Novel & Cerita Hold My Breath As I Wish For Death

I can’t deal with never seeing Xander again. I wish I had died in the field. XXX

I continuously try to stay awake but I'm struggling so in the end I succumb and drift into sleep. I can't breathe. I feel like I'm drowning. I try to scream for help but no words come out of my mouth. I'm fading but he won't let go, he's still holding me under and I decide to give up. Before I can give him the satisfaction of dying I'm pulled out the water and I feel him caressing my hair. "It's the beginning of the end. Hold my hand, I won't let you call, I shall keep you safe always." He kisses my forehead and disappears before my eyes.....

At this moment, I could feel my whole life flashing right in front of my eye. Thinking about it clearly, I don't even have anything to be proud of, no sort of achievement so even if I die now, I will definitely become a ghost. So, I DON'T WANT TO DIE! I STILL WANT TO LIVE AND HAVE MY REVENGE! "Let... Go" I patted his hand desperately as I was constantly losing breath, if he holds on I might really die.

First wish: I hoped my mother wouldn’t kill me. Cause of death: Disembowelment by my mother. Status: Wish granted, effective immediately. Second wish: I hoped the company could successfully overcome its crisis. Cause of death: Jumping off a building. Status: Wish restricted, not approved.

I said as I lifted the glass to his mouth, ordering, “Drink.” He shook his head, his eyes begging me not to do this. I chuckle, gripping his chin between my fingers, pressing on his jaw so hard I almost break it, and forcefully push the water into him before closing his mouth and nose so he had no choice but to swallow if he wants to breathe. Funny thing about death? No one wants to face it. Even in the most despicable of times of despair where you lie in your own vomit and wish for the ground to open up and dump you somewhere… you still breathe and wish, wish so fucking much to live, it’s astonishing.

Wish I can go and revisit the evil I Did through the course of my life (I wish) ?Wish I could go back in time take the Wrongs that I did and reverse them to right (Fuck) ?Wish I can take all the pain, the hurt, The struggle and keep 'em inside (Damn) ?Wish I can say that I'm sorry to People I broke here before that I die (What)... "Owen I don't want to die. I wanna get down" I looked at her and she held a frightened look on her face.

"When he was being rushed in and wheeled into surgery, I remember that he kept repeating something under his breath. "Something like… his birthday wish finally came true, or something along those lines. That might be what he cares about most deep down. If you want to try waking him up, you could start from there." Mom kept turning the doctor's words over in her mind. She murmured to herself, "A birthday wish? That's right… Zero has never once celebrated his birthday. He must really want that. But what was his birthday wish?" I wanted to tell her that my birthday wish was to die. All she needed to do was stop the treatment, and my wish would finally come true.

Maybe they'll also have a beautiful end after all this suffering. "Make a wish." He said suddenly. She looked astonished at his sudden suggestion. "What?" She scoffed and gave him a weird look. "Make a wish." He repeated as he nodded, sounding pretty serious. "...ok..." She said and found his request a little weird. They both closed their eyes and made a wish. She bit her lower lip and clenched her fists. "I wish to die." She wished, a torturous expression on her face, as she couldn't bear the pain anymore. His consoling made her feel better but she didn't have any reason to live on.

I live for you and die for you. If you reject me and push me away now, I wouldn't be able to stand it. I will lock and chain you by my side, so that you can never ever leave me... Is that scary?"

"Your wolf is dead, and you probably won't make it past three days. You should get your affairs in order." Was I dying? But I hadn't found Clara yet. If I died, would Dad and Mom finally forgive me?