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Watching him berate Chloe on my behalf, I suddenly felt exhausted. "Enjoy your wedding in three days," I said softly. I salvaged the carved horse from the ashes, the one he'd stayed up all night making, then clutched it tightly in my palm. I muttered, "In three days, I will leave you for good, Damien. We shall never meet again." After stumbling out of the room, I could no longer hold back my tears. At last, my family and I could be together again in heaven. While Damien was out, I went to a small store on the outskirts of town and purchased two large bags of charcoal.

Bina jurm ke saza milti hai mujhe Kisse kahun ke be-qasoor hu mein Meri khamoshiyon ka sabab hai ye ghum mere Phir kyu duniya samajhti hai ki maghrur hu mein Aaj phir shiddat-e-ghum ne rula diya mujhko Aaj lagta hai zakhmon se chur chur hu mein" (I am alive but not living my life, Why am I so compelled today?? I always get punished without doing anything, To whom I say that I am innocent, The reason of my silence is my sadness Then why the world thinks that I am selfish, This sadness again made me cry today, Today I think that I am broken beyond repair) My whole body was numb. Again and again that scene of izzah covered in blood was flashing in front of my eyes. As I remembered no one knew a

I know you're not tired of understanding me, so this is me now because of you, I love you Don't think it's over. Not even able to talk to you. you are still here in my heart, because you taught me how to appreciate. [Jroa & Bosx1ne:] Even if we're not together now, the ala ala always come back Let's see when you were still taking care of me I wish you knew I love you. Even if we're not together now, the ala ala always come back. Let's see when you were still taking care of me.

Hamein tum se Pyar kitna ye hum nahin jaante Magar jee nahin sakte tumhaare bina Suna gham judaai ka uthaate hain log Jaane Zindagi kaise bitaate hain log Din bhi yahaan to lage baras ke samaan Hume intezaar kitna yeh hum nahin jaante Magar jee nahi sakte tumhaare bina Tumhein koi aur dekhe to jaltaa hai dil badi mushkilon se phir sambhalta hai dil kya kya jatan karte hain tumhein kya pataa Ye dil beqaraar kitna ye hum nahin jaante Magar jee nahi sakte tumhaare bina I just could not stop the colour that crept into my cheeks.

mushkil ho gaya khud ko kaise How did it become difficult for me pahachaanuu main pahachaanuun to recognize myself, to recognize myself din kaTta hai kaTte na raatiya I endure the daytime; the nights are endured kis se kahuun main ye saarii baatiyan To whom can I tell all these things? guDiyaa Doll man men tarangen uTHne lagii hain Waves have begun to roll through my mind yeh kaisii yeh kaisii

“Stop being mean to me! Stop being mean to me!” I break down in tears. My chest is stifling. It cannot contain my frustration. Why won't anything ever go my way? “Kael, what do I do?” Kael pats my back with an assuring look. “It's okay. This is not the end. You can still shift another full moon. Pull yourself together.” “What do I do? What do I do Kael…I'm so confused right now…” She sighs and without speaking another word, she just pulls me into her body. I stay there in her hands and my tears flow.

Pero bakit mo ako iniwan? Bakit tinapos mo na ang kwento nating hindi pa nasisimulan? Bakit hindi ka lumaban katulad ng paglabang ginagawa ko ngayon? I don't feel myself again. I'm back to red ink... that fast. I don't wanna live forever. ────────────────────────────────────────────────────

Watashi Datte sagashiteiru kono mi ugatsu anata wa dare waratteita koro no anata wa nani yori mo mabushikatta kara torimodoshitemiseru yo doredake no toki ni kaetemo hitori dake de kakaekomanaide douka kowagaranaide (Your thirst for air..... is all my fault- I abandoned you here... In this well... I was happy, not knowing anything of the outside world. Even I am searching. .... Who are you, to pierce right through me? When you used to smile, it was more dazzling than anything else. I'll find a way to bring that smile back, No matter how long it takes. Don't hold everything in all alone. Please, don't be afraid. ...)

(Denganmu aku tidak pernah bertanya-tanya - akankah kau berada di sana untukku? With you I never wonder - you're the right one for me? (Denganmu aku tidak pernah bertanya-tanya - kau orang yang tepat untukku?) I finally found the love of a lifetime (Akhirnya aku menemukan cinta seumur hidup) A love to last my whole life through (Cinta untuk menjalani seluruh hidupku) I finally found the love of a lifetime (Akhirnya aku menemukan cinta seumur hidup)

I can't suppress my sobs as I continue to listen to the music. I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you I don't really wanna go But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be Who'll give you something better Than the love you'll find with me Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a crime I've been calling Dana's phone since this morning, but I can't reach her. What exactly is going on? I'm already sick and worried about them!