You Hurt Yourself To Make Me Stay の小説・ストーリー

His touch brought sparks running through me. "I- I am sorry but I can not stay," I wanted to stay, I wanted to love and be loved by them if possible but when you had been beaten once, you'd be shy without a stroke. I shook my head as I tried to come up with a sensible reason that would not sound selfish at all. "I do not want to cause any more trouble for you or your family, I can not stay. No," I was saying the exact opposite of what my heart wanted.

"You came, and you didn't run. You didn't cry. You didn't break. You just stayed. You stayed when I pushed you away. You stayed when I hurt you. You stayed when I didn't deserve it. You stayed when I was at my worst. You stayed when I was a monster. You stayed when I was nothing. You stayed when I was everything." I leaned into his hand. Tears streamed down my face. "I'm not going anywhere," I said. "I'll never leave you. I don't care how hard you push. I don't care how broken you think you are. I'm staying. I'm staying forever. I'm staying because I love you. I'm staying because you're not a monster. You're a man who's been hurt. You're a man who's been broken. And I'm going to help you put

Is all I can manage to mutter. “Maybe it’s a little selfish of me to say the same words hoping they would make you stay since you said the same to me but they weren’t enough for me to stay. Maybe it’s selfish for me to hope that they will be enough for you to stay and be with me but I can’t help it, Kian. I am selfish and right now, I am so unapologetic about it.” “I just want you to tell me you will stay, regardless of what is going on in our lives.”

He just stared blankly. “Did you get into a fight?” He shook his head slowly. “No. I did this to myself.” My hand paused. “Oh my God… why would you do that?” His voice was low, almost whispering. “That woman… I crushed a glass just thinking of her. I couldn’t feel the pain. Not with how much I was hurting inside.” “Rue!” I dropped the cotton pad. “That’s dangerous! You could’ve seriously hurt yourself.” “I already told you why,” he murmured, eyes cloudy. “It’s because of that woman.”

I don't want this anymore. I don't want anything anymore. I groan and keep hitting my face, harder and harder each time. When that doesn't work, I start to scratch my arms deeply, drawing blood. I go on and on, not giving my body a chance to heal. The beige carpet under my feet is starting to fill with blood and the blood there makes me remember the moment I got out of bed and saw the blood stain there. I'm seriously so fucking useless. I can't even stand up and do something to actually hurt myself, to end this like I should, I'm just sitting here hurting myself uselessly. I'm never going to die with these injuries.

Crystal barged into her room and slammed the door shut. She panted hard and fast as she thought back to what Cyrus had been saying in the gym. She tried to push back his words and erase the imagination of who the woman was out of her head. "Why do I always hurt myself? I should remember that he has other people in his life and won't suddenly notice me and leave all these people," she said and walked over to the bed. She sat down on it and sighed, pushing away every thought of Cyrus out of her head.

He would do anything for blood as I had read in books. I sat in the room but not a drop of tears fell from my eyes, as if I had known sooner or later he would hurt me like everyone else and he proved it right. I punched the wall and hit my head on it time and again. I screamed like a mad woman and slowly fell to the floor. "Why? Why?" I screamed. Why did this always happen to me? Why? "Stop hurting yourself," I heard him say. "Open the door. You have to let me in, "

and make my way towards the piano and start with the song. I play some tunes marking the beginning of the Song and then close my eyes to help with the nerves and to prevent me form breaking down and start singing. Take your eyes off of me so I can leave I'm far too ashamed to do it with you watching me This is never ending, we have been here before But I can't stay this time not 'cause I don't love you anymore. Please, stay where you are Don't come any closer Don't try to change my mind I'm being cruel to be kind.

I screamed from frustration letting the rain soak my entire body. "It hurts so badly Nico, why did you have to go. You didn't keep your promise you made to me. You liar! I hate you so much" I wailed as the rain increased, but I let it beat me. The pain I felt outside can't be compared with the one I felt inside. A part of me was gone and I couldn't do anything to bring it back. "Bella, goddamnit! Why are you doing this to yourself. Can you just stop being hard to control?. Didn't you read what Nico wanted for you? 'Take care of yourself', not beat yourself up with the rain

“Mia, don’t do this.” “I already have.” He reached for my hand, but I pulled away. “Don’t touch me.” “Baby—” “Don’t call me that.” Frustration flashed across his face. “So what? You’re just going to walk away and act like we meant nothing?” “You meant something,” I said quietly. “But not enough to keep hurting myself.” He shook his head. “You’re making a mistake.” “No. Staying with you would be the mistake.” “Mia, please.”