تسجيل الدخولEmily’s POV
My body moved on its own, hips swaying harder than I ever had before, arms raised like I could push the pain out through my fingertips. The bass thumped inside my chest, matching the angry beat of my pulse. Sweat clung to my skin. The black dress rode up my thighs with every sharp turn, but I didn’t care. “Emily, slow down!” Kara shouted over the music, grabbing my wrist. Her curls were sticking to her forehead, eyes wide with worry. “You’re going to fall if you keep spinning like that.” I laughed, but it sounded wild even to my own ears. “I’m fine! This feels good.” It didn’t feel good. It felt like fire in my veins and ice in my stomach at the same time. Every time the lights flashed across my face, I saw him again, Lucas’s hands on her waist, their mouths locked together like they couldn’t breathe without each other. The image wouldn’t leave me alone. I pulled away from Kara and danced harder, throwing my head back, letting my hair whip around. The alcohol made everything blurry and bright. My fourth or was it fifth? drink still burned sweetly at the back of my throat. Kara tried again, pressing close so I could hear her. “Come on, let’s sit for a minute. You’re scaring me.” “I don’t want to sit,” I snapped, spinning away from her. “I want to forget him.” My eyes swept across the club, searching for something, anything to drown out the memories. That’s when I noticed the raised VIP section on the far side. A group of guys dominated the area, tall and loud, laughing like they owned the night. Hockey jackets hung over the back of their booth. One guy in particular stood out. He leaned against the railing, watching the crowd with a lazy confidence that screamed trouble. Tall, broad shoulders that stretched his dark shirt tight across his chest. Sharp jawline, messy dark hair, and gray eyes that somehow caught the light even in the darkness. Alex Hale, my brother Julian’s best friend since freshman year. The hockey captain everyone whispered about. The campus playboy who never slept with the same girl twice. I’d seen him around before at Julian’s parties, in the background of family dinners but I’d never really looked at him. Before I could stop myself, I started moving toward the bar area near the VIP section. My legs felt loose, like they belonged to someone else. The room tilted slightly, but I kept going, weaving between bodies, my heart pounding louder than the music. “Emily!” Kara’s voice cut through the noise behind me. She caught up and grabbed my arm. “Where are you going?” I didn’t answer. My eyes stayed locked on Alex. He was talking to one of his teammates, but something made him glance down toward the dance floor. Toward me. I didn’t even think. I just opened my mouth and let them spill out loud enough for the people nearby to hear. “I want you to touch me… right now.” My voice carried over the music, raw and trembling with anger. “I’ll show that scumbag ex I’m good at sex too.” For a second, everything around me seemed to freeze. Kara’s grip on my arm tightened painfully. “Emily, no!” she hissed, horrified. She tried to yank me backward. “That’s Alex! Your brother’s best friend! Are you out of your mind?” I barely heard her. My eyes were fixed on him. Alex turned fully toward me. Those stormy gray eyes locked onto mine with sharp surprise, then darkened with something hotter. He straightened up to his full height, towering over everyone around him, and the corner of his mouth twitched like he couldn’t decide whether to smirk or frown. The club spun faster. I felt dizzy, bold, and completely terrified all at once. This wasn’t me. The quiet girl who spent hours alone with her paintbrushes. The girl who had loved Lucas with her whole heart. But that girl had been shattered in a café this afternoon, and right now I didn’t care who picked up the pieces. Kara pulled harder, panic clear in her voice. “Em, please. This is a terrible idea. Julian will kill both of you. Let’s go home. Right now. I shook my head, eyes still on Alex. The alcohol gave me courage I never knew I had. Revenge, pain, and a reckless need to feel wanted burned through me like wildfire. I wanted to hurt Lucas back. I wanted to prove I wasn’t the boring, forgettable girlfriend he’d thrown away. Alex stepped down from the VIP area, moving through the crowd like it parted for him. His gaze never left my face. He stopped right in front of me, close enough that I could smell his cologne mixed with the faint scent of ice and sweat from practice. His gray eyes searched mine, reading every messy emotion I couldn’t hide. Kara kept tugging my arm. “Alex, don’t! She’s drunk. She doesn’t know what she’s saying.” But I did know. In that moment, I meant every word. He took one step closer, his voice low and rough, cutting through the pounding music like it was meant only for me. “Careful what you wish for, little painter girl.”Emily's POVA month later My stomach twisted the entire walk from the parking lot to the restaurant. Julian walked beside me with his usual easy stride, one arm slung around my shoulders like old times. He had been so excited when he picked me up, talking nonstop about how the team had “big news” and that I needed to get out more after that rough night at the club.“You’ve been hiding in your dorm too much, Em,” he said, giving my shoulder a gentle squeeze. “This will be good for you. The guys miss seeing you around.”I forced a small smile and nodded, but my hands wouldn’t stop shaking. I shoved them into the pockets of my oversized cardigan, hoping he wouldn’t notice. Every step closer to the restaurant door made my heart beat faster. I kept replaying that morning in Alex’s apartment — his cold sigh, the way he barely looked at me, the casual way he told me not to make it weird. Now I had to sit in the same room with him and pretend none of it ever happened.The restaurant was
Emily's POVI left Alex’s apartment still wearing his clothes while my brother kept texting me, completely unaware I had just slept with the guy he warned me about the most.The morning chill wrapped around me as I gently closed the door to Alex’s apartment. I moved like a shadow, careful not to make any noise. His gray t-shirt hung loosely on my frame, reaching mid-thigh, while the sweatpants I’d rolled at the waist kept threatening to slip down. My own black dress and heels were stuffed into a cheap plastic bag I’d found under his sink. I felt ridiculous, exposed, and utterly humiliated.I practically ran down the stairs and ordered a cab outside his building. The moment I sank into the backseat, my phone exploded with notifications.Julian: Em, Kara told me you got really drunk and disappeared. Where are you? Julian: I’m getting worried. Reply or I’m coming to your dorm. Julian: You better be okay, sis.I swallowed hard and turned my phone face down. Kara had obviously fill
Emily's POVA scream tore out of my throat before I could stop it.I scrambled backward, yanking the blanket up to my chin so hard I nearly fell off the edge of the mattress. My heart hammered wildly. “Oh my God… oh my God…”Alex stirred, annoyed. He cracked one gray eye open, then the other. No panic. No surprise. Just mild irritation, like I had interrupted his sleep. He pushed himself up on one elbow, the sheet slipping down to reveal his sculpted chest and abs. He ran a hand through his messy hair and let out a long sigh.“Relax,” he said, voice rough with sleep. “It’s just sex. We were both drunk. No need to act like the world ended.”His words landed like a slap. I clutched the blanket tighter, tears already burning my eyes. “Just sex? Alex, I… we…” My voice cracked. “I was a virgin.”He shrugged one shoulder, completely unbothered. “Well, you’re not anymore.” He reached for his phone on the nightstand and checked the time. “It’s almost nine. I have practice at ten-thirty.”I st
Emily’s POV Alex was carrying me through the pulsing club lights like I weighed nothing.One strong arm wrapped under my knees, the other supporting my back. My cheek pressed against his bare chest, still warm from where I’d collapsed into him moments ago. The bass vibrated through his body into mine as he moved through the crowd. “You’re really drunk, Emily,” he muttered, voice low near my ear. “This is a fucking mess.”I tightened my arms around his neck, clinging harder. “Alex…” I whispered, my lips brushing his collarbone. My voice came out soft and broken. “Make me forget him. Please… touch me like you mean it.”He stopped walking for a second, right at the edge of the dance floor. I felt his chest rise sharply under my cheek. His grip on me tightened.“Emily,” he said, warning clear in his tone. “You don’t know what you’re asking. Julian’s my best friend. You’re his little sister. This is crossing every line.”I lifted my head slowly, meeting those stormy gray eyes. The club
Emily’s POVMy legs felt loose and heavy at the same time as I stumbled back toward the bar. The music pulsed louder in my ears, each beat slamming against my skull. Kara’s warning from moments ago still rang in my head, but I pushed it away. “Another one,” I told the bartender, slapping my hand on the sticky counter. Kara appeared beside me instantly, grabbing my elbow. “Emily, stop. You’ve had way too much already. You’re going to regret this so badly tomorrow.”“I need it,” I mumbled, grabbing the fresh cocktail. The glass felt slippery in my fingers. “Everything still hurts, Kara. Every time I close my eyes I see him kissing her. I just want it to stop.Her face softened with worry, but her grip stayed firm. “This isn’t the way. You’re not yourself right now.”I took a long gulp anyway. The sweet liquid slid down easily, but my stomach twisted in protest. The club lights blurred into streaks of blue and red. My head felt too heavy for my neck.Kara exhaled sharply, running a h
Emily’s POVMy body moved on its own, hips swaying harder than I ever had before, arms raised like I could push the pain out through my fingertips. The bass thumped inside my chest, matching the angry beat of my pulse. Sweat clung to my skin. The black dress rode up my thighs with every sharp turn, but I didn’t care. “Emily, slow down!” Kara shouted over the music, grabbing my wrist. Her curls were sticking to her forehead, eyes wide with worry. “You’re going to fall if you keep spinning like that.”I laughed, but it sounded wild even to my own ears. “I’m fine! This feels good.” It didn’t feel good. It felt like fire in my veins and ice in my stomach at the same time. Every time the lights flashed across my face, I saw him again, Lucas’s hands on her waist, their mouths locked together like they couldn’t breathe without each other. The image wouldn’t leave me alone.I pulled away from Kara and danced harder, throwing my head back, letting my hair whip around. The alcohol made ever







