Nicole.The days following my visit to Dad in the hospital were horrible, once again I found myself thinking if I was that horrible to be around.I have done everything a good daughter would do and yet he did what he’d thought was the best.Rowan has tried to find out what happened from me after we left the hospital and after the kids went to bed. At first, I didn’t want to tell him anything but since I wanted to know what kind of person I truly am, I had to tell him everything.I could still remember his expression when I told him what my father did and how he called him a ‘coward’.I felt lighter after telling him everything and hearing him tell me comforting words. It felt nice to know I will always have him around. And he made sure I knew he was listening by closing down the hospital. He doesn’t have to say it but I knew he did after seeing it on the news.Tonight, all I want to do is stay at home with the kids and watch some movies while they are asleep.Movie night for just me.
Jackson.There are many things I could trust my mother with; for example, I could trust her with planning, family gatherings, parties, and household work. I love my mother and could take any advice from her but for this, I don’t think I need any advice from her.I looked at her suspiciously.What does she mean by she wants to help me get her back?The last time I remembered mom hated Nicole.“You want to help me get Nicole back?” I asked in disbelief.I couldn’t believe what I’m hearing right now.She bobbed her head up and down,“Yes. I have been thinking about this for a while now and I came up with a solution while I was vacationing. And I think it would be the best choice.” She said with so much confidence.“And what might that be, Mom?” I asked.She pushed forward, got up from her seat, and made way toward me.“I don’t want to say this out loud because the walls have ears, so I will just whisper it in your ear.” She moved closer and whispered the words in my ear.I felt the anger
Jackson.I have made sure to double the security around the house, around my workplace, and my kids after that slip up we had—yes, that’s what I’m calling it. If I had been on alert and in my right mind, I would have done something the first time I stepped into the room.I knew that person wasn’t the doctor but I wanted to find out my own way, luckily doing it ‘my way’ didn’t cause any harm to Laura and Zoe.It has been four days since we left the hospital and Alfred hasn’t shown up again but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be on alert. I was ready to see him anytime he came around again.There are two things that I have taken note of this l past few days and one is that Zoe wouldn’t sleep alone no matter how many stories I read to her. She would want either her mom or me to sleep in her room and that was something she didn’t do before but it has suddenly become her thing; this has been happening since we left the hospital.I don’t know if it has something to do with Alfred entering her
Nicole.“I didn’t have a choice!” He spat out all of a sudden and all I did was stare at him.Of course, he was going to say that. They don’t always have a choice, just because I didn’t help him back then he thought making me believe he was sick was the right thing to do.“You gave me no other choice Nicole. I….I needed that money badly and I came to you but—“ he explained, running his hand in his air.“You always have a choice, Dad. You could have come clean, told me you were sorry but no, you thought doing this was the right way.” I said, softly.Every fight in my body was gone, and I didn’t want to do this anymore.I should just let him know what I’m thinking and then leave.“I….I knew you wouldn’t help me back then but I wanted to try, you are my daughter and I thought you would help me but guess Theresa was right. You wouldn’t help me because you have it all now.” He said and I stared at him in disbelief.Even after getting caught, he still wouldn’t admit he was wrong.“The only
Nicole.I stood there and took a deep breath.He has been playing me all along and I didn’t know, once again there’s another man in my life who played me for a fool, and like every other time I fell for it.I let out a low chuckle at the thought, fuck!I felt Rowan moving forward and standing behind me.“Is everything alright?” He asked.No, everything isn’t fine.The man I still consider my father does not even think of me as his daughter, he wouldn’t have appeared in my life if I had anything.The thought of everything made me let out another chuckle.“Nicole?” He called.I let out a breath before looking at him, the kids were still here and I shouldn’t do what I am thinking with them around.“Can you….. can you take the kids back to the car?” I asked and he frowned.The questions were dancing in his eyes but with just one look from me, he nodded and was leading the kids outside.I looked at the room again and took one last breath before pushing the door open and walking inside.Dad
Nicole.Dad remained in the hospital after his surgery and has been doing quite well since the surgery. It has been four days since I started trying to find out what will happen next.Yes, I paid for his surgery and everything else that needed to be covered, but he never once requested to see me after he woke up. The first time he woke up after the surgery, I wanted to go into his room to check on him, but Theresa came out and told me he didn’t want to see me.I was speechless, thinking she might be saying that because of the fight she and Mom had earlier. I decided to walk into the room anyway, but Dad sent me out. He truly didn’t want to see me, and I can't help but wonder why.I should be the one who is angry at him, not the other way around. He has no reason to refuse to see me.It has now been four days since his successful surgery, and I still haven’t seen or heard from him. The only person I could ask about his health is his doctor, which is incredibly frustrating. The only ti