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"You wanting me to show more interests To always keep that big bright smile Be that pinky little perfect princess But I'm not that type of child" Lagi nila akong pinipilit sa lahat ng gusto nila. Kahit ayaw ko pinipilit pa rin nila! "And this storm is rising inside of me Don't you feel that our world's collide It's getting harder to breath It hurts deep inside" Kahit hindi ko sabihin sa kanila. Hindi lang galit ang nararamdaman ko, pati na rin, lungkot. Matinding lungkot.

am nothing but a curse to her life. I couldn't stop this time. Strangled sobs racked through my body uncontrollably. Each sob pierced though my entire being, making it hard for me to breathe. My lungs suddenly felt like they were closing up on me and my vision blurred by the tears. All my pent up emotions came crashing down in the form of these tears- sorrow, despair, pain, hurt, anger, guilt, worthlessness. I let them all come out and felt every emotions once again.

I forgave you many times… I'm such a fool. I hugged my pillow as the tears continue to flow. I want to stop crying, I badly want to. I'm not the one who's at fault so why am I the one crying? I didn't do anything bad to others to feel this pain. Why can't I be fully happy? "My god it hurts…" I sobbed. "It hurts so much…" I cried. I balled my fist when I'm starting to breathe hard. My vision was becoming blurred to. I punched my chest. "Please… Someone stop the pain. Please…"

she said as she hugged me very tight and we both cried a little as we did. With teary eyes, I responded, " I will miss you too." Just as we parted away my stomach started to roll in an odd way, and I felt nausea build in me. I tried to control myself but I could not. So I rushed to the bathroom as I emptied myself, coughing a little. I had not eaten much either? Why the hell is this happening to me? It has been going on for a long while now. Not that I could do anything about it. Because I don't have enough money to visit a doctor.

She was in a daze for a moment as she let everything sink in. ‘It’s final. I should be happy, right? But why am I crying? This is what I asked for… freedom. I am free! Free from him, but why do I feel the other way around? Why am I sad? I should celebrate, right?’ She kept on wiping her tears. ‘Why don’t you stop?’ She felt irritated as she violently wiped her tears away. Her heart suddenly clenched as she was having a hard time breathing. ‘What is happening to me?’

I take another drink. But he doesn't budge. "Even if Wes is an asshole, you're still allowed to cry." "But I don't want to cry," I say. "I've felt like I was going to throw up all day, sure, but I don't feel like I need to cry." Is that bad? Or just weird? It's the absolute truth - I'm definitely not holding back tears. I don't even have that achy feeling you get in your throat or behind your eye sockets that means that the waterworks are on their way. I just feel...like I just ate an entire tub of month-old tuna salad from a gas station.

I slapped his thigh hard unintentionally, ok maybe with a little intention but you couldn't blame me; I was a 19year old hormonal pregnant woman who has the strong urge to puke because she didn't like flight but her baby daddy didn't seem to care. He snapped his eyes open after the unexpected slap and glared at me but his expression changed to a confused one as he saw the look on my face. He came closer to me and asked “What's wrong? Why are you making those faces” “ I don't feel too good, I don't think I like planes so much. I think I'm about to puke, where's the bathroom please” I said as my eyes become teary for unknown reasons. Why the hell was I on the verge of busting in tears? Maybe i

am nothing but a curse to her life. I couldn't stop this time. Strangled sobs racked through my body uncontrollably. Each sob pierced though my entire being, making it hard for me to breathe. My lungs suddenly felt like they were closing up on me and my vision blurred by the tears. All my pent up emotions came crashing down in the form of these tears- sorrow, despair, pain, hurt, anger, guilt, worthlessness. I let them all come out and felt every emotions once again.

What she said to encourage me and strengthen me was nothing but nonsense. For some reason, I felt sad. I felt so lonely. A strange feeling came over me, making me feel so sick and empty at the same time. My eyes started to feel hot and teary, and tears just fell on my cheeks, which surprised me, and I wiped them away immediately.

I laughed, trying to hide my emotions from her. "Did you forget I'm part of you, Monika? You can pretend to be happy in front of the entire world, but you can't hide your emotions from me. I can feel what you're feeling from inside but I don't understand why you don't cry and let out your pain." Anika said. I can feel how upset she is after seeing me sad. "I'm fine" I replied, not knowing what else to say to her. "You're not. It's just you don't cry because you know there is no one to wipe our tears," she whispered. I didn't reply and rubbed my face with my hands, trying to calm myself.