Ketika Hatiku Tlah Disakiti Romane & Geschichten

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Oerowoseo eotteokae (I’m lonely, what do I do? Miummajeo samkyeosseo (So I swallowed up even the hate) Hwanael himdo eopseo (I have no strength to get mad) Iyudo eopgo (No reason either) Maeumeul deoreopijima (So don’t taint your heart) Tarakagien ajik illeo (It’s too early to be corrupt) * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

I missed you. I’m sorry. I’m here. I still love you.

I can almost hear Michael laughing again. But deep down, I feel my heart getting hardened. Michael Peterson lit the fire. Now watch me make him burn!

Everything feels fragile. Like one wrong move and everything shatters. I just want to sleep. Forget. Breathe. But something stops me. There’s paper taped to my door. Small. Folded. My heart starts pounding again. Slow. Heavy. Bad feeling. Very bad. I peel it off. Hands shaking. Open it. Just one word. Written in thick black ink. Ugly. Messy. Aggressive. STOP. My stomach drops. No name. No explanation. Just that.

Selama ini kau masih merasa Aku selalu menantimu Dua minggu kau tak menghampiri Karena kau dengan yang lain Ibanya hatiku, sayang (Lyrics of the Potret Band song). Every day or even night I sing it. Moreover, other than to strengthen my heart, and to cultivate my heart to be strong in recognizing the term love for monkeys that come and go like mushrooms.

Watashi Datte sagashiteiru kono mi ugatsu anata wa dare waratteita koro no anata wa nani yori mo mabushikatta kara torimodoshitemiseru yo doredake no toki ni kaetemo hitori dake de kakaekomanaide douka kowagaranaide (Your thirst for air..... is all my fault- I abandoned you here... In this well... I was happy, not knowing anything of the outside world. Even I am searching. .... Who are you, to pierce right through me? When you used to smile, it was more dazzling than anything else. I'll find a way to bring that smile back, No matter how long it takes. Don't hold everything in all alone. Please, don't be afraid. ...)

I received a letter from you The way you find me About the beautiful memories from me When you find my love I have listened to the song about all tell me my beauty cantik And the poetry you wrote to express this love Will not run out all our love No more left for the world because we spend the rest of this love forever I've even thought about my life without you Can it be more beautiful than what I'm living now I always dream about the beautiful old days with you Keep your words soft even though you leave and don't come back It's over, this time is no longer grounded in the world I've spent the rest of my life just for you When the seasons change Until time stops Even though the world hates

You’re the оnlу wоmаn who еvеr hаd my heart, аnd іt will only еvеr beat fоr уоu. I know it hurtѕ nоw, but іn time уоu’ll bе fine. Please don’t try tо fіnd me. I’vе tоld no one whеrе I’m gоіng, аnd my рhоnе hаѕ bееn dіѕсоnnесtеd. I’vе packed everything аwау аѕ the flat will be lеt аgаіn soon. I ask оnе thіng, рlеаѕе dоn’t hаtе mе, іt wоuld tear mе араrt іf you dіd. I’m glаd I got tо fіnd ѕоmе happiness with уоu, if оnlу for a brief amount of time. You’ve showed mе whаt truе lоvе іѕ, аnd I thа nk you fоr that.

My eyes were blind but I finally can see My heart was ignorant but beat wildly My mind is clear but were filled by you My entire soul is shaking, yearning for you.

God knew I hated the fact that I put the sadness, the hurt there He jerked his head and with a quiet“ see you later” he walked away. ‘Would you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? Would you still love me when I've got nothing but my aching soul? …… I know you will, I know you will, I know…..that you will’ This song continued in the background and Wilson walked away I was a fool a coward…..a….God! I am so sure Wilson didn't know the reason for the abrupt change that happened that night between Russell and I