"Girl! Is your news true?" Amirah exclaimed as she entered Casa de Café, where I was waiting.
"Tss. You’re late! I’ve been here forever!" I grumbled, annoyed. "Is it the end of the world just because you waited so long?" she asked sarcastically. "You scumbag!" "So, what is it? Is it true? You’re going to marry your crush?" Her eyes sparkled. "Yes," I sighed. "Oh my gosh! You’re unbelievable! You said you’d only flirt with him. And now? Not only did you flirt—you’re going to marry him? Can I have your prayer?" Her face beamed as if everything was perfect. Maybe I should be thrilled too, but my life is already a mess. Our relationship—and his relationship with his girlfriend—both ruined. Her smile faded when she saw my expression. "B... is there a problem?" I told her the whole story, how furious Mommy and Daddy were. I could see the worry in her eyes. "I’m sorry… I wish I’d been there for you," she said softly, holding my hand on the table. "Hey, it’s not your fault. It was my mistake—my choice—so don’t apologize." "Didn’t you say Steve has a girlfriend?" she asked. I nodded. "So… how’s that going to work?" "That’s the thing—it’s humiliating for her. I’m sure she’ll think I seduced him into marrying me." "Girl! That’s also on Steve. He’s the man—he should take responsibility! But since you were both drunk… well, there’s no undoing it. Architect Steve is something else." "Hmm… I’m not sure. I can’t disobey Daddy either. If I resist, Steve will be sued. That’s a bigger problem," I said, leaning back in my seat. "You know what, girl—don’t stress too much. Nothing’s final yet. Just relax." "How can I relax, A? I’m a complete mess! I graduated as an architect for our company, and now I’m going to be the wife of a man who doesn’t even love me?" "Hey… maybe they’ll work out their own issues. And about you and your future husband—if you’re married long enough, he might learn to love you. It’s not impossible, B." Learn to love? Me? That seems as hazy as my dad’s loyalty—he clearly adores his girlfriend. "I don’t know what to do… and I can’t stop Daddy either." I’d rather not ruin their relationship, but it’s too late. By the time Daddy decided to marry us, I’d already destroyed someone else’s trust—and my parents’. One mistake. Too many consequences. After talking, Amirah and I went home separately. Driving back to my subdivision, I saw a couple walking hand in hand, laughing. Their joy was written all over their faces. Guilt twisted in my chest. She had no idea. Who would dare tell her that her boyfriend was marrying someone else? As a woman, I know how she’ll feel. I wouldn’t want that pain—but I’ve already given it to someone because of one night’s mistake. I’m sorry… Tears blurred my vision as they disappeared down the street. I realized I’d pulled over. My hands slammed the steering wheel, and I cried silently. "I’m sorry… I’m sorry if I ruined your happiness. I’m sorry if pain will replace the love in your eyes. I’m truly sorry… sorry…" I cried until my chest felt lighter. Why must we suffer for one wrong night? If only I could take it back… When I finally calmed down, I drove home. I didn’t see my parents—only the house helper. I locked myself in my room and lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling. My mind wandered to Steve’s I*******m account. I grabbed my laptop and opened his profile. The more I scrolled, the heavier my guilt grew. I regretted everything. I pitied her even more. Should I even marry him? One post stopped me. September 2—the night it happened. It was supposed to be their happiest day: their anniversary and engagement, just before Steve went to Rose’s birthday. One night’s mistake… to destroy five years of love. How can I marry the man of my dreams knowing someone else is suffering? How can I stand at the altar while she’s left with the pain of losing the man who promised her forever? Three knocks broke my thoughts. I quickly closed my laptop and wiped my tears. "Ma’am Czes, it’s dinner time," the maid called from outside. "I’m coming!" I replied, forcing steadiness into my voice. In the bathroom, I washed my face, but my swollen eyes gave me away in the mirror. "I’m exhausted… but I have to pretend again for Dad." I fixed myself and headed downstairs. The three of us ate in silence. They didn’t even look at me. It felt like I was sitting with strangers. "Prepare yourself tomorrow," Daddy said after dinner, his tone commanding. "For… what?" I asked nervously. "I’ve invited your fiancé and his family for lunch. We’ll talk about the wedding, the date—everything." "D-Dad…" "What? You’re thinking about his girlfriend?" He smirked. "I don’t care about their relationship. Just marry him. Don’t worry about someone else’s problem. Is that clear?" "But… Dad… they—" "Stop, Czes. I don’t want to discuss it. Just do what I said." What now, Brianna? How do I stop this wedding? Back in my room, I opened Steve’s last post again. It was probably the happiest day of their five years—until someone like me ruined it. If he didn’t have a girlfriend, I’d gladly agree to this arrangement. I’ve wanted him for so long. But like this… they’ll both curse me. Now, I can imagine the pain she’ll feel. The man who promised her marriage will be at the altar with someone else—me.I erased what had happened that day. Or at least, I tried to. I kept silent. He heard nothing from me, and he said nothing either.We fell back into our routine, as if nothing had happened. Back to what was "normal" for us. Normal meaning... I was his wife, but I didn't exist in his life. Normal, meaning, we sometimes ate together, but it was like strangers sharing a table at a restaurant. No greetings, no small talk. Just silence.And I told myself it was fine. At least he no longer came home drunk, because now, he drank inside the house.But one night, that illusion shattered.Because Steve came home...with a woman.I froze when I opened the door. My eyes widened, my heart dropped. They weren't just standing together—they were kissing. His mouth pressed against hers so hungrily, as though the world didn't exist.I couldn't look away. I hated myself for watching, but it felt like being stabbed again and again, and my body refused to move. They only stopped when they noticed me."Oh!
My plan to wake up early, so Steve wouldn't realize what had happened, failed. Because when I opened my eyes, he was already gone. I didn't know what his reaction had been when he woke up and saw me beside him last night. Or if he had even noticed at all.I sat against the headboard, clutching Steve's comforter tightly around me. My eyes closed as fear crept into me—fear that maybe, now, he hated me even more. After all, the one beside him wasn't Nicole.The sound of the bathroom door startled me. My breath caught in my throat when he walked out. The man I had been waiting for, the man who haunted my every thought. His hair was wet, a towel wrapped low on his hips, his bare chest glistening.I pulled the blanket higher, hiding myself, my heart racing with a mixture of shame and longing. He looked at me without expression as he rubbed his hair dry."What are you still doing there? Why don't you get dressed and go back to your room?" His voice was cold, detached, before he disappeared i
I noticed that Steve had been leaving for several days. He never ate here anymore, so I always ended up eating alone. I didn't know where he went, but he always came home drunk. Not too drunk, though—he could still manage to drive himself back. Every time he was drunk, I often screamed at him, but in the end, I ignored it all, even though it hurt me deeply. I forced myself to understand.And now, here I am, waiting for him to come home again. No matter how many times he kicks me out, I don't care. I don't know when it began, but... my crush on him grew into something heavier, something more painful. I woke up one day realizing I wanted to take care of him, that I wanted him to accept me too. I wanted to keep Nicole's request—that I shouldn't get tired of Steve. Because I wanted to believe, even just a little, that one day he would learn to love me back.The sound of the door startled me, and I immediately stood to open it. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if one day the door broke do
We now stood before a large house inside the subdivision, Steve’s house. It was a gift from his parents. We could have had two maids, but Steve refused. His reason to our parents was that we needed to “learn.” But I knew the truth. He simply didn’t want them here.When we entered, the house was spotless and fully furnished.“There are two rooms here. I don’t want anyone in my room,” Steve said flatly before walking off.He carried his belongings upstairs while I stared at my suitcase. Then I looked up at the stairs. With no choice, I heaved a deep sigh. I had to carry it myself. It was heavy and tiring, but I eventually managed to drag it up. The moment I entered my room, I collapsed onto the bed, exhausted. Sleep almost claimed me until Steve’s knock jarred me awake.“Hey! Cook lunch! I’m hungry!” His voice boomed through the door.I groaned and forced myself up lazily. “Yeah!” I answered, then changed into something comfortable.I went downstairs in pajamas and an oversized shirt, m
The day my parents had been waiting for had finally arrived. But not me. When it’s a day you don’t wish for, it always comes too fast.I stood before the mirror. Dressed in a stunning gown, my face touched with makeup, and my hair neatly styled. I stared at my reflection without emotion. In just a few minutes, we would be leaving for the church. I felt no excitement, only heaviness. The knock on my door jolted me back.“Czes! Come out now, we’re heading to church!” Daddy called from outside.I sighed deeply before standing up and opening the door. There he was, waiting in his black tuxedo. He looked so handsome, so elegant, standing tall and proud. If only this was my marriage to someone I truly loved and who loved me back, I would have praised him wholeheartedly. Instead, I felt like I was only waiting for this wedding to end.Daddy guided me carefully down the stairs until I slipped into the car. Mommy sat in front, silent, while the ride remained quiet from start to finish. None of
Instead of enjoying my day off, here I am, mumbling to myself in my bedroom. No energy to go out. No desire to take a walk just for fun. Whatever I do, my mind stays chained to what’s happening. How can I enjoy anything when my heart is heavy with resentment? I lean back against the headboard and slip my earphones in, letting the music hum faintly. If I could stay here all day, I would. But Daddy said the people bringing my gown were coming to measure me. They said it was already made, and they’d only adjust it if needed. Tss. Before… I used to dream about wearing a beautiful white gown and walking down the aisle. Now, I just hope it won’t happen. Not like this. A knock breaks the stillness. I pull my earphones out, place my phone on the bed, and get up to open the door. Two smiling gay men greet me in unison. Behind them stands Mommy, her face unreadable. “Good morning, ma’am!” they chime together. I want to return the smile, but I can’t—not when my chest feels like this.