I Was Always Second Until I Left 소설 & 이야기

the old woman asked. "I don't know," After said. "I just want to leave." The old woman nodded. "Me too, when I was 16, I left. I thought if I left, the pain would go away. It didn't. I brought it with me." After was quiet. "But do you know what went away?" the old woman said. "My fear of being left. Because when I left, I learned I could be alone. I was no longer afraid of being left, because I was the one who left."

For the first time in my life, I felt alone, lost and didn’t know what to do now or in the future, I was lost without my guide and best friend Tomi but I refuse to be second place if I do go back. Being second and the spare heir all my life got to me, I thought that she would understand, that she would know better than putting me second to the same person who had made me feel inferior all my life.

I whispered my plead to her. She didn't reply. The silence was the only thing I got in return. I was always taken away from the people I got attached to. Leaving behind a friend from kinder Academy when I was brought home, was the first time I experience it. It took long enough for the mother to get close to me when she did, she died. Brother was everything to me and he left too. And now I have to leave Jacob and Loren. Adam was the one who's always been with me. Adam!

I said and left. ***

I looked like someone who has been taking hard drugs. It was just a result of lack of food and crying too much but I’ll be fine…right? I can’t believe I’m leaving this place and my friends behind. I’ve gotten so used to this place already and now I have to leave. I have to leave all the good memories and also the bad ones. It feels like yesterday when we just moved here. I was so broken that I felt like I’d lost myself and I’ll not be fixed. But here I am now, back to square one.

Before renewing her contract with her employers, Janny Xu had returned to her secluded home town for two weeks to visit her aged parents, having missed them so much after spending several years in a strange city far from home. She had barely resumed work for a week when gossip in the office about her teammate's probable accident had somehow reached her ears. Up till now, nobody had bothered to find out what happened to their colleague who was missing in action. Janny found it appalling how certain people only cared about themselves and had only seemed to be concerned about her when it benefited themselves. In the past, when they worked together as a team, so many of these colleagues had inve

“One more thing…” I turned. “If you ever decide to give me a second chance, I’ll spend every day proving I deserve it. But if you choose to move on… I’ll let you go. This time, for real.” I didn’t reply. He left. And I stood there, feeling like a ghost in my own home. --- Later that day, I found myself at a coffee shop I hadn’t visited in years. It used to be my sanctuary when I was younger—a quiet place where I’d scribble ideas, dream about a life beyond arranged galas and family expectations.

I uttered firmly beyond my situation. “Let's meet next time, Brian.” I added before I turned my back to them and left. itsclarixass

I smiled, looking away. “Maybe today you tell me that to console me, but tomorrow it will be different. Being with you is like going up and down a roller coaster. But lately there are more downs than ups. For example, that date was the peak, but the fall was lethal” I ran my hands over my damp cheeks, “You told me to stay away from you. You asked me to be the one to leave. I have never learned to leave. I'm not one of those people who abandons. “I will never be.” “It had to be you, I couldn't leave you.”

Silence elapsed between us as he stared at me, unable to speak a word. “Ever since I was born, people have only been leaving me.” I said, “My life has seen a trail of departures, and soon, I just lost touch with how it feels to have someone in my life. Every time they leave, they shatter a piece of me. I’m afraid I have nothing left in me to lose anymore.”