If I Can't Love Her Novels & Stories

"I can't feel him anymore." ***

I cannot listen to her tearing our bond apart. I simply cannot.

He swallowed hard, his grip tightening on the phone. “Ryan, it’s love. That’s what you’re describing. You’re in love with her,” her voice grew gentler, warmer. He clenched his jaw, staring at the amber liquid in his glass. “I can’t be.” “Why not?” “Because I don’t know how to love without destroying,” he muttered.

she says and walks fast. “I need to start avoiding him from now on because I know that he will never love me back but why he can’t love me in return? Am I unlovable? Am I not enough to him? Am I not deserve to be love?” she pitied herself, she hastily wipe the tears that escape from her eye. “Let me open the door for you,” he offered.

I didn’t answer, but it seemed like my face was telling her everything she needed to know. “I’m not going to let you in.” She said and folded her arms over her chest. “She saved your life last night, and she gave herself completely to you thinking that you actually wanted her. The least you can do is give her a day to come to terms with the fact that her mate doesn’t want her. You owe her that much.” I rubbed my forehead, something that had become a habit lately because of all the shit that was going on in my life. “Fine.” I groaned. “I won’t reject her today, but can I still talk to her?”

It left my mouth without giving me a chance to stop it, "But I can't." She deserved a beautiful life, a mate who could love her and sacrifice anything for her sake. She deserved to be loved, but all I could give her was only pain and hatred. I had nothing else, I could not give her anything else. I was a miserable human being who have embraced his demons in such a way that now they were inseparable from me. I was incapable of loving anyone without being suppressed by the fear of defeat. I could not love her, not in this life, at least.

I hate pain, and now, there’s so much of it, that I can’t stand it, all because of her. I will have her, she’s mine, no matter what, but I won’t be a fool to fall for the trap that is called love.

I’m nothing but a burden. Yet she loves me, so damn much that it hurts me. It hurts me to see her undergo agonising fun things because of me. I’ve put her in a place where she had to ask for the love she deserved without asking for it. And that’s when I realised that I'm incapable of love, I'm not equipped enough to give her the kind of love she wants.

It left my mouth without giving me a chance to stop it, "But I can't." She deserved a beautiful life, a mate who could love her and sacrifice anything for her sake. She deserved to be loved, but all I could give her was only pain and hatred. I had nothing else, I could not give her anything else. I was a miserable human being who have embraced his demons in such a way that now they were inseparable from me. I was incapable of loving anyone without being suppressed by the fear of defeat. I could not love her, not in this life, at least.

I wiped the tears before they had a chance to fall. “I can’t be responsible for your downfall, Z. I can’t do it.” Her voice was barely above a whisper. “It’s not…” She pushed against me and stumbled back. “I can’t do that! I love you! I have no other way to explain this feeling but I fucking love you, Zachary Anderson, and I cannot live with myself if I drag you down with me!” Her cries made me freeze.