Self Loathing Synonym Novels & Stories

Twenty seven year old trust fund baby Sawyer Driscoll has way too much time on her hands, and even she knows it. Emotionally scarred with crippling abandonment issues, she finds solace in whimsical Kate Lovelace's comforting presence– the breathtaking lifeguard two years her junior who heroically rescued her from nearly drowning while drunk at Naples beach. At around the same time, she becomes drawn to mysterious Blythe Collier– an aspiring Conductor in her early thirties dead set on fulfilling her longtime dream of working with world renowned Orchestras. After meeting at a local Lesbian nightclub roughly three weeks later, the two hit it off immediately with their mutual love for body shots and the fine art of instrumental music. Her only issue? She's already heavily involved with Kate. The solution to crafty Sawyer's dilemma is simple; Date them both. What could go wrong? Assuming they don't catch on to the idea that their charming girlfriend wants to have her cake and eat it too, that is. Two's company, three's a crowd; Everyone says so, right? ...But does it have to be? *Disclaimer* - Strong sexual content, difficult mental health topics, and discussions of death, self harm, and suicide. 18+, please 2020 All Rights Reserved (you know how it goes)

What stings the most—betrayal from others or betrayal from your loved ones, especially your own family? The answer is clear to everyone. One takes a long time to recover from the hurt that he gets from his family and loved ones. But what if this betrayal leads to your death, and by the sheer stroke of luck, you get the second chance to change your fate? Surely, you will want to avenge your past self and build a new life without those traitors. This is what Xyla Thorne, an alpha she-wolf, did after she was reborn. She planned meticulously without alerting her enemies, who were unfortunately her own family and her own mate, and struck them when they were happy to celebrate their victory. This is the story of a wounded soul who wanted nothing but to see her enemies cry blood until they die in a worse way than her. But her new life took a shocking twist too when the person who she thought never paid attention to her in the past life turned out to be the one who loved her the most. What would she do now? Would she continue her path of revenge, or should she start a new life filled with his love and the pampering that he showered on her?

"I.. I need to go, Zayn. You have a meeting at... I need to.." he stuttered in panic trying to escape, but it was a futile attempt as I had him pressed against my desk. "Pumpkin, let me make myself clear. I am not letting you go, not now, not ever. Especially after you left me with this" I replied before clutching his hand and placing it on my crotch. He gasped and then flushed deliciously red. Oh, I was so going to enjoy this. Zayn Crawford, self made billionaire and hearthrob has closed himself off from the world and promised never to feel again after an accident nine years ago. His plan had been going well untill it wasn't . His best friend and the source of his coldness towards romance suddenly appears by his side once more and that too as his secretary. A plan for revenge, a dark past, dark secrets and passionate desire. Will Zayn be able to open his heart again? When he finds out that nine years ago was more than he knew, how would he take it? Follow Zayn as he unravels his second chance with his green eyed pumpkin, Will Crest.

Natasha Malhotra was one of the highest paid model of the country, But the she wasn't highest paid because of her own self but her boyfriend, The owner of her company, Evan Ramos. But they weren't aware of the fact that Natasha was dark obsession of Evan's older brother Ethan Ramos, A mafia king and the person behind the power and money Evan held. Natasha was 22 years old, and at a very young age she gained a lot of popularity, the reason? Ramos brothers. One who controlled her as the CEO of her entertainment company and another one who was secretly making her powerful without her own knowledge. Natasha was originally borned and raised in India, but to pursue her carrier in modelling she shifted to London. Evan Ramos, The brother who pretended to be the better one, He had an entertainment company which made him on the most eligible bachelors of the city, he was 28 and already very successful, the reason? his older brother. Ethan Ramos, The older brother who was marked as the devil, A mafia and the most powerful on in the entire bloodline. He made his empire and then helped his brother persue his dream. He was 33 years old and extremely sharp and calculated. But how were there life twisted? because both the brothers wanted the same girl, But what about the girl, did she actually want any of them?

Marcel was born a Vampyre but never felt at home in Blackledge Castle or his own body. His father Halen has created an army of feral vampires, the means by which he will gain power and deliver justice to the descendents of the High Priestess who made him the monster he is. The curse his father's barbaric past has brought down upon Marcel is one he sets out to rid himself of. The cullings and rampant bloodshed Halen thrives on are atrocities in Marcel’s eyes, and he knows if he does not leave, he will be dragged down with the clan when the Blackledge empire inevitably falls. This story follows Marcel as he learns to accept who and what he is through encounters with undying witches, dragons as old as the mountains in which they live and packs of warrior werewolves. Marcels eyes are opened to a world he never could have dreamed of from inside the tall walls of his former home. Marcel's journey is one of hardship, heartache, self discovery and wonder but it is not without its obstacles and hardships. When he finally finds a place he could call home he needs to make a choice, love or belonging. Can a Vampyre have it all? ***This book is part of my 'Twin Alphas' series. You do not need to have read the other stories as Marcel’s story is his own.

Harriet Morrison is at her senior year at North Point High. She eats her lunch at the janitor’s closet and thought of meeting the legendary wolf who lives in the forest and will always be the talk of the small town she’s living in. She went home into her parents’ fight then at night, her mother’s death. Two weeks later, her father gets rid of her because she wasn’t her real daughter. She inherited a farmhouse from her late mother but entered the wrong house and found the legendary wolf with his gamma, Harriet heard him talking to the tomb of his long-lost lover, a girl in his past that he has fallen in love with. So, out of the heat of the moment she asked him if she could live with him, and in return, they could pretend they could be together in order for him to go to school and find his long-lost lover to which the wolf agreed and her bullies ran away, but each time they interviewed a girl from her school that looks a lot like his lover, they open up a new quest that got her to discover secrets on her own self, family, her past, and her true identity. Can Harriet handle all of it with the help of the legendary wolf? Or would she end up dead with all the misery and demise she got?

When the heatwave apocalypse hit, the world turned into a literal oven. It was 140 degrees outside. The water dried up, and the power grid went completely dead. We had no choice but to make a run for the underground bunkers. Luckily, my boyfriend, Hudson, awakened ice powers. He is a man of few words, but he caters to my every whim. One day, I was being my usual spoiled self, begging him to waste his precious energy to make me some ice cream, when a sudden memory flooded my brain. It was a plotline. I realized I was living in a romance novel, and I was nothing but the useless, high-maintenance side character. All beauty, zero survival skills, and a constant burden to Hudson. According to the plot, he would eventually leave me behind, and I would die a gruesome death at the hands of some wasteland raiders. Meanwhile, Hudson would meet the REAL female lead—a woman as strong and capable as him. Terrified, I decided to pull away and stop weighing him down. But I didn't expect that the moment I distanced myself, Hudson would snatch the back of my neck, kissing me with a vicious, uncharted possessiveness. "Are you bored of me? Trying to shake me off?" he growled against my lips. "I'll never let that happen."

Rachel Rivers, a television host and magazine journalist with strong family values finds everything she ever worked for and believed in crashing down she she walks in on her husband and teen babysitter having sex. Sad and broken by this revelation of her husband's infidelity she goes out and makes a drunken fool of herself. But actions are not without consequences. Her drunken charade is not overlooked and soon she finds her left alone with nothing, not even her once perfect self image. She suddenly finds herself under the limelight of mockery among friends and foe alike when her soon-to-be ex husband begins to tarnish her image, making her look like the bad guy. She struggles to rebuild her image, seeking whatever help she can until one road leads her to Nate Madden. Rich successful driving force, selfmade billionaire, Nathaniel comes to the rescue with a seemingly innocent offer. What is not innocent however is the price Rachel must pay because Nate is a man she once crossed paths with. He is charming, he is secretive, he is powerful and dominating. He wants to introduce Rachel to a lifestyle she has never known before in exchange for her fame, her life and her job back.

My name is Elvira Rossi, daughter of Don Rossi, head of the Itavelle mafia family. Three months ago, my father was killed. Our operations were stripped bare, nothing left. The accounts were draining fast, and the family still had mouths to feed. Then a DNA report surfaced out of nowhere. According to it, I was the LaRosa family's long‑lost true heiress, missing for eighteen years. Money, at last, had found its way to me. For the sake of my people, I was willing to set aside my pride and play the part of a sheltered heiress. The car sent to escort me back to the estate broke down halfway up the mountain? I steadied it with one hand and carried it the rest of the way to the hilltop manor. The fake heiress dissolved into tears, accusing me of pushing her? I answered by striking the century-old tree in the courtyard, splitting it clean through. She went silent immediately. My fiancé sent bodyguards to "teach me self‑defense"? My two friends politely introduced them to the concept of being permanently embedded in a wall. As my so‑called "family" shook in fear, my knuckles cracked softly. After all, before inheriting the mafia, I inherited my father's favorite rule: "If violence can solve it, don't waste words."

"Brother, please spare my life!" Sera cried out. She kneeled and bowed down to show sincerity but her brother's eyes did not show any emotion. "There is no mercy for traitors, Sera. That's the family motto, remember?" Xander's voice was stern and filled with contempt. "I didn't do it! I don't even know what the Duchess looked like!" She was desperate but none of her family members even tried to listen to her. "We shouldn't have accepted you. The prophecy was true when it said that you will only bring tragedy to this family!" Her father's voice was filled with rage. All her life, all she asked was to be acknowledged. All she wanted was to feel the warmth of a family. Was it too much to ask for? "I wish I was never born," she mumbled. "Prepare to die, Seraphina. This is the punishment for taking my mother's life." Xander lifted his sword and drops of blood splattered when the blade cut through Sera's head. "Sera!" Seraphina jolted when she heard her mother's voice. Her eyes grew wide when she saw the familiar small room and she immediately touched her neck to confirm that her head was not severed. What happened? Why am I back to my ten-year-old self?