Ask Myself What Am I Doing Here Lyrics Novels & Stories

hmmmm sob*sob* hmmmm. Crying my heart out, I just cant do anything right now, I want to go home...hmmmmm I dont want here anymore...hmmmm everytime things keeps getting worst, Amber always there for me...she love me...she makes me feel that, I am the one she loves...now why? hmmmm...why do I need to go back to this pain again...I just escaped...hmmmm I just escaped this...hmmm why? why do I need to be like this...hmmmm sob*sob* hmmmm... While sitting and crying, suddenly someone knock the door.

He was serious. I felt something in my chest as the song started to play, and the video started to play as some people looked at the screen behind me, that gave me some courage as most would look at the video and not at me. I started singing when I had to: (Play multimedia music) -I got no excuses For all of this goodbyes Call me when it's over, 'cause I'm dying inside Wake me when the shakes are gone And the cold sweats disappear Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared. -I took a deep breath and continued-: I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why

Damn, damn, damn What I'd do to have you here, here, here I wish you were here Damn, damn, damn What I'd do to have you near, near, near I wish you were here I love the way you are It's who I am, don't have to try hard We always say, say it like it is And the truth is that I really miss All those crazy things you said (Things you said) You left them running through my head (Through my head) You're always there, you're everywhere But right now, I wish you were here All those crazy things we did (Things we did) Didn't think about, it just went with it (Went with it) You're always there, you're everywhere But right now, I wish you were here Damn, damn, damn What I'd do to have you here, here, h

DEAR ME Dear me, I'm confused again, Don't even know why. I'm being pressured again, Can't stand it anymore. Do this, do that. "Stay strong, don't fall. Don't fail, make me proud. Be a good child." Hammered into my head, Each and every time, Till I lose all sense of reasoning, And wander away. Dear me, am I making sense? Or just rambling like a madman? I look in the mirror,

Cold and broken down It’s all I knew I let it corner me in And hide where my tracks lead Now I’m waking up And all I do Is getting lost in the past To find where I’d first hear [Pre-Chorus] That I was never gonna be somebody That I was never gonna feel light, come around And they rise again as I am told that I should see Chorus] Red now And to fear what lies ahead now But I know that I will Do everything for you again I will do everything for you again And I bet now You will see that I will burn what I don’t need here And I’ll know it’s alright, alright, alright

“If they give you something to eat or drink, don’t do it.” Asteria listened to everything carefully and made mental notes in her head. After some time, she realized she had forgotten to ask the most critical question. “Where am I? Who are you? What is this place? How did I get here?” She blurted out all her questions in panic. Coach Jacobson shook his head. Before he could answer, someone knocked on the door and opened it. “Oh, Miss. Brown. Did you wake up? Honey, did you call her father?”

he said icily and she quickly dragged her gaze to the floor, her fingers fiddling with the hem of her shirt. "Now.." He muttered, staring into his glass of wine. "I'm only gonna ask you once. What're you doing in my room?" Kimberly's breath wavered as she fixed her gaze to the floor, racking her head for an appealing answer. At that moment, she totally forgot the alphabetical letters that she could use to compose a sentence. "If I have to repeat myself, you'll be sorry for it" he said in his usual cold tone. Kimberly slowly reached back and brought out her mobile phone that she had hidden at her back pocket.

"Don’t you think you're asking the wrong question?" He asks , amusement clear on his face and lacing his deep voice. " I mean, shouldn’t your question be why am I here? " He says again as if talking to himself. I remained glued to the wall with a carefully mapped out plan in my hand. I was only an inch from the door, he makes a move, I run for it . I might just be lucky to get away from here or die trying. And so I decided to follow his lead. "why? Why are you here?"

‎ ‎My hand drift down before my mind caught up with it. ‎ ‎Resting against my stomach like it already knew. ‎ ‎This time, I let it stay. ‎ ‎I lay like that for a long time. ‎ ‎"What do I do now?" ‎ ‎My voice was barely there. ‎ ‎Just sound and breath and a question I had no answer to. ‎ ‎The silence answered me with nothing. ‎ ‎And somehow... that felt like the most honest response I was going to get tonight. ‎

What's chasing after me? Why did it try to imitate Zeke? What does it want with me? But the only question that I can only ask right now, and I believe the most important question to ask, is what the fuck am I? What happened to me? Where are my legs? Where are my hands? Where's my skin? Why is the ground higher than it was? Am I an animal? Am I sleeping in my dorm and this is just a nightmare? "Nope! You're awake, baby. And so am I!" My mind screams.