails…well…if it fails, I’ll have to try harder. I know Mark is the best choice for this because he isn’t biased, and I can always count on him for honest answers. He took a slow bite and my eyes immediately snapped to his lips, dark from the chocolate and so luscious I had the sudden urge to bite on them but