Chapter 1

I found out about my family's celebration of my parents' silver anniversary from someone else's Instagram story.

The video was shot in a Brooklyn Italian restaurant where you needed to book three months ahead. My father wore the navy suit he saved for important occasions. My mother's eyes shone when she smiled. My older brother Luca raised a glass of champagne, and my younger brother Noah clasped a silver bracelet around my mother's wrist.

At the end, the camera turned to Evelyn.

She was sitting in my usual seat, the chair at my father's right hand with the view of the Hudson at night. My mother was adjusting her pearl earrings, as tenderly as if she were smoothing her own daughter's hair.

Meanwhile I was in a supermarket apron, covering a coworker's night shift.

I stared at the caption, "The Hart family, complete at last," and it felt like a fist to the chest.

No one had told me. And I was the only daughter the Hart family had by blood.

Evelyn had come to our house four years earlier. She was fifteen, the daughter of an old friend of my mother's who had passed away. She had no other family. I couldn't bear to see her alone, so I talked my parents into adopting her. She arrived with two old suitcases and nothing else.

My parents said, "Leah, she's lost everything. You have to make her feel that this is her home too."

I said I would.

I gave her my favorite blanket, showed her around the school, told her which teachers were strict and which coffee shop had the best cinnamon rolls. The first time she cried in my room until she shook, I even held her and swore that no one would ever bully her.

I never imagined that from then on, every time she shed a tear, I would be the one who got scolded.

The next morning, the leftover tiramisu from the restaurant sat on the table. Evelyn was wearing my cream cashmere cardigan, taking her time slicing strawberries.

"Why didn't you come last night?" my mother asked, sounding genuinely puzzled.

"Nobody told me."

The air went still for a second. My father put down his newspaper and frowned at Luca. Luca said at once, "I thought Mom told you."

"I thought you were telling her," my mother said.

Evelyn lowered her eyes and drew a soft breath. "It's my fault. I asked whether we should invite Leah, but everyone said she'd been so cold to me lately... I was afraid she'd think I was stealing her family."

My mother took her hand immediately. "Sweetheart, don't think that."

Then she looked at me. "Leah, do you see what you've driven her to?"

I didn't argue. I picked up my bag, and on my way through the living room I saw the new photo on the mantel. Six people, bright smiles, and no me in the middle.

That was when I understood. Evelyn didn't need to drive me out at all.

She only had to look pitiful, and my family would push me out themselves.

After that, every family gathering was like a performance I was temporarily allowed to watch. At Thanksgiving, my mother seated Evelyn in the high-backed chair my grandmother had left, saying "she deserves one real holiday," and I was sent to the kitchen to watch the turkey. When Luca brought his girlfriend home, Evelyn happened to walk out carrying the pumpkin pie I had baked. The girlfriend told her how talented she was, and Evelyn didn't correct her.

Christmas took it further. My father put the keys to the old car he had promised me into Evelyn's gift box. He said her commute was long and she needed to feel safe, and I could take the school bus. I watched her hug my father in the living room, saying "I don't deserve this," while her hand gripped the keys tight.

Noah told me privately not to think the worst of things. He simply didn't see that every time I stepped back, Evelyn stepped into the place I had left, then turned and gave me an apologetic smile.