OVERWHELMING EMOTIONS

Elowen's POV

"I'm Liam's mate!" Merlin's voice rang in my head for the thousandth time and I shook in fury, unable to control my anger. I hated this new feeling that raked through my heart but I couldn't help it. My fury rose like waves, threatening to swallow me whole.

I shouldn't feel this way!

"Ok, Elowen, you've got this," I told myself, trying to calm myself.

"Take a deep breath, and let it go," I closed my eyes, whispering the words to myself while Hayley stood aside, watching me with a worried look on her face.

I kept taking deep breaths, trying to calm my raging nerves but it did nothing to calm me down. If for anything, it only made me more furious.

"Luna, you're doing it wrong," Hayley said, her voice breaking through my concentration. I opened my eyes, frowning as I faced her.

"What else should I do? I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't get this raging feeling off my chest," I gritted my teeth in anger and she smiled, her eyes still fixated on me.

"What's so funny?" I glared at her, furious and irritated at the same time.

"You're a newly turned vampire. Your emotions are overwhelming you," she said calmly.

"What do you mean I'm a new turned vampire? I've always been a vampire right from when I was a baby."

"Your vampire side was dormant. You were more of a werewolf than a vampire. I guess you died which is how your vampire side was awoken," she explained and I frowned. She was right, Raven did kill me and force me to feed on my father. A growl escaped my lips as I thought about it. I can't control my feelings and the thought of everything fucking made me furious and explosive. I'm like a time bomb waiting to go off.

I suddenly paused, recalling something she just said. "Did you just say I was more of a werewolf than a vampire?" I asked, gaping at her and she nodded positively. My eyes widened in horror and I staggered back.

"You know I'm a hybrid? But I didn't say anything," I garbled, unable to accept the fact that my secret was already out. They'll treat me the same way Caden and the others did now that they know. They might even try to kill me for being a monster.

"Luna, calm down," she covered the gap between us, placing her hand on my shoulders. Touching me, a strange calmness washed over me, one I couldn't explain. It was weird.

"The moment the Alpha brought you in, every vampire in this house could tell that you were a hybrid. You have this awful smell the wolves have and yet we can tell that you're still one of us," she explained to me.

"How?" I whispered, still surprised.

"Our nose," she tapped her nose, smiling.

"We have a strong sense of smell and so do you."

She turned away from me, grabbing a blood bag from the fridge and my nose reacted fast, recognizing the smell of blood.

"Wolves have a strong sense of smell and enhanced hearing but vampires' senses are more enhanced than wolves. We pickup scents two times stronger than they do, and we hear things far more clearly no matter the distance."

Unable to control the hunger anymore, I snatched the blood bag from her, draining it empty. My hunger wasn't totally quenched but that felt oddly satisfying. It felt like my body jerked awake.

"How did that feel, Luna?" Hayley asked, smiling, and I faced her, my face morphing into a smile to mirror hers.

"It was exhilarating."

In place of the fury I felt initially, I felt happy. Every fiber of my body danced with excitement. This feeling only made me crave for more blood.

I turned to the fridge, ready to grab another blood bag but Hayley got in front of me, stopping me.

"One step at a time Luna. You'll get intoxicated and lose control if you allow your hunger to control you." I gulped, my hungry gaze on the fridge as I craved for more blood.

"Liam," my ears suddenly perked up, hearing someone moan Liam's name.

It was Merlin.

"Where are you Liam? I'm dripping wet right now on your bed," Merlin moaned, making my eyes darken in fury. I could smell her arousal from right where I stood.

"Luna, you should block your senses for the meantime," Hayley advised, noticing my sudden change in emotions. It wasn't as easy as she made it sound. No matter how hard I tried, I still heard her moaning Liam's name as she satisfied herself while on a phone call with him.

"You know the cucumber can't satisfy me as well as you do?" She said, her voice dripping sultriness.

I shook my head, trying to shake her out of my head.

She is doing this intentionally. She is only trying to make me upset and I'm letting her win.

Liam is hers and I have no right to drag him with her. After all, I'm not staying for long. Once I'm strong enough, I'll take the next exit out and focus on my goal of revenge. A monster like me didn't deserve love.

"You shouldn't write yourself off like that Luna. I'm sure the Alpha Twins' love you and they'll kill to keep you in their lives forever," Hayley said, trying to lift my spirit.

"Did you just read my mind?" I frowned and she chuckled nervously, looking away.

"Your thoughts were actually loud and I couldn't help but hear them," she replied, reminding me of just how freakish vampires were.

"It doesn't matter if they'll kill to keep me in their lives Hayley. I'll just be a burden and that's the last thing I want to be. The only thing I live for is to make everyone that made me suffer, suffer two times stronger than I did after which I'll end this miserable life of mine."

"Luna," Hayley gasped, looking horrified.

"Seeing your face in my man's house was repulsive but hearing you say this, knowing your place is appalling," Merlin smirked, showing up out of nowhere.

"Where did you come from?" Hayley frowned, not looking happy to see her.

"Watch your tone with me, Hayley. You won't love to have to lose your tongue, will you?" Merlin threatened and that humbled Hayley, making her go silent.

I watched Merlin, my face devoid of emotions. She's beautiful and I wouldn't blame Liam if he wanted her instead of me. She had catlike eyes, a seducing body and curves enough to make any man a slave to her body.

"I'm thirsty, grab a blood bag for me, Elizabeth," Merlin ordered, making me confused.

"My name is Elo—"

"No one cares about your name, freak," she cut me short immediately, and I clenched my fist, anger coursing through my veins.

"Don't worry, Luna, I'll get it for her."

"No, you won't," Merlin replied, not smiling.

"I asked Elizabeth to do it, not you."

"But she—" I shook my head at Hayley, telling her to give it up. It was of no use to get Merlin angry. I can't risk provoking Liam and putting Hayley at risk. She seemed like a nice girl and I won't want her to get in trouble because of me.

I grabbed the blood bag from the fridge, handed it to her and she smiled, taking it but then she suddenly dropped it, letting it burst.

"Oops, I forgot I don't drink from blood bags , clean it up Elizabeth," she ordered me and I gawked at the blood on the floor, feeling drawn to it. I wanted to go on my knees and lick every last drop of blood on the floor.

I was slowly going on my knees before Hayley got in front of me with a napkin, stopping me.

"I'll clean it, Luna." She immediately got to work, wiping the floor clean and it made Merlin furious.

"Stupid bitch," she kicked her in the face, sending her flying.

"Hayley," I immediately ran to her side, alarmed and Merlin slowly approached us, looking scary.

"I told you to know your place. Were you deaf when I asked Elizabeth to clean it instead?"

She made to hit her again but I stopped her attack, pushing her backwards, shocking her.

"She is hurt so please just stop," I pleaded, hoping she'd stop but she only burst into laughter like a lunatic.

"Fine, because you begged, I'll let her go, Elizabeth."

"Her name is Elowen, not Elizabeth," Hayley corrected her, healing pretty fast and I gaped at her in surprise. This was the first time she was calling me by name but if she kept this up Merlin might really kill her for real and I won't be able to save her.

"You just don't know when to shut up, do you?" Merlin glared at her, her eyes murderous.

"I only listen to the Luna, Merlin," Hayley replied, boldly, not scared a bit. Merlin gritted her teeth in anger, her claws elongating. She was really going to kill Hayley.

A car suddenly drove into the compound, making her pause, her anger vanishing, replaced with excitement before she zoomed out.

"What just happened?" I asked, confused by her sudden change of emotions. It felt like she was bipolar.

"The Alpha Twins' just came back, that's what happening," Hayley replied.

"You should also go welcome them and show that bitch her place, Luna," Hayley grabbed my arm, dragging me out with her to go see my mates. The thought of that excited my wolf but it made me nervous and scared at the same time.

"But Hayley, I can't—" the words froze in my mouth, my feet refusing to move at the sight before me.

"Luna, we should return to your room," Hayley panicked, looking worried for me but I couldn't get myself to move. My eyes remained fixated on the sight before me, my heart aching badly even though it shouldn't care but……..

It hurts.