Novel & Cerita Novel Insecurity

The two of us stare at each other for long moments, before I decide I can't wait any longer. I tilt her head with my hand on her chin and take possession of her mouth again. It won't take much and I'll be addicted to this girl. Addicted in a way I've never been before. I'll think about her all the time, and I'll want her with me. I'll want to make this work, and I'm afraid if we don't make it work it will decimate me. Saying those words aloud aren't an option, so I keep them locked away in the recesses of my brain where those insecurities we don't want to tell other people about hide. I hope that these insecurities never rise to the surface.

“ It was reckless, biting her opponent… so stupid. Insulting.” He walked past Dominie whose lips were parted, moved to the wine, and poured himself some content with a controlled force. “ No one stands in front of death and smiles.” He muttered. “ Not unless they have nothing left to lose.. or nothing left to fear.” He downed the wine in one swallow. “ And people like that are dangerous.” Dominie studied him quietly. “So… you don’t want her dead anymore?” The glass in Kieran’s hand cracked. Wine dripped between his fingers.

“Then this is our world, Vladimir. And I will stand guard beside you. Let them try to breach it. They will find that the new security is not just the steel, but the two of us, waiting for them.” We stood there, side-by-side, in the silent, humming core of the most secure private residence in the world, watching the monitors flicker, content in the knowledge that our future was now entirely self-contained, and absolutely untouchable.

“What are you doing?” Grinning, I lift my eyes up to meet her gaze. “Didn’t you read about this in your book?” “Yes, but…” “But nothing. Lie down. Relax.” “I mean…it must taste and smell….Do you even like it?” There it is. That strange insecurity that slips in at the strangest times, mixed in with just a little hint of embarrassment - as if she should be ashamed of her own body. “I wouldn’t be doing it if I didn’t like it,” I answer with a wink, “and you taste so good.”

We are only married for a short term, and I do not think I have any right to say she is mine or that she should not speak to anyone. However, as long as she is under my care, should I not protect her? I leaned back in my chair, exhaling slowly as I ran my hand through my hair. ‘Why am I feeling this way?’ ‘Why am I being insecure?’ I closed my eyes briefly, trying to steady my thoughts. ‘Why is this bothering me so much?’ A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts. “Come in.” The door opened slowly, and Sophia stepped in. I straightened slightly.

I will not fight. But in the silence of this fortress of glass and steel, a small cold flame has ignited. A prey's vigilance. A fear that knows its predator. And I wonder, looking at the closed door of our apartments, not if there is another woman, but if the truth would be worse. If the other woman is only a detail in a bloody balance sheet. And how long before the perfectly smooth and icy floor of our gilded hell cracks, revealing the abyss that awaits us both. ---

He dropped it fast and clean. “Because in my years of practice, I have never seen something so common and repetitive like this against an innocent boy's life…" Anger brewed in me as I turned to Greg, my chief security officer. I hope you hear that clearly, uhhh… I said, “An outsider just confirmed it that my security team is quack… a fucking bloody joke…" “And I think some people need to lose their jobs…" I said sharply, "while some people are locked till the investigation is completed because how would someone get into one of presumably the most secured residences in this city… and come in to inject my nephew… my blood…?"

Thе fасt thаt I’m thinking іt is evidence оf nоthіng mоrе than my insecurity. Mоrе thаn that thоugh, іt tells mе I’m fаllіng for hеr, аnd ѕhе mаttеrѕ. I trу thе hоtеl rооm again. Thеrе’ѕ still no аnѕwеr. It’ѕ tіmе for me tо gеt up and lеt thіѕ go.

I asked her. She looked at me, "no.. it is not like that. I mean , are you sure you want me to move in with you?" She asked. I nodded my head, "I have never been so sure. Why?" I asked her. "It just... you know since we started dating I have always been insecure. Cause to be compared to you. Me myself is so left behind.." she started. I looked at her. She has always been insecure about her life. Since I first started to date her. She even said no 3 times. Cause she is scared people will say that she's only with me cause of the money. Which is I already said that I don't care, cause I know she's not like that. But it is still lingering in her mind.