I Know I'll Be A Okay Novels & Stories

“Just go away.” Typical Savannah. “I just wanted to know if you're okay.” “Dude, I'm fine.” “Okay, you can join us if you'd like.” What? What am I even saying now? “No, I'm good.” I feel disappointed at her response, but I push it down. “Okay, I'll be down then.”

I could have used a little self-trust right about now. ***

>Everything will be okay Beau< >How can you be sure? >Because we have the pack, we have our family and friends< >And yet that still doesn't make me feel better Blaze< >I know but it's enough to calm you down. If there is trouble coming then we'll be ready< >Hope you're right< "You okay, babe?" I nodded "Everything's fine" "You sure?" "Yeah" I hope

“I hope you can hear me so you know that I’m ok.” I lay my head down and close my eyes, resting while I have time.

"Do not be anxious, my dear; I am confident you will excel. Everything will be alright." Right, everything will work out. I take a deep breath to steady my racing nerves. Everything will be fine; I sincerely hope so.

It’s my turn to be strong and find my own way through this. Me: No, mom. Don’t worry about that. I’ll be okay. I’m sure I’m just being a little dramatic since I’m in a new place and I don’t know everyone yet. I’m sure Weston is just…busy…don’t worry about me! Mom: Oh honey, are you sure?! Me: Yes! I’ll be okay. I love you.

But for the first time in weeks, I don't feel that familiar spike of panic. "Okay," I say, my voice stronger than I feel. "Okay. Handle it." "All of it?"

Is it working? :Hmm... Sort of. :Yes! That's a score for me. :Hahahaha! It won't happen next time.

Tomorrow I'll fix this. I just didn't know yet how wrong I was about how things were going to go.

I know you've got the best intentions Just trying to find the right words to say I promise, I've already learned my lesson But right now, I wanna be not okay I'm so tired, sitting here waiting If I hear one more "Just be patient" It's always gonna stay the same... So let me just give up So let me just let go If this isn't good for me Well, I don't wanna know Let me just stop trying Let me just stop fighting I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright