Novel & Cerita To X Who Doesn't Love Me

I should be angry and throwing a tantrum, but I am surprised and still come and not angry, just a bit disappointed, though. 'Am sorry I didn't tell. I knew you would disagree. You are so proud, but I want you to be okay. Somewhere I can see you every day and know you are really fine. Steph, you know that I care about you so much that you are always on my mind. Life without you is becoming hard for me. I wish you could just give me a chance to be there for you. To love and cherish you. Please say yes to me. Be my girlfriend.'

I wanted to love him and continue to love him. “You – I just – I don’t know what to say. I know we can never work out. We weren’t destined to be, after all, but when you say things like this, I want to pretend Lily doesn’t exist. I want to pretend I don’t know any better, that I haven’t been burned once. I want to close my eyes and throw caution to the wind, holding your hands and riding into the sunset with you beside me. We may never make it but I’m always tempted to try. What did you do to me, Xander Black?”

Xander took a deep breath before he turned off his cell phone and threw it on the table. “Dammit! I hate falling in love.”

Xander sighed placing the glass on the counter for one more drink, Xenon scratched his head in frustration, "didn't you try to explain?" "She didn't listen!" Xander said, slamming his fist against the counter, startling the bartender. "No matter what I say, she has already made up her mind, and maybe… maybe she’s right. I’ve ruined her life once already, what right do I have to ask her to love me?"

“I’m not apologizing for loving him.” The room goes silent. The cameras zoom closer. The host looks thrown off. “Excuse me?” “You heard me,” I say, voice steady now. “I’m not apologizing for loving Xander Hayes.” He opens his mouth, but I cut him off for the first time. “Do you know what love looks like?” I ask. “Real love? The kind that doesn’t vanish when the world turns against you?” He stares, caught off guard. “Love is someone who stands beside you when everyone else walks away,” I say, louder. “Love is someone who fights for you when you feel like you don’t deserve it. Love is someone who loses everything… and still chooses you.”

“Listen to me, Tina. I have taken the time to listen to your reasons for being such a damn nuisance to my life, and I want you to understand something. I want it to sink down into the deepest part of your mind, that I do not love you. I do not want your body, either. I do not find you attractive and I definitely do not appreciate you stalking my phone and everyone else in my life.” Her face drained.

I would have hated myself and hated Brian even more. Xander has been so good to me. He’s the first guy that is showing me love sincerely. I love him, I mean when he’s not all grumpy and angry. He deserves to be my first, I want him to be my first. I don’t know where this is going, I have no fucking idea how it’s going to end. But I want him, that fact is certain. I just pray he forgives me for being stupid and risking my life that way. I hope I can convince him that I’m not so stupid after all.

“I love you, Sophie and I don't know what I'll do without you in my life. I want to be with you and just you.” He swallowed and pleaded. “I'm terribly sorry for this pain I'm causing you... I know what I did was despicable and unforgivable but I love you and I can't lose you. I'm being honest with you because I can't keep it alright, you need to know and I don't want you to send me away. Please don't break up with me, we can make this work."

The sweet and thoughtful Brianna had become cold and selfish. “I love you so much..” Lorenzo sobbed. My insides trembled upon hearing those words again. I felt like my ears tinged and my blood boiled as anger flared up in my system. “Stop lying!” I screamed and tried to push him again, using all my strength. “How the f**k can you say that, if all you have ever done in those two years were f**k different girls?! Do you even know the meaning of love?!” I gritted as I tried to get rid him off me.

'' I can never stay mad at you, I love you too much,'' I let out and Xander smiled back, but his face soon fell as he looked at me again. '' Why? Why do you love me? I don't deserve your love, I am not worthy of you, I am all darkness and the brightest of light, I will only dim your light, and I don't want that,'' Xander let out and my heart broke hearing him say those words.