Bowl of Rice
There were only three of us in the group chat, yet somehow, I was always the one left out.
At first, I didn't think much of it. Life was busy at times, right? Besides, Kendra Thatcher had been my girlfriend for seven years, and Josiah Lehmann had been my best friend for eighteen. The thought of either of them deliberately ignoring me had never even crossed my mind.
Or at least, that was what I kept telling myself.
That morning, I messaged our group chat. "Hey, how about we take a trip to Cedarvale?"
Neither of them replied.
Hours passed, and my message just sat there, unanswered.
…
That evening, Josiah suddenly shared a video of some delicious-looking food in Cedarvale.
"Gosh, it looks divine!" he wrote.
Kendra replied almost immediately.
Just like that, they started chatting away as though my earlier message never existed. Before long, they'd exchanged over ninety-nine messages.
Seeing them so excited, I figured I'd try asking again. "So, are we going to Cedarvale or what?"
The chat went quiet, and neither of them replied.
Something about that bothered me more than usual, so I started scrolling through our old messages.
The further back I went, the more I realized this wasn't anything new.
Just yesterday, I'd mentioned that I was thinking about quitting my job because I was completely burned out.
Neither of them had said a word.
But the day before that, Josiah had posted a shirtless gym selfie, complaining that all his hard work wasn't paying off.
"Oh, shut up. Those abs are ridiculously hot," Kendra had replied.
They went back and forth until midnight, yet the moment I suggested we all grab dinner the next day, the conversation stopped.
The funny thing was, I actually ran into them at a restaurant the following evening. They were having dinner together.
Then, there was the movie Kendra had mentioned last week.
She'd shared the trailer in the group, and Josiah immediately said he wanted to watch it. I chimed in, telling them I'd love to go too.
Again, neither of them responded.
…
A few days later, I casually asked Kendra about the movie.
"Oh, Josiah and I already watched it," she replied, acting like it was no big deal.
Looking back through our conversations, I couldn't believe how many times I'd made excuses for them.
I'd told myself they were busy, that they'd forgotten to reply, and that I was probably overthinking things.
But now, it was painfully obvious.
They weren't too busy to reply. They just didn't want to respond to my texts.
I stared at the screen for a long moment before muting the group chat.
I didn't leave, confront them, or send a long message demanding to know what I'd done wrong. I was simply exhausted from always being the one trying to hold everything together.
…
A few days later, I finally quit my job.
That same day, my phone lit up with a notification from the group chat.
For once, someone was actually talking to me.
It was Kendra.
"Xavier, my mom keeps asking when we're getting married. Josiah's worried about you, too. Why aren't you answering?"
By the time I saw her message, my plane had already landed in Dunridge.
I opened the group chat and typed, "You two seem to have plenty to talk about. I shan't interrupt."
Then, I sent another text. "Cheers to being single!"