เข้าสู่ระบบPAIGE
I can't move. I can't breathe. I can't do anything but stare at him.
He looks just like I remember, but different. More. More man. His face is sharper now, jaw cut from stone. His shoulders wider, filling out that expensive suit like he was made to wear it. Dark hair still falls across his forehead but it's shorter, more controlled. Like him. Like everything about him screams control and power and money.
But his eyes. Those brown eyes are the same. Wide. Shocked. Staring at me like I'm the ghost.
Jesus Christ.
He looks like a Greek god stepped off some pedestal and walked into this tiny coffee shop. Apollo, maybe. Or Hephaestus—the one who built things, who created beauty from fire. That fits. Haruto always did build things.
I try to say his name. My mouth opens. Nothing comes out.
Then he moves.
Two strides and he's right in front of me. So close I can smell his cologne—something expensive and woodsy. So close I can see the tiny scar near his eyebrow he got falling out of a tree when we were twelve.
"Paige." His voice is rough. He says it again, like he's testing it. "Paige. Paige."
Over and over. Like if he says it enough times, I'll become real.
"It's really you?" He reaches out like he wants to touch me, then stops. Like he's scared I'll disappear. "Is it really you?"
"Yes." My voice cracks. "Haruto, it's—"
Then I feel it. Cold. Wet. My feet.
I look down. The cup. The spilled drink. My favorite heels sitting in a puddle of green tea.
"Shit."
He looks down too. The mess spreads between us, ceramic pieces everywhere.
"Your shoes," he says.
"My heels." I wiggle my toes. They're soaked. "They're wet."
He crouches down, looking at my feet like it matters. Like the world isn't spinning. "That's going to be painful to walk in."
"I know." I bend down and slip them off. The cold floor hits my bare feet.
He straightens up. "You want to walk barefoot?"
"I might."
He starts to say something—probably to protest, to tell me I can't walk around New York City with no shoes—when Mrs. Chen appears with a towel.
"Here." She kneels down and starts wiping the floor. "I'll clean this. Your shoes, child." She holds out her hand. I give them to her. "I'll dry them in the back. But not free."
Before I can answer, Haruto speaks. "I'll cover it. Whatever she needs."
I shake my head. "No, I can pay. It's my mess."
"I insisted." His voice leaves no room for argument. He looks at me. "Sit down. Please. I'll order you another drink. Your usual?"
He remembers. After six years, he remembers my usual.
I just nod. I can't speak.
He turns to Mrs. Chen. "Her usual. Green tea latte, extra foam, honey. And I'll have black coffee. Black."
Mrs. Chen looks between us, those sharp eyes missing nothing. She takes my shoes and heads to the back, but pauses. Looks at Haruto. "You're a fine gentleman."
Haruto doesn't answer. He's too busy staring at me again.
I stand there in my bare feet, feeling the cold floor, feeling the weight of his gaze. Six years. Six years of nothing. And now he's here. In front of me. Ordering my coffee like no time passed at all.
My heart won't stop pounding.
He gestures to my usual table by the window. "Sit. Please."
I sit. He sits across from me. The couple with the dessert is watching us now. The old man in the corner doesn't look up from his book.
Haruto leans forward, elbows on the table. His eyes roam my face like he's memorizing it.
"I can't believe it's you," he whispers.
I can't believe it either.
Was this fate? Was this the luck Sadie talked about? Her words echo in my head: I have a feeling your life is about to get very interesting.
She didn't know the half of it.
I look at Haruto—this man, this stranger, this boy I used to love—and I have no idea what to say.
So I say nothing.
I just sit here in my bare feet and wait.
Mrs. Chen brings our drinks. My heels, dried and clean, sit next to me. I put them on because I have to face him like an adult, not some barefoot girl who can't handle her coffee.
Haruto wraps his hands around his black coffee. Doesn't drink it. Just holds it. Stares at me.
"How are you?" he asks. "Really. How have you been?"
I'm fine. That's what I should say. That's what normal people say.
"I'm fine." The words come out automatic.
I don't tell him about the six years of waiting.
I don't tell him I flew across the world to find him.
I don't tell him I check faces in crowds hoping to see his.
I just sit here and lie.
He runs a hand through his hair. That old habit. He used to do that when he was nervous.
"Paige, I need to apologize." His voice is thick. "I tried. I tried to reach you. After my parents divorced, everything happened so fast. The court, my dad getting custody, the move—it was chaos. I wanted to call. I wanted to explain."
I sip my latte. It's perfect. Extra foam. Honey. Like he remembered.
"A year ago," he continues, "I went back to Tokyo. To your mom's house. She said you left for the United States. I tried to find you. I didn't even know where to start."
I set my cup down. "I came here for school." The truth, but not all of it. "Columbia. I studied there. Then I just... stayed."
I don't tell him I chose Columbia because it's in New York. Because he was here. Somewhere.
He nods slowly. "I wanted to explain everything back then. But it was happening so fast. The divorce, the lawyers, my dad dragging me here. I didn't get a proper goodbye. I just told you to wait and—"
"I waited." The words come out sharper than I meant. I soften my voice. "I waited, Haruto. And I'm happy to see you now. That's what matters."
He looks at me like I just gave him something precious.
I was his girlfriend. Even if it was only for two weeks before he left. Two weeks of holding hands and stolen kisses and believing he was my forever. I loved him. Six years later, standing in front of him, I still love him. That's the part that scares me.
We talk. Hours pass. He tells me about MIT, dropping out, starting Shinsei Technologies. I tell him about Columbia, my job at NovaCore, my friendship with Sadie. We dance around the big things—the pain, the silence, the why. But it's easy. Like old times. Like no time passed at all.
I check my phone. 8:53 PM.
"I should go," I say. "It's late."
"I'll drive you." He stands immediately. "Please. Let me."
I nod. We say goodnight to Mrs. Chen. She gives me a look that says we'll talk about this later.
His car is nice. Of course it's nice. He's a billionaire now. The drive is short—too short. I give him my address. He types it in his GPS.
"You're in the East Village," he says.
"Yeah. You?"
"Tribeca. Penthouse." He pauses. "We're only a few blocks apart."
The universe has a sick sense of humor. Six years apart and now we're neighbors.
He pulls up to my building. The engine idles. Silence fills the car.
I should get out. My hand is on the door handle. But I can't move.
He's still my boyfriend. Technically. We never broke up. He just left and I just waited and now—
"Paige." His voice is soft.
I turn. He's closer than I expected.
This is the moment. The one where I decide. Kiss him? Hug him? Wave like an idiot and run?
I go for hug. Stiff. Awkward. My arms around his neck, his around my waist. He smells like that cologne and something else—something that's just him.
We pull apart too fast.
"I'll call you," he says. "We exchanged numbers, right?"
"Yeah. We did."
"Good. I'll call."
I nod. Get out of the car. Walk to my building. Don't look back.
But I want to. God, I want to.
I make it inside, lean against the door, and finally breathe.
Sadie was right. My life just got very, very interesting.
PAIGE"The sad eyes, the hungry eyes, the patient eyes."Mrs. Chen says it without looking up from the cup she's wiping.I freeze in the doorway of her coffee shop. It's just us. Early morning. The old man isn't in his corner yet. The young couple hasn't arrived."What?"She sets the cup down. Looks at me."You came to ask me something. I'm answering before you ask."I walk to the counter. Slide onto a stool."How do you do that?""Do what?""Know what I'm thinking."She almost smiles. "I'm old, child. I've seen everything. Including three men looking at one woman."I stare at her. "Mrs. Chen—""The sad eyes. That's Haruto. He's been carrying something heavy for years. Grief. Guilt. Loss. He looks at you like you're the only thing keeping him from drowning."My throat tightens."The hungry eyes. That's Marcus. He wants. Not just you. Everything. Love. Family. A future. He looks at you like you're the answer to every question he's ever asked."I grip the edge of the counter."And the p
PAIGEMorning comes slow.Sunlight spills through the windows. No curtains still. Just glass and gold.I'm sandwiched between Marcus and Haruto. Julian is at the foot of the bed, his hand on my ankle.No one moves."Paige."Haruto's voice. Sleepy."Hey.""You're awake.""I'm awake.""Good."He kisses my shoulder. Soft.Marcus shifts beside me. His hand finds my stomach."Too early," he mumbles."It's eight.""Too early."Julian sits up. Rubs his eyes. Grey hair messy. "I'm making coffee.""Make enough for everyone."He almost smiles. "Obviously."---JULIANThe kitchen is quiet.I make coffee. The machine hums. The city wakes up outside."Julian."Paige. In the doorway. Hair messy. Eyes soft."You should be sleeping.""I should be helping.""I have it under control."She walks to me. Leans against the counter."You've been quiet lately.""I'm always quiet.""Quieter than usual."I pour two cups. Hand her one."I've been thinking.""About what?""About this. About us. About how I got h
HARUTOI wake up gasping.The dream is already fading. But I remember the important parts. My father's face. The hospital room. His hand reaching for me.And me. Walking away."Haruto."Paige's voice. Soft. Close.I sit up. My chest is tight. My hands are shaking."Just a dream," I say."You're crying."I touch my face. My cheeks are wet."It was just a dream.""You've been having them every night.""I'm fine.""You're not fine." She sits up. Turns on the lamp. The light is too bright. "Talk to me.""There's nothing to talk about.""Haruto.""I said I'm fine."She stares at me. Those dark eyes. Full of things I don't deserve."Okay," she says. "Okay."She lies back down. Turns off the lamp.I sit in the dark. Alone.---PAIGEHe doesn't sleep for the rest of the night.I pretend to. But I feel every time he moves. Every time he sighs. Every time he reaches for me and pulls back.In the morning, he's gone.The bed is cold. His pillow smells like him.I find him in the living room. Star
HARUTO"Haruto. You're doing it again."Paige's voice. Soft. Concerned.I look up from my phone. She's standing by the bedroom door. Arms crossed."Doing what?""Staring at nothing. Ignoring me. Pulling away.""I'm not pulling away.""You've been quiet for three days. You barely ate dinner last night. You haven't touched me since Monday."I set the phone down. Run my hands through my hair."I'm fine.""You're not fine.""Paige—""Don't." She walks to the bed. Sits across from me. "Don't lie to me. Not about this."I look at her. Those dark eyes. Full of everything I don't deserve."My father's lawyer called.""When?""Yesterday. While you were at work.""What did he want?""He wanted to know if I'd visit. Before he died." My voice cracks. "I said no."Paige's face softens. "Haruto...""I said no, Paige. My father was dying. And I said no.""Why?""Because I was angry. Because I thought I had time. Because I'm a coward."She reaches for my hand. I pull away."Don't.""Don't what?""Don
PAIGESunlight cuts through the windows. No curtains yet. Just glass and gold and the city waking up.I'm the first one awake.Haruto is on his back, one arm thrown over his head. Marcus is curled toward me, his hand on my stomach. Julian is at the edge of the mattress, his back to us, breathing slow.I don't move. Don't want to wake anyone.I just look at them.My three men. My impossible family. My home."Paige."Marcus's voice. Sleepy. Rough."Hey.""You're staring.""I'm allowed."He opens his eyes. Blue. Soft. "What time is it?""Early. Go back to sleep.""Can't. You're thinking too loud."I laugh. Quiet. "I'm not thinking anything.""You're thinking everything. I can feel it."He sits up. Rubs his eyes. Looks around at the boxes, the bare walls, the mattress on the floor."We need curtains," he says."That's what I said.""And a couch.""And a couch.""And plates that match.""And plates that match."He grins. "We're really doing this.""We're really doing this."Haruto stirs. H
PAIGEThree weeks pass.The city thaws. Spring creeps in. Flowers push through cracks in the sidewalk. The world keeps spinning.Haruto laughs more now. Not the hollow laugh from before. The real one. The one that reaches his eyes."You're staring," he says."I'm allowed.""You're going to burn the eggs."I look down. The eggs are smoking."See?" He takes the pan. Slides the eggs onto a plate. "Distracted by my beauty.""Your ego is showing.""My ego is always showing. You're just finally noticing."Marcus walks in. Hair wet. Coffee in hand."Burned eggs again?""She was staring at me.""I was not staring.""You were definitely staring." Marcus kisses my cheek. "Can't blame you. He's pretty.""You're both impossible.""We're both yours." Haruto sets the plate in front of me. "Eat. We have plans today.""We do?""We do." Julian appears in the doorway. Grey eyes. Dark sweater. "We're going apartment hunting."I blink. "Apartment hunting?""For you," Marcus says. "For us. A place togethe
PAIGEHaruto points a gun at Marcus.Marcus points a gun at Julian.Julian points a gun at Haruto.Three men. Three weapons. Three faces twisted with hate.I stand in the middle, frozen. Can't move. Can't speak. Can't breathe."She's mine." Haruto's voice is cold. Hard. Nothing like the man who kis
PAIGESaturday morning sunlight cuts through my curtains like a blade.I squeeze my eyes shut. Pull the pillow over my head. Breathe.Three more hours of sleep. That's all I need. Just three more—The pillow disappears."Rise and shine, sleeping beauty."Sadie. Of course.I crack one eye open. She'
PAIGEThe walk from the restaurant to my apartment is slow.Not because it's far. It's not. Just a few blocks through streets that glow yellow under streetlights. But Haruto holds my hand the whole way, and neither of us wants to rush.
PAIGEHaruto texts me at four.Haruto: Dinner tonight? Just us. A real conversation this time. I'll pick you up at seven.I stare at the message for a full minute. My heart does that thing where it forgets how to beat normally.Me: Okay. Seven.Sadie watches me from the couch. "You're smiling at yo







