Chapter 3: " Shopping "

Demonise POV:

“I’m full.“ Aziyah licked the spoon and put it on the bowl of soup that was now empty. She’s sitting next to Fergus while he’s staring at her with so much affection in his dim eyes.

“Instead of having fun indoors, how about we go shopping instead?” I witnessed how she chained her hands on Fergus. But in Fergus' eyes, I could see no disgust but fondness.

“But you said your dizzy? Are you fine now babe?“ Standing next to them and hearing their lovey-dovey conversation made my heart aches. I was supposed to be the one whom he cared the most, but why did he let me feel that I’m not even worthy to be stared?

“I’m fine babe. Let’s go shopping? You know that I want to spend time with you.“ Aziyah leaned her head on Fergus' shoulders. He didn’t even got angry about it like what he always did to me. Instead, he caressed her hair and stared at her with pure contentment.

I felt a bang of pain in my chest when I saw him smiling. His smile that was  true and the first time that I saw. 

Why? Why do I feel that I’m the third wheel? Why does my heart assumed that our relationship can still be fix? When in fact, it was already broken in the first place?

“I’m j-just going to wash the dishes.“ I picked up the plates and walked away. I didn’t even intend to take a glimpse at them because I know that my heart can’t take it any longer. After reaching the kitchen, my hidden pain overflowed.

“W-why?“ I whispered while my sight were getting blurry. Tears were the evidenced of aches, and my hands that was trembling were the confirmation that I’m weak. I’m weak to him. I am a coward to him.

I wiped my tears and started to wash the dishes. Hoping that when I get back, I can’t see their love anymore. Hoping that one day, Fergus will do the same to me and will love me like he loves her. But------ I know that it’s impossible!

“Why are you so slow?“ My body stiffened when I heard his deep manly voice, followed with a step. I could hear his footsteps that was  getting near my direction. 

“Are you afraid of me, Demonise?” His unexpected question made me wonder. Who would not be afraid if a person like him was the reason why I’m leaving like hell? 

“Go tour your girlfriend around sir.“ I said and looked at him while he’s also looking at me. “I’m not going to  disturb you again.“ I added.

His sexy lips curved a steamy smile and his eyes were filled with amusement. “Aziyah is using the comfort room. She’s not yet here.” Fear embraced me when I saw him walking near. 

With face full of hidden emotions, I could sense that he would do something.

“W-what are you doing Fergus? Don’t come near me!“ I tried to stop him using my words but he didn’t listen. Instead, he moved his head showing that he’ll continue.

“Now what? Earlier you called me sir, now you’re calling me by my name. Do you know what I preferred the most?“ While saying those words, a sudden emotion ran in his intimidating blue eyes. 

A strange emotion that I could not  name.  

“Honey…“ He whispered right into my ears and that’s when I realized that he’s already in front of me. Breathing next to me, talking next to me. “That’s what I like the most Demonise“ He mumbled then caressed my hair.

“H-honey…“ I murmured out of consciousness. 

Fergus wearing a black sleeveless shirt made him even more attractive. With his white pants paired with  black shoes. He’s the perfect definition of the word ‘center of attraction!‘

“That’s my good girl…“ He said and the next thing he did caught me off guard. He bended his head down and moved near my face. Because of shock and fear, I didn’t have the chance to move.

“Uhmm…“ I moaned when he gently kissed my lips. His big hands landed at the back of my neck. Forcing me to answer his kisses and touch. The feeling was so unexplainable. Being gently kissed by the person whom you love for five years was an answered prayers. However------

“F-fegus! I-I can’t b-breath!“ His kisses went wild that I couldn’t even catch my breath. His hands that’s forcing me to kiss him were so uncomfortable. 

“Aww!“ I exclaimed when he bit my lip before releasing me. That caused my lips to bleed.

“That’s my reward for you honey…“ He licked his lower lip and smirked. “For being such a good pet.“ His words was like a sharp knife that stabbed me. 

How could he do all these painful things to his own wife? Did he think that I’m just a joke?

“Get yourself ready. Aziyah wants you to join us. Behave yourself.“ After saying these sentences, he turned around and left. He didn’t even say sorry for what he did. Or ask me if my lips was fine. How rude!

“Why did I even fall in love with him?“ I asked myself and wonder. It’s all my fault in the first place, I didn’t object about this marriage even though he’s not interested. I was deeply in love with him that it came to the point of doing a silly proposal. But now, I couldn’t do nothing about it.

After clearing my mind and making sure that my heart was fine, I slowly walked to the living room. While I’m slowly getting near to those two people, I tried to encourage myself and put a smile on my face. Watching them with full of love, I discovered that I don’t stand a chance anymore.

“Oh! She’s here babe. Let’s go?“ Aziyah said then stand up. 

No wonder why Fergus cherished her, she’s an apple of his eye. With those well-shaped brows and eyes, paired with her sexy smile. Aziyah was a big catch after all. “Babe?“ She added and stared at Fergus.

“Change your clothes Demonise“ His sentences were so hard that by just hearing it, my heart started to beat so fast again. 

“I’m fine with this sir…“ 

“I’m not fine with it!”

“But I am.” For the first time in my life, I objected his idea. But  this does not mean that I can dodge his wrath next time. 

“I’m comfortable with these.“ I added and took a glimpsed of him that was sitting on the sofa together with Aziyah.

“You’re wearing such short clothing. It's too revealing Demonise! Change your clothes upstairs.” I was so surprised hearing this from my rude husband. His eyebrows were on a line and the way he stared at me was so sharp.

“B-but----“ I was cut by him. “Don’t make me repeat once again woman!“ I wanted to brag but I didn’t have enough rights to do so. His intimidating aura was too hard to deal with.

“F-fine…“ I shrugged my shoulders and answered him the way he wanted. I was defeated once again. I was about to go upstairs when Aziyah spoke up.

“Her clothes are fine babe. I am also wearing the same as her but you didn’t say anything about changing it.“ She said. 

I looked at her and saw that she’s confused. Who would not be? If my so called ‘boss’ would question about how his ‘helper’ dresses? Tsk!

“Let’s just go right now. Ok babe?” Her disappointed tone earlier became sweet and a little bit flirty. She kissed Fergus' cheeks and looked at him with puppy eyes. How annoying!

“Fine… Are you happy now?” He said. 

I thought that he’s going to say ‘no’ for a reason. But knowing how much he loves Aziyah made me question myself. ‘Am ‘I unworthy to be loved?’

“We’re finally here!“ She shouted with full of excitement. Sitting at the back seat, I witnessed how their hands clasped with one another. Finally we're here! This place was suffocating.

I watched how Fergus got out and opened his limo car for Aziyah. Me on the other hand, served myself. SM was a huge mall and being here again was rare. When I was a kid, my parents used to brought me here and would spoil me with toys and clothes.

But when I and Fergus got married, I didn’t get the chance to spoil myself anymore. He controlled my life and my heart. I thought that being a good wife was an enough reason for him to love me and stay, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough.

“Come on!“ He said. I followed them and get in. I moved my eyes to explore the beauty inside. It seems that this mall became much more  bigger and wealthier. For the past three years, I’ve been prisoned in the house and now I’m back.

“Let’s go to the female dresses babe?“ I heard Aziyah asked Fergus. He didn’t say anything and I watched how he took Aziyah's hand and go inside the stall for female clothing’s. 

“I guess I’m just here to lift their shopping bags.“ Well yeah.. I think that it’s the reason why they’d let me join them. Silly you self! You’re assuming so much.

I didn’t want to go inside with them that’s why I stayed outside the stall. Seeking for a place to stay, I saw a bench near the arcade. Which was not so far away. 

I turned my head and seek for them inside while I’m still waiting outside. Observing that they’re happy choosing some shirts, I decided to walk near the bench and sat there. 

I didn’t have money so I couldn’t buy something for myself. Maybe I’ll just wait for them to finish shopping.

“Dem?“ I explored my sight for this familiar voice and found out that it’s actually Tim. My good-looking cousin. 

He’s wearing a white polo shirt and a black pants. Together with his black shoes and sunglasses that added his charismatic presence.

“Are you alone? Where’s your husband?“ He asked while getting nearer and nearer. I noticed that other girls were turning their heads for him. An eye-catching person indeed.

“H-he's with his business partner.“ I didn’t intend to lie but I didn’t want him to know the truth about us. From the very first place, he was  against to this marriage but I begged him to marry Fergus. 

“You look pale. Are you ok?“ He sat beside me and touched my head to know if I’m sick. Watching how much he cares for me, I’m still lucky to have a cousin like him.

“I’m fine cousin…“ I said and smiled at him. He’s expression suddenly changed. It seems that there’s something bothering him.

“What’s bothering you Tim?“ I felt  uncomfortable when he looked at me directly in his eyes. There were  nameless emotions that were currently running in his brown eyes.

“Right…“ He said. 

“I’m your cousin.“ He added. I was slightly puzzled with what he said. His lips formed a sweet smile and his eyes were now with full of care. He raised his right hand and touched my messy hair.

“If I was not your cousin-----“ He said trying to move my hair aside. “Will you stay by my side and open your heart for someone like me?“

My mind froze for a second and my thoughts were deeply confused. “W-what do you mean?“ I asked hoping that I’ll get some answers from him.

“N-nothing…“ He broke the connection from our eyes and traveled his gaze elsewhere. “Don’t mind what I said earlier Dem. My silly mind is just so messy.“ He said and chuckled. 

He’s laughter was a little bit different, or I was just thinking so much? 

“Ohw.. Why are you here by the way? Are you supposed to be with your business thingy?“ I said trying to hide my chaotic thoughts. I added some laughter’s so that he would not be bothered by my hidden agendas.

“I’m just wondering around. My mind and heart needs a rest.” Saying those sentences made me feel weird again. It’s like, there’s something he wants to say. 

“How about you? It’s good that your husband is not so strict anymore.“ He looked at me again with those sweet smile and I could do nothing but to smile back. I was going to open my mouth and say something when I heard a dangerous deep voice in front of me.

“Who is he?“ 

Oh God! His blue eyes were more darker and his eyebrows were almost forming a straight line. He gained lots of attention from the crowd even with his angry look. 

Tim locked his gaze to him and he also did the same. Why the heck am ‘I so unlucky? With my cousin knowing the truth, and my husband saw that I’m with someone else. 

“Fergus!“