When You Are Not Fed Love On A Silver Spoon 소설 & 이야기

Elliot shook his head, but I raised a brow, “I will not eat a bite of this if you do not take half.” “You are impossible, Ms. Pershing,” Elliot mumbled, reaching for the bread. Our stomachs collectively growled, mine feeling as if it were eating itself alive at this point. After the first bite, I didn’t care if it was poisoned, I couldn’t stop myself. After devouring the small bit of bread, tears sprung to my eyes. Food was my first, true love. It never let me down the way others had. The soup looked so unappetizing, but maybe if I imagined it were a bowl of fruit, I could taste it.

For something to change, for effort to appear, for someone to finally see her. But something had shifted. Raegan felt it now, a strange, growing hunger. Not for someone else’s love, but for her own. For the life she once imagined when the world still felt wide open. For the girl she used to be before she learned how to settle. Before she mistook endurance for devotion.

She has Marcus's blue eyes and my dark hair, and she is the most beautiful thing in the world. "Come on, sweetie, open up, ahhh—" Marcus is patiently feeding Julia mashed carrots. She's giggling, getting it all over her face, and he just wipes it away with a gentle smile. Watching them, a warmth fills my heart. This is the life I always wanted. No lies, no betrayal. Just simple, honest love. "Honey," I say, getting up from the sofa. "I'm craving lobster pasta." Marcus turns and smiles at me. "You got it. I'll make it for us tonight."

Back to the silver Source that carried too much weight. Back to the impossible task of teaching ancient hunger to be something better. One Source at a time.

He held the leash, and my hunger had just handed him the collar. Gritting my teeth, I moved. Every step toward the table felt like a descent into deeper humiliation. I reached for the silver serving spoon, my knuckles white as I gripped the handle. I scooped a tiny, insulting portion of eggs and a single thin slice of bread onto the mortal’s plate, barely enough to feed a bird. Then, I turned to my own golden-rimmed plate. With a defiant flourish, I piled it high. I took heaps of the roasted meat, several thick wedges of bread, and a mountain of fruit until the porcelain nearly groaned under the weight.

I tried to explain. He didn’t know. How could he? In Silver Prison, food was always thrown on the floor. If you wanted to eat, you had to crawl and eat like a dog. If you didn’t, you starved. “You’re doing this to guilt-trip me for sending you to Silver Prison, aren’t you?” Daniel’s voice was cold. I shook my head quickly. “No, really. I’m just telling the truth.” Jessica patted Daniel’s arm, sighing.

I clear the table and he helps me clean up the best he can. “I’m a cook, not a cleaner,” he points out. “Someone else always cleans up for me.” “How shameful.” “It’s not my fault that I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth,” he says. “I just wasn’t used to cleaning up after myself. Not everyone is you, just running out on everything and deciding to live in the wilderness.” “You say it like it’s a bad thing.” “Maybe it is.” I scoff. “Not again.” “Won’t you at least think about it?”

With Vanessa’s most recent revelation, I’m sure she was back with the besties planning the spawn’s entire future. I honestly didn’t think the besties were in on the grand master plan to take over Silverpine. I think they were just sycophants who kissed her ass no matter what she did. The dining room was empty, but there were some covered dishes on the side table. I ladled some soup into a bowl and brought it to the table. Even the food tasted different now. Before, it tasted like family, warmth behind every bite. Now the food was bland and lifeless.

On the tray in front of her were two pieces of leftover toast, a small bowl of fruit purée she’d barely touched, and a white plastic spoon that had apparently just been rejected on principle. Salma sat on the sofa, folding one of Poppy’s tiny cardigans while watching all this with the expression of a woman who had spent far too long around Belskys to be surprised anymore. “What now?” I asked. Poppy held up the spoon between two fingers, her face full of personal disgust. “This is a sad spoon.” I stopped at the bedside. “Excuse me?” “Look at the shape.” She pointed at it seriously. “It’s flat. It has no spirit. I want a spoon that’s... uplifting.”

Ferris smirked, watching from the rocking chair as Kael grabbed at his shirt. I picked Kael up to feed him. He fussed immediately. He started whimpering and swatting at the silver spoon. I tried to coax it to his lips, but the moment he grew irritated, the spoon’s stem turned molten and slumped in my hand. I dropped it with a yelp. “By the moon!” “That’s the fourth spoon he’s melted this week,” I said, eyes wide. “He needs his own kind of silver,” Ferris said, rising to his feet. “Or maybe… no silver at all.”