Disgust X Envy Novels & Stories

Not on tequila’s watch! “I'll check my stash and see if I have any fucks left to give.” His eyes turn cold. He studies me for a long moment, then slowly rakes his gaze over me again, lingering on my lips. Then, just as slowly, his expression shifts. Disgust. Pure, unfiltered disgust. Like I’m nothing. Like I’m beneath him. Something inside me crumbles. My breath stutters, but I refuse to let the tears come. He steps back, shoving his hands in his pockets.

Just a slow fade into nothingness, as if they had never existed. I turned away from the ruin I had created, letting the final traces of adrenaline settle into a dark, lingering satisfaction. Ivan’s expression stood out against the dim lighting of the chamber. He was frowning—not in fear, but something close to disgust. Adorable. His jaw clenched, his posture rigid, as if he was trying to fight the reaction forming in his gut. "It's disgusting," he said abruptly, his voice tight with unease. "How can you even look at it without turning away or—hell—even blinking?"

I shiver with how amazing it tastes. And with how shameful and self-indulgent food eating is considered among Vampyres. Not even living among the Humans has beaten the belief out of me. Not even watching Anna scarf down three cups of instant udon noodles at two a.m. because she felt “a bit peckish.” “This is so undignified. Can you please not tell anyone and throw my corpse in the lake after I run myself through the garbage disposal, which I’m going to do right now?” His lips twitch into the ghost of a smile. “You’re embarrassed.”

I knew most of the gawking women wouldn't mind going a round or two with him just to feel those abs contract and swell beneath their grubby palms. The thought had a strange, potent emotion welling inside my chest. A bitter taste coated my tongue and my jaw pulsed with the amount of tension my body held. The green, ugly monster named Envy possessed any rational thought lingering in my head, turning them vile and lurid. I wanted to gorge these women's eyes out with my claws to stop them from staring. "I'm losing my mind, Lex," I complained. "I can't say I disagree with your thoughts," she growled.

Warning bells rang in my head, telling me it wasn’t just my life on the line here, but… “Would you still behave the way you do if it were your body about to be molested? Would you still crawl beneath the floorboards… I honestly have no words for what it is the lot of you do, especially you, Lady.” And my voice again dripped heavily, not with honey this time, but with contempt. “I can’t abhor you. I just want you to know the shame I feel at merely being near you; the sheer depth of disgust you create within me. I just wanted you to know. I just wanted to…”

As the voice then said. ‘LUST IS NOT A GOOD OPTION THIS TIME. BUT ENVY DOES. FOR YOU SEE, YOU DO HAVE TWO SEEDS PLANTED WITHIN YOU. WHERE THE SECOND ONE IS ONLY WAITING BY THE SIDE OF LUST. GROWING IN SECRET BY THE JEALOUSY OF EVERYONE AROUND YOU.’ “Devil!” They all scream, falling to their knees as their fear is too much and they are forced to crawl with their hands and feet. Somewhat enjoyed the scene, as I a not bothered by her words. LUST AND ENVY, are my saviors.

My face feels hot from anger and humiliation. Memories of orgies where I had let myself be used by this scum of a human being disgusts me. I’ve never felt shame when it came to sex before, but now, all I want is to scrub myself clean. Looking at him now, Jacob’s handsome face has lost all its appeal. All I see is the ugly creature underneath.

- Xiuuuuuuuu… I screamed so hard, taking the air out of my lungs, looking at the chandelier, understanding that a sinner's prayer would not be accepted. I heard their laughter and I nursed a hard, hot, heavy feeling gripping my soul like the only way to keep myself sane, I don't force myself to pass out nor do I have the strength to throw up just to feel. Feel the disgust of your laughter The disgust of hands touching my skin The revulsion of desire stamped in their eyes Disgusted to be Giulia De Angelis

Or anyone. I turned my head and looked at the untouched tray of food. Eggs congealed into rubbery lumps, toast curled into hard edges. A mug of cold black coffee sat beside it. My stomach roiled at the thought of eating. I closed my eyes again, inhaling the stale air. Memories swirled, sluggish and dark, pulling me under. Elvira’s voice in my head: “You disgust me.” She didn’t just say it with words. She said it with her eyes, her scent, the rigid way she held her shoulders. Like I truly disgusted her.

LUST. He wanted to take it all for his use alone and maliciously deprive others. GLUTTONY. To gain everything, be it money or power. AVARICE. To waste his time in idleness. SLOTH. To explode in vicious anger. WRATH. To wish for others to fail and come to fatal harm. ENVY. To be the best of all. PRIDE. Maru relished in all these feelings and a dark divinity had shrouded his body.