Ask Myself What Am I Doing Here Lyrics Novels & Stories

Who am I... What am I...? Those are the question that hidden deep of my consciousness. They are seeping and right now wants nothing but an answer! What really am I?! My head spinning. I can hear the murmur of the winds. They try to embrace me but only worsen my fall. The world I look down are waiting to catch my filthy existence! “No...” I can only thought, screaming inside my head. I shut my eyes, feel the sore of the harsh winds of this sudden departure.

Why can't I remember it? The thunderstorm burst again, making me almost blank for a second. I went ahead, without having any idea what I am doing. I need to run away from here before a storm comes to invade my essence. "What the hell are you doing?" I heard a faint voice, the voice somehow sounded familiar as I have heard it before. Did I? "What do you even think of yourself?" What do I think of myself? What the hell do I think of myself? Who the hell am I?

I hear a moan coming from my head; I feel it comes from within me. "Where are you, where are you, tell me who you are?" I'll end up going crazy; I light a cigarette as I try to clear my mind, but the crying doesn't fade. So, I smoke even faster until I feel my throat on fire. "I can't breathe." "Why do you hurt yourself, Isaac?" "Who are you?" "I don't want to disappear." "Neither do I."

I whisper to myself. The beat drops. I step into the light.

I whisper. What have I done?!

* *What if I'm not strong enough* *To rise and start again? *But then I feel this heartbeat* *Growing deep inside* *And I know I'm not alone here* *No matter what I decide* My hand moved from the guitar to my stomach. Just for a moment. Just enough. The crowd stirred. Whispers spreading like wildfire. *So call me over, call me done* *Call me yesterday's news* *I'll still be here tomorrow* *Living what I choose* *I'm not your phoenix rising* *I'm not your comeback queen*

Dearest behold the distances have gone I'm here I'm here, I'm here, here Dearest behold the distances have gone I'm here I'm here, I'm here, here Dearest behold the distances have gone I'm here I'm here, I'm here, You won't be able to hide I'm that secret You won't be able to forget I'm that gesture If I echo in your heart Then why are you surprised When it comes to your heart I'm the sound for it Listen if you can To the language of heartbeats I'm here I'm here, I'm here, here Beyond borders and helplessness I'm here I'm here, I'm here, here It's just me and only me

Gone before I can place it. “What are you doing here?” I ask, my voice tightening.

Love me like you do, love me like you do Love me like you do, love me like you do Touch me like you do, touch me like you do What are you waiting for? Love me like you do, love me like you do (like you do) Love me like you do, love me like you do (yeah) Touch me like you do, touch me like you do What are you waiting for? I'll let you set the pace 'Cause I'm not thinking straight My head spinning around, I can't see clear no more

I questioned myself. Hopping into the shower, it didn't stop ringing. I didn't quit asking. I poured the water over my head, gulping a little down my throat. I don't know. I truly do not know. ******