Feeling Numb Artinya

WARNING!!! - Adult story (21+) - Slow burn romance (alur lambat) ***** Airin terkenal sebagai wanita baik-baik, dia anak yang sangat berbakti kepada kedua orang tua. Airin tidak pernah sekalipun membantah apapun yang orang tuanya perintahkan. Termasuk ketika Bapak dan Ibu menyuruhnya menikah dengan seorang pendatang kaya raya di desa mereka, Tuan Saka Januar Pradipta. Airin tidak masalah kalau Tuan Saka masih lajang, tapi pria berusia 33 tahun itu telah memiliki 3 istri. Yang artinya, Airin... akan jadi yang keempat. Namun apakah akan sesederhana itu? Tentu saja tidak. Karena Airin menolak menjadi wanita yang tertindas. Sifat yang selama ini mati-matian dia tutupi dari orang-orang perlahan mulai muncul. Airin bukanlah gadis baik seperti yang selama ini mereka pikirkan. Dia licik dan manipulatif, sayangnya tidak ada yang menyadari itu karena wajah polosnya. Kecuali... kecuali tentu saja Tuan Saka yang terhormat. Di hadapan suaminya itu, Airin tidak pernah bisa menutupi apapun. *** Start : 31/12/20 Finish : 31/08/21 2020 by Asia July

Malaikat cantik harus turun ke bumi untuk menjalani sebuah hukuman. Bagaimana bisa seorang malaikat yang hidup tentram di akhirat harus menjalani kehidupan di bumi yang katanya begitu kejam? Di vonis Sang Senior 150 hari hidup di bumi, tentu saja tak terbayang olehnya. Malaikat cantik yang terbiasa hidup nyaman di akhirat, harus menjadi arwah gentayangan sebab tidak tahu arah tujuan. Meratapi nasib bagai arwah yang tidak diterima oleh akhirat dan sangat memohon untuk diperbolehkan pulang. Akan tetapi, Langit, seorang lekaki indigo yang memiliki kemampuan khusus, seketika merubah pandangannya tentang dunia. Yang mulanya ia menganggap dunia ini sangat ribet, ternyata tidak se-ribet itu karena Langit yang selalu mempermudahnya hidup di dunia. Hingga tumbuh perasaan aneh yang membuatnya menjadi tidak ingin pulang ke akhirat padahal masa hukumannya telah usai. Namun, bisakah dua orang dengan dunia yang berbeda bersama? Jika dipikir memakai akal sehat, itu tidak mungkin. Yang artinya, mereka tidak akan bisa bersama. Sekuat apapun itu mereka ingin mengubah takdir. Karena pada faktanya, manusia dan malaikat tidak bisa bersatu.

Ever felt being just a white paper having nothing written? Or a white crayon? Like feeling useless? Cause I do. I'm Amira. A Blank Canvas.

Blurb: "Nama aslinya Natalie Amber Kyle. Dulunya bekerja sebagai seorang pelayan di sebuah cafe. Kemudian bertemu dengan seorang agen mata-mata wanita. Mulai mengikuti kegiatan mata-mata dan aktif sebagai agen saat berusia 19 tahun. Sepertinya ia lebih banyak mengambil kasus yang berkaitan dengan wanita penggoda dan sepertinya sedang menjalankan misi dari kliennya," terang Jeremy, panjang lebar. "Hei, Rai. Jangan bilang kau tertarik pada gadis itu. Sekali berhubungan dengannya, riwayatmu akan tamat!" seru Jeremy memperingatkan. Usai menggerakkan satu jarinya di leher. Yang berarti mati. "Kau sangat tahu aku, bukan? Aku sangat suka tantangan. Lagipula bukankah menurut informasi dia selalu menjalankan tugas yang berkaitan dengan wanita penggoda. Itu artinya, para lelaki yang dia dekati pasti berhubungan dengan wanita penggoda. Kurasa dia hanya membuka kedok asli dari para pria bajingan. Aku jadi ingin memberinya sebuah misi." Rai tersenyum, sembari memikirkan sebuah siasat. Benarkah Natalie adalah seorang mata-mata yang menyamar jadi wanita penggoda? Dan apa misi yang dimaksud Rai?

Alpha William had always wanted his mate, his Luna by his side for 15 years now but still she never showed until one day he ran into a guy who was by the beach alone, looking lost in the sea, Alpha William thought he was planning on going into the water so he waited just to make sure the mysterious guy does not do anything stupid. After a while, the mysterious guy stood up and left then Alpha William watched him as he left and wondered what was wrong because he was feeling weird, a feeling he had never felt before so he just brushed it off and went one his way. Alpha William did not know yet that that mysterious guy would be someone special to him.

She was not supposed to fall for him but she did and now she can only blame herself for feeling that way because all he ever does is giving her pain.

My mind, my soul, my heart are all stone. Tears, pain and sorrow all dwell in me, inside one body. I'm numb, I'm brusied I'm a broken part. Fifteen years ago, I lost every reason to live. Fifteen years ago the bone crushing hands of the universe fell on my two shoulder. I lost everything!!! Dove...Dove Rivera, I was once a happy, child with my baby brother Kevin by my side. I knew all the happiness in the world. My dad, a prominent and honest politician and my mom a renowned lawyer. A family of four living the best life. But..it all came to a standstill in just one night...one cool night. "Dove!!!" Mom screamed. "Dove wake up" "My dear, the house is on fire" "Run!!!" Mom screamed tearily. Those were the only words , I remembered and she was the only and last person I saw that night. I managed to escape but they didn't. Even as a child...I knew that it was no ordinary fire, it was an attack. And all my nights, days, minutes, hours all I think of is revenge. It whisper in my head every minute "Revenge! Revenge!! Revenge!!!"

Is it possible for a cage to offer freedom? A deeply conservative father, a mother resigned to the status quo, and the ghost of a twisted abuse have beat Kriti Tripathi into a numb kind of acceptance. The kind of acceptance that allows her to block out the uncomfortable realities that come with forming meaningful bonds with the people around her. When her mother shoves her into an arranged marriage to a stranger, Kriti is forced to confront secrets that have painted her past black and surrendered her future to the demands of her possessor. But Kriti’s quietly mysterious husband has been whispering things as she struggles to adjust to her new life. Things that make her think she might not be as trapped as she feels, and Kriti begins to suspect that this marriage might mean more than she expected. Kriti isn’t the only one who has been keeping secrets. Even her perfectly responsible, too mature husband has something to hide. Secrets have a way of revealing themselves, though. When the demons of her past show up on her doorstep, the secrets they‘ve been keeping threaten to destroy Kriti and her marriage; unless Kriti can reform herself into her own brand of a savior.

“Open up,” he ordered, and I immediately obeyed. He checked to see if I had swallowed. His eyes blazed as he nodded in approval. “That’s like a good girl.” I blushed at the compliment as I nibbled on my lips, feeling satisfied at being praised washing over my every being. His eyes followed my little action. “What are you to say, pet?” He asked as he began stroking my head. “Thank you, master. “I replied shyly. At this point, I knew that I was too far gone to stop. I enjoyed it way too much—the feeling of being controlled. He burns for her and will burn down the world to have her.

Arturo Abruzzi tore the world apart to find the woman that he loved, who mysteriously disappeared without a trace. Feeling empty without her. Cold. Numb. Hollow. Feeling like he was better off dead. Better off six feet under the ground. And there were times when he would provoke his assassin to pull the trigger. Wishing that his suffering would be put to an end. Asking God to drag him straight to hell. After all, hell was the resting place for criminals like him, wasn't it? The final destination for Mafia men? But years later, fate caused their paths to collide again. To cross again. Except this time, she was married to someone else...