[Daisy's POV, Year 2004]
"Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on?)..."IT WAS ALL BLACK FOR ME. My brows are slightly furrowed as I hold my chest. I don't know how the people react as I present them my talent. All that I know is that I love what I am doing... singing; to let all the feelings out of my heart in every lyric and to give all the expression through every note.As soon as I opened her eyes, my gazes went directly to the window on the second floor. A man was standing behind it; he was silhouette yet I know that he's enjoying what he's watching. Of course he should be, I am singing our song."Happy birthday, Mayor!" one of the guests greeted, Mr. Howards.I stayed standing behind my father's back, playing with my nails that I just get done early in the morning; nail polish can never last a day on my nails. I just smiled at the other guests or bow or shake hands when they offer. I can do nothing here but to act formal and completely not myself, especially everyone is watching… including him."Good evening, Ms. Strauss."Humarang sa harap ko ang isang lalaking nakasuot ng isang itim na amerikana, sobrang kintab pa ng buhok nito na halatang may gel. I saw my father walking towards his colleagues and I couldn't follow him this time because of the man who's standing in front of me. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang mairita at tignan nalang mula ulo hanggang paa ang lalaki.I gave the man a small smile… a fake one, "Good evening."The man bowed then he grabbed my hand to kiss it on the back of it. "It's a pleasure to meet you, I am Darren Howards."I immediately pulled my hand away from the unknown man due to a shock. I swallowed my spit as I simply looked at the window on the upper level of our house. HE was there, looking directly to me. He surely saw what this stranger did to my hand.I tried to smile again at Darren but I knew it didn't look real; it's more like a grin."I-It is nice meeting you too, D-Darren."I gave a gaze at the window again; it is closed now with the curtain being swayed by the wind. I swallowed hard again as my hands trembled. I am afraid of what he might think; will he be mad at me? Or was he just jealous…I simply pursed my lips to stop myself from smiling. My hands stopped trembling as my fear started to turn into giggling. Oh, Eros…“Uhm sorry,” I said to Darren, “I really need to go to the restroom so if you may excuse me please.”Without any permission from the man I was talking, I immediately walked away with my heads up. Naglakad ako as fast as I can, trying to not get the attention of the guests. Nang makapasok na nga ako sa bahay ay agad na akong napatakbo, ignoring my 5 inches high heels na halos ikadapa ko na sa kakamadali. Kaso dahil nga sa kakamadali ay hindi ko na napansing may nakaharang na pala sa harap ko. Bumangga ang mukha ko sa isang matigas na bagay na siyang dahilan ng pagsalampak ng pwitan ko sa sahig.“Aw!” I screamed."Oh, where are you heading?"Salubong ang mga kilay ko nang tingalain ko siya. I knew who’s voice is that; Axel. Axel is a friend of mine; he and I became friends after my parents introduced him to me. Though hindi ko talaga gusto ang ugali niya… masiyado siyang mayabang!"Wow, sorry for bumping me!" I raised my one brow yet I held his hand so I can stand up from the floor."You're the one who bumped my back so yes; you're the one that should be sorry."I smiled at him with my eyes narrowed as a sign of fakeness. I really don't like his guts, I hate his whole existence but then, we're friends and I don't even know why. I ignored him. I continued running towards the stairs so I can finally go to my boyfriend’s room."San punt ‘te, may party pa oh?" Leizhe rapped with her hands doing some sign, she even blocked my way as I ran in the middle of the stairs. Oh, I have no normal friends."Upstairs, duh!" I sarcastically answered with rolling my eyes.I slightly pushed Leizha aside then I continued running again. I heard her laughing, satisfied with my reaction. She's the craziest yet closest friend to me; we grew up that way so we have to deal with each other's different personality. Ewan ko ba, di na ata ako magkakaroon ng kahit isang normal na araw o normal na kaibigan manlang.Finally, I reached his room's door. I twist the knob to open the door. As the door opened, someone suddenly grabbed my hand from the inside of the room then banged the door loudly.A wet towel touched the back of my right hand— where Darren kissed me earlier. It was a hard yet gentle rub as if something so dirty was on there but he was afraid to hurt me at the same time."He looks like his breath stinks," the man in silhouette uttered.The room was dark so I really can't see his face clearly. The only light that could enter the room was the party lights from the pool area where my father's birthday celebration was happening. Hence, I can feel that his brows are furrowed at the moment because of annoyance; obvious na yon dahil sobrang kuskos ang ginagawa niya sa kamay ko."He wasn't, he actually smells good," I countered with a chuckle just to annoy him even more.His eyes moved from my hand to my face without moving his head, "Edi magsawa ka kakaamoy sakanya!"He threw the towel to the floor then he turned his back against me. He walked towards his bed then jumped onto it; he even covered his whole body with his white fluffy blanket. I just laughed when he did that. Eros... I like it when he is acting like he is really pissed off about something that does not really matter.I slowly walked towards his bed. I lay down next to him and got inside the blanket, he was facing the wall so his back was facing me. I approached him and pretended to sniff his nape, "Hmm, a woman who would sleep beside you will wake up with ecstasy because of your smell, my love."I heard him scoffed. Humarap siya sakin, the blanket is white so the light from the window comes in a little bit inside our veil. "Mas mabango ako sakanya?" he asked.I giggled as I hugged him on his waist tightly, "Of course, you will always smell better than anyo—."My eyes went wider when he interrupted what I was about to say with a short soft kiss. I bit my lower lip hard, my face was so hot! Dang it!"You smell like a Daisy, Daisy.”[To Be Continued]Daisy’s POV"You smell like a Daisy, Daisy," he huskily whispered. His face slowly went towards my neck; he sniffed it as if he smells some mentholated topical ointment, "It smells so good."He planted a kiss on my neck, down to my shoulder then to the end of it. I could hear his the way he breathe, his spittle are hot as it touches my skin. His smooches make noise which turns me on.I gripped onto his shirt in a tight matter, as tight as I closed my eyes. I slightly bit my lower lip. I let him and his lips do anything on my neck but then he’s tactless. He abruptly stopped kissing me as if he did not turn me on just earlier! "Stop being kind and let anyone kiss your body parts, Daisy," he commanded. I pursed my lips with my brows furrowed, "That's a sign of formality, Ros!"“We are in the Philippines, kissing on someone’s hand is out of our culture’s formality; he could have just shook your hands or bowed down with a hand on his right chest just like the old way.” He wrapped his arm
Daisy's POVPagkapasok namin sa loob ng bahay ay si Eros naman ang pumutok ang labi nang makatanggap din siya ng sampal mula kay Daddy. Si Tito Fredo ay nakatayo lang sa likod, he was gritting his teeth. Probably he's mad as he sees his child being hit by anyone else."Hindi ba malinaw ang usapan na you'll stay inside the house until the event is over!" singhal ni Dad. "My God! Your violence is exactly the reason why I don't want you to join any event of this family.""That douche is disrespecting Daisy, Tito. I cannot just let him do that," mahinahong pagpapaliwanag ni Eros.Tumayo nang deretso si Tito Fredo at nagkalad na palapit, "Yun naman pala eh, may dahilan naman pala ang bata. Hirap kasi sa'yo lagi mong pinag-iinitan ang anak ko."Mula sa likod ko ay hinawakan ako ni Mom sa braso, "Totoo ba 'yon anak? Binabastos ka ng anak ni Mr. Ferrer."I bit my lower lip as I nodded. Napayuko nalang ako ay lumunok nang mariin. Dahil sakin, napapagalitan pa ngayon si Eros."Fernan, pinagtang
Daisy’s POV Halos manlumo ako habang tinitignan ang resulta sa tatlong maliit na puting rectangle thing. Two lines. I'm... pregnant. Mahina kong pinalu-palo ang noo ko. Antanga ko, bakit hindi ako nag-ingat? Antanga niya rin, hindi siya nag-ingat! Pero ano bang malay ko na gan'on kabilis mabuntis, isang beses lang naman naming ginawa 'yon. "Daisy! Ano? May resulta na ba?" narinig ko ang boses ni Leizhe na sumisigaw mula sa labas ng banyo. Huminga ako nang malalim. Tagaktak ang pawis ko dahil sa kaba. Tumatakbo sa isip ko ang mga katanungan. Paano ko bubuhayin ang batang 'to? Kaya ko ba? Paano ko sasabihin kay Daddy? Ano nalang sasabihin ng iba? Everyone thinks that Eros and I are cousins, kapag nalaman nila ang balita. Paniguradong marami akong maririnig na panghuhusga. Pinalakas ko muna ang sarili ko bago ko binuksan ang pinto. There, I saw Leizhe and Axel wairing for me. Parehong may pag-aalala sa mga mukha nila. Hindi ako makapagsalita kaya kinagat ko nalang ilalim ng labi ko.
I was busy tapping my fingers on the table while Jester was busy doing his plate beside me. I’m still thinking about how would my father react after kong sabihin sakanya ang tungkol sa pagbubuntis ko. I don’t think matutuwa si Dad kapag nalaman niya na, especially after Kuya chose to follow his dream to be a police officer and have no interest in continuing the legacy of the family in being a public servant; maski nga sa kumpanya na itinayo ni Lolo ay walang interes si Kuya.“This is your carbonara, Princess.” Inilapag ni Axel ang isang plato ng carbonara sa ibabaw ng lamesa ko, mula sa tray niya ay nilapag niya pa nang maingat ang isang bukas nang coke. “And your drink at your service.”“Don’t drink that,” agap ni Jester pero hindi parin naman naalis sa papel niya ang kanyang atensyon. “Until we talk to an ob, you won’t have any foods or drink with unhealthy substance; that might affect the baby.”I heard Axel scoffed as he sat down beside me, “The future daddy’s so strict.”Awtomati
There were photos on the bulletin board. Photos where two people were daring to each other, they shared romantic kisses, hugs, and happy smiles. Their feelings are testified by the way looked at each other. And those two people inside those photos were…Eros and me."Oh my God!" I heard someone gushed. I felt Leizhe’s hands on my arms, “What the hell is this?”Nakita ko nalang si Axel na lumapit"Tangina ano 'to?" singhal naman ni Kiro.Unti-unti akong napaatras. Di nakakatakas ang mga salitang binibitawan ng schoolmates ko. Rinig na rinig ko ang masasakit na sinasabi nila. Mga salitang hindi ako handang marinig."Grabe! Anglandi, pinsan pa talaga niya ang syinota nita.""Galing pa naman sa respetadong pamilya, nako nako! Layo tayo baka nakakahawa yan.""Akala ko pa naman matino, may tinatago rin palang kaimoralan."Isa-isang tinanggal ni Eros ang mga litrato sa bulletin board at nilukot 'yon, "Who the fuck did this?"Hindi ko kayang itaas ang tingin ko, parang wala akong mukhang maih
[After 7 months]Pinunasan ko ang pawis na tumatagaktak sa noo ko gamit ang likod ng palad ko. Ang isang kamay ko naman ay walang tigil sa pagpaypay sa ihawan. Nang mapunasan na ang noo ko ay nilagay ko sa beywang ko ang kamay ko, para akong nagbubuhat ng sobrang bigat na bagay na siyang nagpapangalay sa likod ko.It has been 7 months when Eros and I left the house— the city. Pumunta kami sa isang probinsya na malayo sa city namin para makaiwas na sa mga kakilala at mapag-usapan pa. Dahililang buwan na rin naman ang lumipas ay lumaki na ang tiyan ko, kabuwanan ko na rin pero hindi naman pwedeng itigil ko ang pagtitinda lalo pa’t hindi naman sapat ang naipon namin ni Eros mula sa allowances namin na siyang nagastos na namin sa checkups at sa renta ng bahay."Ilang buwan na ba iyang tiyan mo, ija?" old Manong Chris asked while waiting for his inihaw to be cooked.“Ah, kabuwanan ko na ho,” nakangiti kong tugon."Aba't napakaliit naman ng tiyan mo kung kabuwanan mo na," natatawang wika ni
Daisy’s POV [3 months later]Hila-hila ko ang duyan, hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti habang pinagmamasdan ang natutulog na sangol doon. Hindi ako makapaniwala na kapag isa ka na palang ina, napakabilis ng oras mo; ni hindi mo namamalayang unti-unti nang lumalaki ang iyong anak.Astraia Snow Vidal, iyon ang pinangalan namin sakanya. Rai derives from the Greek-goddess Astraea, the Goddess of Justice, innocence, purity, and precision na sana ay maisabuhay niya sakanyang paglaki. Ang Vidal naman ay apelyido ng namayapang ina ni Eros total ay iyon ang gamit na apelyido ni Eros noon pa man."Bilis mong lumaki anak," reklamo ko sa natutulog na bata.Narinig ko ang pagbukas ng de-kahoy naming pinto. Mula roon ay pumasok ay pumasok ang halatang pagod na si Eros; pawis na pawis siya at halos manguba na ang likod, bitbit pa ang kanyang lubid at bota."Good afternoon, love.” Eros walked towards me then he kissed me on my forehead, “What’s for lunch?”Napakurap ako at saglit na napatigil. Oh shit, I
Daisy’s POV“For the nth time, no Daisy!” Eros sighed. He massaged his forehead with his two fingers, “We’re not going back to that house.”Napabuntong hininga ako. Ibinaba ko si Rai sa crib niya upang malapitan ko si Eros samay lamesa na kasalukuyang naglilipat ng gatas sa takalan.“But we can have our old lives back there; we can go back to university while the maids are taking care of Rai so we can have better jobs for us to raise Rai,” I explained. I held his arm with my two hands as I tried to raise the middle of my eyebrows, “This is our chance to give Rai the better future for her.”“And a chance for them to control our lives again.” Inilayo ni Eros ang braso nya sakin sabay ng pagbitaw niya sa takalan ng gatas, “What if once we get there they’ll just hide Rai too and let the people think that she’s just out with her friends para hindi mapag-usapan o maalala yung kahihiyan na nangyari sakanila. What if yes Rai will get all the fortunes in the world but not the fortune being a p