81. Reward for submission

Erica

After a taking a long shower, mostly to cool myself and calm the thudding beat of my heart after my interaction with Antonio in his bed, which still felt like it happened in an alternate universe where we both were close to having playful banter or disagreement instead of verging on killing each other , I came out to find the bedroom empty.

Half of me expected him to be here but I was relieved when I didn’t find him. After yesterday, after me going down on my knees for him, it felt like the dynamics had changed, like the Erica who had been ready with a sword and a bunchful of insults with rock hard walls around her wasn’t so ferocious and so gripped by anger left from the past anymore. It felt like with him, I not only took down release but also swallowed some of my own insecurities that I had hidden well behind those stone walls. Now it seemed that there was a window to let the sunlight in, in deep recesses of my soul lighting the path that had been nothing but filled with sha