So you're trying to find 'Even If It Hurts' online? Honestly, good luck—Sam Mariano's stuff is notoriously difficult to find for free, and I think that's by design. She publishes a lot through Kindle Unlimited, which means you either need a subscription or you buy the ebook outright from Amazon. I went the KU route for this one, and it's a pretty dark, possessive romance, not really the kind of thing you'd stumble upon on a regular fiction site.
I remember scouring the web for ages out of curiosity after I finished it, just to see what discussions were out there. You might find some random PDF uploads on super sketchy forums, but the quality is always terrible, with missing pages or weird formatting. Honestly, paying the few dollars for it or using a KU trial is worth it to get the actual, intended experience. The tension in the book really relies on the pacing, and a messed-up file ruins that.