I can’t be distracted by this, I have a million questions that need to be answered. Plus, I’m not ready for anything related to feelings or intimacy. His eyes are burning into my skin, I can feel them move along my body, he clears his throat. “Are you ready to go?” He asks. “Yes, I- uh, where do I put all my things?” I say fumbling my words. “Leave it, I’ll have them sent to your cabin. There’s a car waiting outside to drive us to the restaurant.” He says and walks towards the door. We walk in silence to the car, my heels clicking against the floor the only sound. He opens the door and extends his hand to help me in. “Oh we’re using niceties now are we?” I smile up at him as I take his hand and slide in. “Think you can last the whole night?” He questions raising his eye brow with a knowing smirk at his innuendo, then shuts the door before I can reply. Good thing because I’m too shocked to comment on that one.
“Is he flirting or is it just me Star?” She laughs, “I think you’ll be playing with fire tonight,” she replies. Great. The car ride is silent and I feel microscopic sitting beside this gigantic man. The driver doesn’t even say a word, but I’m sure mind link is their preferred way of communicating. I take in everything we pass on the way there, carefully assessing anything I may need to know for the future hoping Star is paying attention as well. Ever the gentleman, he helps me out of the car once we reach the restaurant. It’s beautifully built, the dark wood and black brick are accented by tendrils of ivy that climb up the building. The name over the entrance read ‘Blue’ with blue light shining behind each letter so it could be seen in the night like the moon. “Alpha it’s so good to see you,” the young hostess says, “your table is ready and we’ve included our new red wine, I hope you find it highly pleasing.” She smiles with hearts in her eyes. I can’t blame her, he looks like dinner and dessert. She shows us to our table that’s set in the back, out of view and ear shot from the rest of the restaurant. Along the way I hear everyone acknowledging their Alpha with nods of ‘hellos’ and ‘good to see yous’, while I feel like I’m on full display. Noah pulls out my chair and I sit, the etiquette is throwing me off. “Thank you Kiara, this is perfect.” Noah dismisses her as he sits down as well. “Enjoy your dinner Alpha,” she blushes and walks away. I turn to him and he looks almost, embarrassed? “Are you not used to all the attention, Alpha,” I say the word teasingly. He smirks at the title coming from my lips. “I could get used to you saying that,” he replies. “Well that part is up to you now isn’t it?” I tell him. The server walks up to us, “Hello Alpha, it’s very nice to see you,” he says as he hands us our menus. “Thank you Carlos,” he leans back in his chair, looking relaxed and confident. “How’s school going?” Noah asks him. Carlos smiles and animatedly starts explaining how well he’s doing in his medical classes, outlining his favourites. Noah goes on to ask him about training as well and Carlos sheepishly explains where he’s been having difficulties. “Please don’t ever hesitate to ask for advice Carlos, we can have a one on one and I’ll help you past this obstacle,” Noah encourages. “Thank you Alpha, that would be amazing,” Carlos says excitedly, “Can I grab you two anything to start? Maybe a drink?” He looks to me expectantly. I totally forgot to look through the menu while they had their conversation, I was distracted by the fact it wasn’t all through mind link like I’m used to.I grab my wine glass and force down another sip trying to wash away the sins forming in my head. Noah takes another sip before finally replying, “What if I do like you?” My eyes snap to his. “You don’t even know me,” I say, trying to back track already, my breath faltering. “Do I need to know everything about you to be attracted to you?” His smirk makes my heart rate pick up speed. “Those are two very different things, don’t you think?” I tell him. “I think they can also go hand in hand,” he counters. I can’t help my breathing as it picks up pace as well now. “Are you saying you’re not attracted to me Akira?” He confidently asks. “I-….” I’m left speechless. His blunt reactions are catching me off guard and I’m not sure how to react to it. Physically, my body is reacting positively to his words and Stars’ purrs through the bond aren’t helping. “I’ll take that as a yes,” he’s full on grinning now, and I fear I might never want him to stop. “You’re extremely confident Noah,” I say as I
I grab my wine glass and force down another sip trying to wash away the sins forming in my head. Noah takes another sip before finally replying, “What if I do like you?” My eyes snap to his. “You don’t even know me,” I say, trying to back track already, my breath faltering. “Do I need to know everything about you to be attracted to you?” His smirk makes my heart rate pick up speed. “Those are two very different things, don’t you think?” I tell him. “I think they can also go hand in hand,” he counters. I can’t help my breathing as it picks up pace as well now. “Are you saying you’re not attracted to me Akira?” He confidently asks. “I-….” I’m left speechless. His blunt reactions are catching me off guard and I’m not sure how to react to it. Physically, my body is reacting positively to his words and Stars’ purrs through the bond aren’t helping. “I’ll take that as a yes,” he’s full on grinning now, and I fear I might never want him to stop. “You’re extremely confident Noah,” I say as I
I grab my wine glass and force down another sip trying to wash away the sins forming in my head. Noah takes another sip before finally replying, “What if I do like you?” My eyes snap to his. “You don’t even know me,” I say, trying to back track already, my breath faltering. “Do I need to know everything about you to be attracted to you?” His smirk makes my heart rate pick up speed. “Those are two very different things, don’t you think?” I tell him. “I think they can also go hand in hand,” he counters. I can’t help my breathing as it picks up pace as well now. “Are you saying you’re not attracted to me Akira?” He confidently asks. “I-….” I’m left speechless. His blunt reactions are catching me off guard and I’m not sure how to react to it. Physically, my body is reacting positively to his words and Stars purrs through the bond aren’t helping. “I’ll take that as a yes,” he’s full on grinning now, and I fear I might never want him to stop. “You’re extremely confident Noah,” I say as I
“What else would you like to know little wolf?” He asked in a slightly playful manner. As the one question that forever aches through my soul burns in my mouth, the server drops off another wine bottle and I hurriedly take it, pouring a huge glass. Noah’s eyebrow did the signature move as he clicked his tongue. “Be careful,” he warns. I take a sip so big my cheeks puffed out with the amount of the liquid taking over my mouth and rapidly sliding down my throat. “Why me?” I finally ask. “Why you what?” A whisper of irritation slid through me, “Why did he choose me?” I study his face as if it holds every answer. His forehead tightened, shadows gathering above his eyes, “I’ll do whatever it takes to find that answer for you Akira, but right now I have no idea,” his answer cracks a little piece of my heart, but I know it’s not his fault, why would he know? “I’m sorry,” he murmurs softly as he reaches for the bottle and pours the same amount I did into his glass. My lips twitch as I force
“To be quite honest, I can’t tell you the last time I ever went on a date,” Noah says. “I just thought, after you asked for steak, that it would be a good idea to get you out of the cabin for a night and give you an opportunity to ask me any questions you might have.” The slight rejection stings but I shove those feelings away. They are not going to do me any good so it’s better to pretend they don’t exist at all and definitely don’t act on them. My mind is racing at a mile a minute now with questions I need to ask, answers I need to know. “Is that why you’re being nice to me now, because I’m a super special turned wolf?” I ask. “You have absolutely no reason to trust me. No reason to believe anything that comes out of my mouth.” I ramble on, my attitude peaking through slightly, “So tell me Alpha Noah, why did you agree to have me “audition” for your pack?” I look at every inch of his face, my eyes roaming over every feature. I watch his jaw clench but his stoic expression remains. H
I stare at myself in the mirror, I look good. Apart from my scars of course. “You’re beautiful Akira, and maybe with the more information we get I can learn to heal you fully,” Star says. I wonder if I really would want my scars healed now. I feel like they show I’m a survivor, which makes me hate them a little less. “You are a survivor,” Star says. “We are survivors,” I add. “I wouldn’t be here without you, and you went through just as much as me,” I sigh. It’s the part of my story I’ll never forget, but it doesn’t mean I’m going to let it define me. The more I learn about my life, the more I’ll be in control of it. There are villains in every story, but I won’t give them more than a chapter in mine. I quickly use the washroom and let the cold water run on my hands for a while trying to cool down before going back out there. As I sit down back at the table I notice there’s a desert in front of my seat. The tiramisu looks absolutely delicious and has my full attention. “I ordered the