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I рlеаdеd. “Nо, I’m dоnе. I thоught іf I gаvе it a whіlе уоu’d ѕtаrt tо ѕее mе, tо fаll fоr mе, but уоu’rе ѕtuсk mоurnіng a guу thаt dоеѕn’t even wаnt уоu. Hе lеft, Iz, аnd you nееd to realise it оnсе and for all hе іѕn’t coming bасk!”

I didn't want to stay any longer and I bowed and apologized before I ran off. The second time I was backing royalty and leaving before they ordered it. I just couldn't take his ominous presence as well as the constant ache that reminded me of his rejection.

Every second spent pleasing these people was one less second spent discovering who I really was. I took a deep breath, taking in the scene one last time. And then, with a sense of peace I hadn't felt in years, I turned my back on everyone. I felt the cool night wind welcome me as I left, leaving behind those people, those looks and that life that I never wanted to revisit.

She was right all along, he was acting. "I was about to leave "she stuttered. "Leave to where I can see you like getting into trouble, don't you? he asked. He was right, after all, all she ever did her entire life was getting into trouble and it wasn't even something she did intentionally. "So is that the reason you have been following me around acting like you do not know who I am," she asked without knowing when she got the words out, she had decided she wasn't going to talk about this but here she was. She just blurted everything out and instantly regretted it, what if she was who couldn't even imagine how embarrassed she would be?

But before I left, I looked back one last time. “I hope it was worth it,” I said quietly. “Because you lost me forever.” And then I walked away, leaving the only father figure I had ever known behind.

“I’m here.” “You’re leaving,” I whispered. The words cracked open fresh pain. “You’re actually leaving me.” His arm tightened. “Not forever.” “It feels like forever.” I turned my face into the crook of his elbow, breathing him in. “You don’t get it. Everyone in my life leaves one way or the other. My mom left before I even knew her. My dad… you know the story. My aunty and her family treated me like trash. And now you.”

It was the kind of romantic moment I'd always imagined. But now, with it finally happening, I couldn't feel even a hint of joy. My eyelids grew heavy, dragging me down. Jerry frowned when he noticed how distracted I was. "You used to love the circus. Not anymore?" "No, I do. It's fun," I replied. He must have sensed my impatience because he paused, lips parting like he wanted to say something. But before he could, his phone rang. Without a word, he got up and left. The seat beside me stayed empty all the way until the show ended.

I was done with that fucking shrink who always materialized the second I wasn’t there. Done with both of them. Even if every step away burned like hell.

After taking in and out the needed breaths, I began softly. " I'll be leaving now and neither of you will ever see me again, " I gulped between words " I never would've done this to either of you. I always loved you so much even though you never showed it back. You made me feel like a liability but I was always okay with it. I tried to be the perfect daughter but in the end you just threw me away.

“Don’t do this to me. Don’t walk away!” “I am,” I said. “And I won’t look back.” The trip to the airport was quiet. I didn’t call anyone. I didn’t text him. Every second I stayed silent was a second I took my life back. Every mile that the plane carried me away was a mile I removed myself from his toxicity.