TOPHERI KISSED her–hard–because I missed kissing her and I wanted her to know.I kissed her the best way that I know because I wanted all other kisses from other men gone from her memory. She kissed me back as hard and as hotly. I pushed her with my body towards the door and she knew why because it was her hand that reached for the knob behind her to lock it. Sabi ko na nga ba. Para sa aming dalawa, walang halfway-halfway. She wanted me, too. As in now.But I was me, stupid me. At napaungol ako pero kailangan kong gawin ang sunod. Inangat ko ang ulo ko at tumingin ako sa kanya hanggang napilitan siyang magmulat ng kanyang mga mata.“Yes,” she replied before I even asked the question.“Oh, Jenna…” paiyak kong tugon dahil sa sobrang relief. We still synched, she and I. As I reached for the hem of her short dress, she was unbuckling my belt.“Topher, who still wears belts?” reklamo niya.Natawa ako habang nakasubsob sa kanyang dibdib. I was right. She was wearing a strapless bra. I
JENNAI AM so much in trouble.It had been a full three hours since I parted with Topher. I still didn’t know what happened, because we just didn’t fuck inside that office – thank you very much. Kasi, kung iyon lang iyon, bakit ayoko nang tumuloy sa date ko tonight?I lied to Topher. Or, it was a half lie. Totoong nasa parehong dinner si Uncle Markus, pero hindi sila lang kundi ang date na in-arrange ni Auntie Claudine para sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit napahiya pa akong umamin kahit alam ko namang nakakarating sa kanya ang pagpa-party ko at ibang mga kabulastugang pinaggagagawa ko nitong nakaraang mga araw. If only canceling wouldn’t make Auntie Claudine think that me and Topher had a secret relationship ay nagkansela na ako talaga.Ganito kasi ang nangyari. Iyong pagkukunwari namin ni Topher sa kanyang Mommy at stepfather at Maxine na iyon bilang magkasintahan, nagkaroon ng consequence. His mother asked questions and it reached my Auntie’s ear. Ipinaliwanag ko sa dalawa
JENNA“I INVITED him, actually,” paliwanag ni Auntie Claud nang maupo na rin si Topher at sa pagitan pa nila ni Greg, err, Glenn. “I also invited another girl pero Portia couldn’t make it. Akala ko nga hindi makakarating itong si Topher,” sabi pa niya. “’Buti na lang kahit busy ang sched mo you made it!”Portia? Sinong Portia? “You’re setting us all up for a blind date, Auntie?” hindi ko napigilang itanong. Hindi ako makapaniwala na gusto niyang i-blind date pati si Topher!Napatingin silang lahat sa akin. At nag-init ang mga pisngi ko. Napalakas at napataas ang boses ko.Nanatili ang ngiti sa mga labi ni Auntie Claud. “Why, yes! Binata si Christopher, single… as well as you, Greg and Portia, my dear. Why not?”“Hi!” breathless na bati nang isang pambabaeng boses.I don’t believe it, bwisit kong naisip. Akala ko ba hindi makakarating?“Portia!” excited na walang mintis na sambit ni Auntie Claud.“Iha,” gracious namang sabi ni Uncle Markus. This time, siya ang tumayo para mag-request n
JENNAKUMABOG ang dibdib ko nang makita kong may kotseng nakaparada sa labas ng gate ng bahay ko noong makarating ako roon.It really was almost impossible to believe he could get here before me because I left the parking lot of the restaurant with him still inside the place but… he must have driven here like crazy.He’s coming out of the car.Topher.He looked mad.Uh-oh.Pinarada ko ang kotse ko sa unahan ng kanya sa tabi ng kalsada. Noong bumaba ako, nasa tabi na siya ng kotse.“Did you kiss him?”“Hah! Did you think I’ll have time—”Nahaklit ako sa kanya.And he was kissing me bad. It was rough and angry and bruising. But I was just happy he was there. And then I was happy he was angry. I didn’t think my kind and gentle Topher could be like this. And it’s…Hot.Umangat ang ulo niya. “Did you kiss him?”“No,” parang mabait na tupa kong reply.“Is there anyone else in the house?”“Noone.”“Let’s go inside.”“The cars—”“Inside, baby.”Oh my God, natunaw yata ang matres ko!We were
JENNAI HEARD the noise before I saw them.The unmistakable sound of sex. I knew at once whose male grunts I was hearing. Kasi hindi maaaring hindi ko makilala ang tinig ng sarili kong boyfriend, o ang mga ungol niya at timbre ng boses kapag aroused siya. Sa kabila nang hindi pa kami kahit kailan nakakapag-sex, nakakalabas pa rin kami and we’ve made out. Kondisyon ko iyon, na only when I was ready for serious commitment – like engagement commitment – would I sleep with him.So, Keith was fucking somebody inside his office, on the day I have decided I was ready to have sex with him.And it wasn’t me.This was totally unexpected. I never expected he would be like this. Akala ko napaka-understanding niya. Akala ko napakabait niya at napakahinahon kapag umuurong sa mas mainit na naming mga tagpuan, iyong kung hindi ako tutulak ay may mangyayari na sa amin.Akala ko iba siya. Akala ko talaga nakatagpo na ako ng matino at disenteng lalaki. I’m such a moron pagdating sa pagbo-boyfriend…
JENNA MY NAME is Jenna. My parents were decently wealthy before my daddy died in a tragic car accident when I was twelve, so me and my Mom were left to the guardianship of my Uncle Markus, who is filthy rich.I worked – believe me, I do. I finished a degree in Interior Design, and I consulted with my uncle’s marketing people regarding set designs sa mga commercial ads na ginagawa ng mga ito para sa mga products at ibang businesses. I also designed sets for movies and TV shows in indie films here and abroad bilang hobby na nae-enjoy ko. Nakikipag-collaborate ako sa mga kaibigan kong nagtatrabaho sa foreign movie outfits. I loved it that I could go anytime. Kasi nga, rich kid, so I could afford working on what I loved doing. But in fairness to me, I only do this when I have time. I respect commitments and I would never accept any project I knew I couldn’t finish on schedule.I’m a nerd.I am turned-introvert and don’t normally go anywhere if I didn’t have to. The only reason I at
JENNAUNTI-UNTI AKONG nagmulat ng mga mata. But even before I did that, alam kong hubad ako sa ilalim ng kumot. Naisip ko, with my brain feeling detached from my body, shit happens when you allow yourself to get drunk alone in a bar. But I didn’t think it could happen to me.I couldn’t even cry. Sobrang katangahan na ito. Sobra na!But in the next moment, I realized I wasn’t completely naked. Suot ko pa ang bra ko at panties. Sinilip ko ang ilalim ng kumot para makasiguro, at totoo. And then I smelled soap. Sa buhok ko. Sa balikat ko. Sa mukha ko.I remembered puking before I passed out. Pagkatapos niyon… ni hindi ko na maalala kung anong nangyari. But I did remember strong hands around me before I completely lost it. I remembered leaning on a strong chest. I remembered smelling a certain male cologne that seemed somehow familiar and comforting. I remembered a pleasant but clearly worried voice calling my name… Kilala ako.Sino? Kanino?Ngayong alam ko nang hindi ako namolestiy
TOPHERSHE’S NOT angry. Thank God!Nag-alala ako, but I didn’t think she would be unreasonable. Lahat nang nakakilala kay Jenna Diana Lee sa office, gusto siya kasi hindi siya mahirap kausapin o abutin sa kabila ng koneksyon niya sa ultimate boss naming lahat. Nakakailang nga lang ang kanyang yaman pero once you started really talking to her, she wasn’t unfriendly or suplada. On the other hand, her uncle was one of the coolest men I’d ever met. The fruit did not fall too far from the tree, I see. Pero kinabahan pa rin ako na mag-isip siya nang masama kapag nagising siyang hubad. It was touch and go there, and only after I’d escaped the room did I think of this. Hindi ko na lang talaga kayang pumasok uli sa loob.Hindi ako tsismoso, but I’d heard snippets about her story from the others in the office whenever I went there to submit my work or there’s a commission to finish. Mukhang hindi lang isang beses muntik nang maloko si Jenna nang kung sinong nagpapanggap na in love sa kan