Take Me Down, Professor

"I love you, professor," sambit ko habang nakatingin sa mga mata niya tsaka ko siya siniil ng matamis at mainit na halik. Wala na akong mahihiling pa. Kahit na lihim lang ang relasyon namin, basta narito siya, kaya kong lagpasan ang mga araw na lilipas sa aming dalawa na mayroong ngiti sa mga labi. Fulfilled and contented.

"I know, and you have my love as well, my student."

I couldn't help but to break a smile as I glanced to his stunning face. His charm is irresistible to anyone, and I consider myself quite fortunate that, out of all the girls on this campus, he chose to spend time with me. Na nakuha ng kagandahan ko ang atensyon niya sa kabila ng mga babaeng gusto siyang makasama, isama pa ang bilang ng mga babaeng propesora, ako ang pinili niya to be in a committed relationship.

Kasalukuyan akong nasa office niya, sinusulit ang bawat pagkakataon na makasama siya. Palagi akong pumupunta rito para makita at makasama siya. Isang oras lang kasi ang klase namin sa kaniya kung kaya't gumagawa talaga ako ng paraan para kahit papaano ay magkasama kami nang mas matagal.

Professor Sybill Enciso is our Calculus professor, and despite the fact na nahihirapan ako sa subject niya, I find myself paying attention sa mga idini-discuss niya. At least, natututo ako kahit papaano, although the majority for me were really hard to understand. Hindi naman ako nakipagrelasyon sa kaniya para rito, para makapasa, siguro bonus na lang iyon na natuturuan niya ako kapag may mga point na hindi ko talaga maintindihan ang lesson. And natutuwa ako na isa iyong way para magkaroon kami ng moment. He is teaching me in private after class, of course, along with some extra fun activities that only we know. Kaya hindi ko hate ang Calculus, lalo na siya ang professor.

I am currently in the fourth year of college, at malapit na ring mag-isang taon ang relasyon namin ni Professor Sybill. Walang nakakaalam. Walang nakakapansin. Malaging kaming magtago. At natutuwa ako sa mga nakaw naming sandali at sa mga lihim na pagsulyap at paghipo tuwing nasa klase. And it is fine with me, kaunting panahon na lang naman ang titiisin ko at magkakasama na kami nang mas mnalaya. At isa pa, I don't want anyone else to know about us because I don't want him to get dismiss or for it to cause a separation between us. Marcus University does not permit any form of intimate relationship between its faculty and students. Well, lahat naman ata ng school.

I couldn't help but grin when I felt him lightly touching my cheek. My flesh and bones are dissolving because of his touch full of warmth and love.

"Our first anniversary is coming around, my dear. Anong gusto mong gawin?" I flashed a smile once more. Ibig sabihin, aware siya kung kailan kami nagsimula.

"Of course, I'd like to spend it with you," my response, which came out while I was giddy with excitement.

"Would you like to go to my flat instead?" My irises shone brightly. To go to his apartment is exactly what I've been requesting of him for a considerable amount of time now dahil palagi na lang sa bahay ko.

I inquired, "Is that something I can do?"

"Sure thing, my dear," sambit niya tsaka ako muling hinalikan. I can't keep my mind off the possibility that something exciting will have happened in his unit by the time I get there. Ano kayang itsura ng lugar niya? Malaki ba? Maganda? Malinis? How about doing it there? I want to spend the rest of the day with him in every corner of his house.

My fantasy was interrupted when the door opened unexpectedly. It shattered my world of make-believe. After that, some faculty walked into Professor Sybill's office, both of them shaken by what they had just seen. Even I was unable to put clothes on and had to resort to blocking my upper body with the professor's coat instead.

The head teacher turned his eyes to the guy beside me and asked, "Professor Enciso, what is the meaning of this?!" My chest began to tighten almost instantly with anxiety. Kahit ang mga kamay ko'y nanginig sa takot. Maging ang mga tuhod ko'y nawalan ng lakas. Bakit sila narito?

It was difficult for me to follow what exactly they were debating. Nakita ko na lang ang sarili kong nag-iisa sa opisina pagkatapos nilang kunin sa akin si Professor Sybill. At hindi ko alam na iyon na pala ang huling beses na makikita ko siya.

Walang nakakaalam sa nangyari, bukod sa akin at sa mga guro. And because of that, I can't help but blame myself for everything that happened. After everything that took place, hindi ko na muling nakita si Professor Sybill. Nang umalis siya, it was almost as if all of my hopes and dreams were shattered and vanished. Hindi ko na alam kung paano magpapatuloy. Bakit ba kasi hindi puwede? Why do they prohibit teacher-student relationships? Is it because I'm too young for him? Too immature? But I love him. We love each other.

Ano nang mangyayari sa akin ngayon? Now that he's gone, what about the dreams we built together? We still plan to celebrate our anniversary. Wala na rin ba iyon?

Wala na akong balita sa kaniya pagkatapos ng nangyari. Even my several attempts to call him; he is now unreachable. Nawala na siyang parang bula. At kahit na anong tanong ko sa mga professors tungkol kay Professor Sybill, not a single one of them was able to provide me with an answer. Everyone was advising me to just put him out of my mind because what we were doing together was against the law. Ano bang mali sa pagmamahal? We just love each other. And how can they tell me to stop doing it when we have just begun? Mag-iisang taon palang kami pero pinutol na nila! Hindi ko pa siya makausap! I don't understand. They are all unreasonable. They denied me the opportunity to enjoy myself, particularly in relation to the professor. They have all devastated my life, and the least I can do is return the misery they caused me.

"Why are you late again?" 

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