The Search

Ashlynn POV. It's you and your world and I'm stuck in the middle, I got the edge of the knife and it hurt just a little. It's not like I asked for this, no one would ever ask for this, but I'm lonely, and it's a lonely night, the loneliest night of my life, okay I'm done using song lyrics to describe what's going on with me.I'm lonely, that's the thing that's killing me on the inside, I'm lonely, there's a big hole in my chest, a feeling of missing something or someone. My soul isn't complete, there's a big piece of me gone, or maybe I haven't found it yet, I feel the need to go out there and search for my lost piece, I can't take this pain, this emptiness. I feel the need to cry, to mourn, to yell and scream, but all of those won't help my broken heart, what I need is someone to love, all wolves would look for their mate, for someone to lay over their shoulder and feel loved. That's what we are wolves, but we are souls who were broken in half, we're never complete until we find ou

Ashlynn POV. I'm in love, I'm in love, I finally found someone who'd love me for who I'm, well not who I'm she doesn't know I'm a little, we've been trying something else, I got to the club more and more often, we get to play together there, I was too worried about telling my family about her, they wouldn't get it. "Ashlynn, wanna play?" Kiara asks me, I shake my head no, I don't want to go little, I'm fighting my little side, I'm trying my best to avoid slipping."No, I'm not feeling little," I tell her, she leaves me be whenever I tell her that I'm not feeling little to join her in her games. "But you can colour even if you're not little," she says, but colouring would make me slip. "No, I don't feel like it," I tell her hoping she'd get lost but she doesn't, she keeps on whining about playing alone."Come on Ashlynn, you never home anymore, and you never play with me!" she whines, there's no leaving without playing with Kiara, I don't want her to get upset and cry either, I'm n

Ashlynn POV. I've been here for a month, it's only one month, but it's hell, I'm living in hell, Amber changed, it started soon after I moved in with her, she took my phone away, she locked me in, she did things...I don't want to mention any more of that, I'm stronger than my injuries, I'm stronger than the bruises she leaves over me my body, she always says she didn't hit me that bad, since my bruises would disappear right away, but I'm a wolf, it's the reason I'm healing real quick.But I'm done being treated as a toy, I'm done being a little who's abused, she has ruined me, ruined my little side, she's not someone I want to stay with, a month was more than enough, she terrorized me, she scared me, she told me I could never leave. But guess what happened today, this morning my wolf has decided that enough and is enough, we aren't hiding anymore, we're done, I'm a dominant wolf and not some helpless girl."Ashlynn, where are you little bitch?" she yells, but the toy she's calling i

Ashlynn POV. I can't sleep, I can't sleep, grr, I growled at myself, I want to sleep, why can't I sleep, I need the rest, I need to have some time where I wouldn't be thinking about her, about things, about my mate being MIA so far, why can't my mate just show up, I can use to be held by the one who is made for me, my wolf mate, my one and only. I groaned and left the bed this time, I looked at the time, it was four am, I haven't had any second of sleep tonight, the doctor said my blood work was clean thankfully, there was no reason for me not falling asleep, or maybe it's the lack of shifting that keeping me awake. But my fear of going feral once I shift, has me sticking to my human form, I went down the stairs, deciding to see if anyone is up or around, maybe get some water. I saw some of the patrol enforcers in the kitchen along with mom, I gave everyone a smile and said my good mornings. "Good morning, Ash, isn't it a bit early for you?" mom asks me, it's only four am. "I dec

Ashlynn POV. In my car, I sped off toward my brother's place, I sent them a message along with my mother's, telling them I'm on my way, I started the long drive to their place, and I had music on to keep me company, but my brain kept on repeating the scent I've smelled. So faint, yet so strong, I wonder how would it smell when it's closer, when it's stronger, my wolf wants to roll down in that scent, to bite the owner and call them ours, only ours. I shook my head at that, I want them, it's not that I don't want them, but I'm not ready yet, I need to have some time to pick up all the broken pieces that broke off me due to Amber and her memories. Maybe once I'm feeling better, I'll get back to them, I'll search for them, I'll have Liam's help, they aren't anyone in my pack, I know everyone, they must be one of his friends who's coming over to spend the night, I'd be able to find them, I'm sure I would. Now that I have a plan, I slowed down a little, there's no need to be in a hurr