TOPHERSHE was dancing with another man, at patapos na ang tugtog. Napansin ko siya dahil bumunggo ang likod niya sa akin, and when I looked, she seemed surprised.Pero alam kong sinadya niya.“Topher!” sambit niya. “Jenna,” sambit ko. “Hi. Thank you for coming. Tinuro ka ni Uncle kanina, lagi kang nasa tabi.”Hindi ko mapigil ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. Like an idiot. “I didn’t come with a date.”“Talaga? Then dance with me.”“Wait—” sinasabi ni Barnacle. Mas gracious ang partner ni Jenna. Tumango itong nakangiti noong nag-excuse ang babae sa last notes ng tugtog. I wondered, if Jenna was known to be single, if he would be as smooth in letting her go with his hands, kahit hirap nitong alisin ang mga mata nito sa mukha ng dalaga.Binitiwan ko si Berlin. Beryl. I slid in front of Jenna as she gave me her hand. Pumihit siya in a way na matutulak ang lalaki niyang dating partner sa sayaw kung hindi ito uurong, directly putting him in front of Berna.Na nakatayo roong mistulang naiwan ku
JENNAPARA akong kinakagat ng mga langgam mula sa parteng magkadikit ang aming mga balat habang possessive akong hawak ni Keith sa kamay. Pero hindi ko mabawi ang kamay ko na una kong reaksyon sana noong hinawakan niya ako. Iyon—ang lumayo sa mga hawak nito, at ang mapatingin kay laurel—ang mga iwas na iwas akong gawin ngayong gabi dahil mahahalata agad ng mga ito na may alam na ako tungkol sa panloloko nilang dalawa sa akin. Ayokong malaman niya agad na bistado ko na sila. Ayoko siyang makahanap ng paraan na mai-deny iyon. He still could. He was such a smooth liar. Mas sanay siya sa ganito kaysa sa akin. Kailangan kong mag-ingat.Isa pa, maraming nakapaligid sa amin. They already saw how I danced with Topher. I knew I was getting carried away but I didn’t stop. Doon ko nairaos, sa mga bisig niya, ang galit na tinitimpi ko buong gabi.I was glad I was with him kahit sandali lang. I was glad he got to hug me, and I got to hug him back. Kasi malapit na akong sumabog. His touch gr
JENNAHABANG kausap ko si Uncle Markus, napansin kong lumabas sa ballroom si Laurel. Napansin ko ring hindi nagtagal at lumabas din si Keith.“So, are you sure? Hindi ka pa sigurado na gusto mo nang ma-engage kaya walang proposal tonight?”Tumango ako sa kanya. “Yes, Uncle. I just… nagising ako kaninang umaga with this giant hangover and my mind made up na ayoko pa. Masyado pa akong bata. Marami pa akong gustong gawin.”Napapailing si Uncle Markus. Good thing, he took my excuse na kaya ako biglang attentive magsaya sa party tonight with other men kasi na-pressure ako ng napipintong pagpo-propose ni Keith. Na nahihirapan akong sabihin sa kanya na hindi pa ako handa maging ganoon kaseryoso.“I thought you really have decided kaya…” Saka siya nagbuntunghininga. “Frankly? I’m also relieved. Hija, alam kong noon ay boto ako kay Keith but I realized I really don’t know him enough. Kung naalala mo pa ‘yong pag-bypass niya sa directors dati, ‘yung joke niya na since magiging kapamilya na nat
JENNAPAGKATAPOS nang nangyaring gulo sa Study, mabilis kumilos ang mga amigo ni Uncle para sa damage control. The guests were led back to the ballroom with the excuse that everything was just a misunderstanding… walang anumang meron sa Study.No, walang proposal or something like that.Laurel disappeared very quickly. Matapos maayos ang sarili at mataboy ang mga guests sa hallway, tumakbo siya palabas, dumaan sa backdoor, at umalis.I didn’t think I would see her again if she could help it. Keith was made to stay to explain. To Uncle Markus, at least. Hindi na niya kailangan pang mag-explain sa akin. Iniwan ko sila sa Study at sinamahan ko si Auntie Claudine sa kanyang kwarto kung saan nangailangan siya nang ilang mga sandali para kumalma. No, she didn’t touch the water. She asked for a shot of her husband’s whiskey.Nakaupo siya sa kama, nakasandal sa headboard. “You poor girl. You knew! Kaya kakaiba ang mga kilos mo ngayong gabi. Sabi ko na nga ba, may nangyari. You were so… so
TOPHER“SO, as I understand it correctly, Keith and Laurel were both fired?” I asked as an opener when Jenna arrived. Nakaupo ako sa bench na kahoy sa gitna ng garden kung saan ko siya hinihintay, napapalibutan ng mababangong mga bulaklak at mga puno at marahang mga liwanag mula sa mga solar na strategically located para makapagbigay ng dramatic na aesthetic sa lugar.Tumango siya. “I don’t think they had to get fired. Kung may mukha pa silang ihaharap pagkatapos nang klase ng pagkabisto sa kanila, ewan ko na lang…” Nagbuntunghininga siya. “I actually pity them now. Pero ako ba ang gumawa nang ginawa nila? In my uncle’s house pa talaga.” At wala nang awa sa tinig nito, kundi nagagalit na naman. Umabot ang kamay ko na nakapatong sa likod ng bench at hinaplos ko ang pisngi niya. “Are you okay?”Kumiling ang ulo niya palapit sa kamay ko at humilig. “Okay lang ako kasi nawala ‘yong pag-aalala sa magagawa niya laban sa akin if hindi nangyari itong gabing ito. But… I still don’t know kung
More than a month later…JENNAI DIDN’T mean to come here. I didn’t mean to think about him as soon as I got back from my vacation. I just couldn’t help myself.So here I was, standing outside his door on the very same day I got off the plane, not sure exactly what to do. I just knew that in this big city, he was the first person I wanted to see when I came back.But I didn’t want him to get the wrong impression. This was just how I felt. He was cool and smart, and he was safe. He was the kind of guy who would not think more than what I was ready for him to think, and I enjoyed being with him. I enjoyed sex with him like I never had in my entire life. He was… comfortable.And exciting.Shit, yes, that’s the crux of it. He was very exciting to be with.I miss him. Kahit pa ano na siya ngayon, kung may nagbago na. I didn’t care. I wanted to be friends.We agreed to prioritize our lives before I left for Bali. Ako, mommy ko at bakasyon ko. Shopping. Reading my long list of TBR.
JENNASABIK na sabik ang halik niya, mainit.Pumalibot sa akin ang kanyang mga bisig at nahapit ako sa mas mahigpit na yakap, and I found myself throwing my arms around his neck as I opened my mouth to his prodding tongue. Hindi ko alam kung paano ipaliliwanag iyong pakiramdam ng sobrang familiarity sa halik niya, sa yakap niya, sa katawan niya at maraming iba pa tungkol sa kanya. I had never felt anything like this. Kay Topher lamang, and it was from the first time he kissed me.May time noong nasa Bali ako na sabi ko sa sarili ko, baka nagkamali lang ako. Baka hindi totoo, inimbento ko lang kasi gustung gusto ko iyong pakiramdam. Kasi kailangan ko iyong maramdaman.But here it was again. I was in his arms.At naiiyak ako.Kasi it felt like I’d come home, and nothing else felt right than that at this moment, yakap niya ako. Hindi siya nagbago. Welcome pa rin ako. This was more than anything I’d expected na pagtanggap niya sa pagpunta ko rito.Have I mentioned he’s the best kisser
JENNAI LANDED on the soft sheets of his bed, breathless and wanting. Did I expect this when I was still deciding if I should knock on his door a moment ago? I wasn’t sure. I was only sure that now, sex with him was the only thing I could think of.“Topher…” I moaned as he followed. I could feel the hardness of his body curving its shape to my soft one as he lay half on top of me. I loved saying his name, loved hearing it when I say it. I couldn’t help it. “Oh, Topher!” I whispered again, breathless, opening my thighs wider so his lower torso could settle where I wanted him to be. I could feel his hard cock pressing desperately to my center, arousing me more in spite of our clothes.I think we thought of clothes at about the same time because in synchronized motions we began, quite desperately, to take them off each other’s bodies. We didn’t stop until we were both naked and kissing and rubbing our skin against each other in frenzied desperation. My skin felt like it was on fi