Lelah Hati Ini Lelah Hidup Denganmu นิยาย & เรื่องราว

"Ishq ne tere Hume tabah kar diya Kuch is kadar toda ki Fanaa kar diya Na Jeene ki khwaish hai baki Na hai marne ki Tamanna Ye dil phir bhi mange tera sath Janke bhi bane anjan ki mumkin Nahi jo ye mangti hai Tera sath koi jannat nahi Nahi mai koi Farishta Par agar tera sath Mile to Jahannum ko bhi jannat man lu. Par takleef bas yahi hai tujhe mera sath Qubool nahi aur Mujhe tere bagair kuch Qubool nahi. (your love destroyed me, It broke me like that I died Nor I have left any desire to live Nor I wish to die This heart wants your togetherness Despite knowing it is impossible what ever it is asking for it pretends to be oblivious Your togetherness is not heaven Nor I am an angel

The one person who loved me is gone and I am alone again. I hate this world I was born in. I hate this world I was born in. Even when I managed to experience a new life where I wasn’t Aurelia I still managed to suffer in the end. Maybe it isn’t the world's fault, maybe it is my fault. I hate myself so much. I don’t want to remember this pain anymore. Just let me forget this pain and suffering like the coward I am. No matter how much I want to feel love… I will only suffer in the end…

I said quietly, squeezing the eyes, the hot tears slowly trickling down to her head. Long after, as I was drifting into oblivion with my face burrowed between her breasts, the humming from her lips was beating against my ears, ‘ek pyar ka nagmahai, geethon ki rawani hai, zindagi aur kuch nahin, teri meri kahani hai.’

"I love you." ♩ ♬ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♩ It’s a beautiful life, beautiful day The day I love you to the point of madness Beautiful life, beautiful day I don’t want to lose you, beautiful my love Beautiful your heart ♩ ♬ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♩

Only with you. I want to stargaze with your hands in mine and keep looking at them till eternity. I want to play those eye contact games with you until I lose. I want to listen to you, talk to you and look at you for my entire life. I want to travel the globe and walk across all the roads with you by my side. I want to dance in the rain and kiss the sun with you in my arms. From the extreme sadness to the times of super happiness, I want to cherish all of it only and only with you. From luxurious life to making this world a better place to live, I want to achieve all this only with you. From realizing my dreams to live the life you always dreamt of, all this only with you.

We'll see each other, but not as often because I'll start working. -I want you with me. How do you think I'll sleep without you? How do you think I'll endure if you're not with me? I won't. I won't let you leave -It's not your decision! -Yes, it is. You're the love of my life, and I won't let you leave me. Our separation will never happen. I won't let you leave me. -That's not your decision to make. -Yes, it is. You're the love of my life, and I won't let you leave me. Whether you like it or not.

This is too much. I know that I have been nothing but a ruthless and cruel man but... Do I really deserve to live with this pain? God, I can't even breathe. Every breath that I take just makes me feel more the pain in my heart. Every breath just makes everything more even painful. This is not life... This is not a fucking life if it is without Nieva... without my wife... my baby...

What if someone planned this? What if this is punishment? I rub my hands together. Cold. It's always cold lately. He notices. He always notices. He slides his pinky toward mine. Just slightly. Barely touching. But enough. Enough to say: I’m here. Enough to say: you’re not alone. Enough to say everything without words. “Remember when we hated each other?” I whisper. He scoffs. “We were idiots.” “You called me spoiled.” “You called me heartless.”