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Nilapag ko sa island table ang dalawang pinggan na kinuha ko. Binalikan niya ang niluluto niya. I guess his cooking adobo. Ewan ko lang bakit adobo 'yan, e breakfast naman. "So you're admitting that. Masarap ako?" Tanong niya. He turned off the cooker, and get a bowl to put the adobo. Nagugutom na rin ako. Naamoy ko rin ang niluluto niya. "Hindi ka pa nasabihan dati niyan? Kawawa ka naman..." Sabi ko. I smirked when I saw his confused face. "I know girls like it but they don't really tell me that they like it," aniya. Nilapag niya ang bowl ng adobo sa island table. May kanin na rin roon kaya umupo na ako. "Bakit 'di mo itanong?" I started getting a plate. "What? Why would I ask? I already know..." Oh, mayabang. . . "Ah... Kaya hindi ka makapaniwala na may nagsabi sayo? Psalm, masarap ka..." Sumubo ako ng kanin na sinabawan ko ng sabaw ng adobo. He choked on his drink. "I know, Talliana..." Ako naman ngayon ang na-ubo. Umirap ako. "You don't like it," aniya. Nagtagpo ang kilay ko. Anong ibig sabihin ng lokong 'to? "What?" He looked at me seriously. "You don't like it when you're defeated. You're so competitive," aniya. "What's the point of being defeated when I can win?" My Ate Tar said she admire me for being such a wonder woman between the two of us. Of course, I don't let any argument pass without me as a winner. I opt to win in any argument, as many as possible and as I can. Kasi, kung kaya kong manalo, bakit ako magpapatalo? Tumango siya. Hindi na siya nagsalita matapos iyon. Hindi na rin naman ako umimik. Pagkatapos kumain ay magpresinta akong maghugas ng pinggan pero ang sabi niya ay huwag na daw at may pupunta naman dito para maglinis. Hindi na rin ako nagpilit dahil may hahabulin pa akong family reunion! "Hindi mo naman ako kailangan ihatid. I can walk? Ride a cab? Commute? Kaya ko 'yon. Pinakain mo na ako, ayos na iyon," sabi ko. Naglalakad na kami papunta sa kotse niya. "I can give you a ride, no need for a commute," he said. He opened the passenger seat and waited for me to get in. Bumuntong hininga ako. "This is not a gentleman's doing anymore," I crossed my arms. "Yeah? What do you call this, then?" He crossed his arms too. Umirap ako. "Why don't you tell me?" Lumapit ako sa kanya. Kinalas ko ang pagkaka halukipkip ko sa aking braso at hinawakan ang matigas niyang braso. "Hmm? Are you one of those romantic fuckers who wants to be romantic after the rough fuck? If you are... Trust me, I'm not the girl for that... Ibahin mo ako," I said, my eyes fixed on his. He looked hard in front of me though. He smirked. "You think this is romantic?" Tanong niya. "That's good... Think it like that." Umirap ako. Lumayo ako at pumasok na lang sa passenger's seat. Naiwan ko sa kotse niya ang dalang bag ko kagabi kaya nahanap ko lang rin doon. Kinuha ko ang bag ko at binuksan iyon, nakita ko ang cellphone kong marami na ang notifications. Psalm started driving while I was busy scanning my phone. It ringed. My sister is calling. Bumuntonghininga ako bago iyon sinagot. "Good morning, Lil sis! Ready kana?" Bungad niya. "I'm on the way to my condo," sagot ko. "What? Bakit? Ngayon ka lang uuwi? Saan ka natulog, kung ganoon? Sigurado akong hindi kina Alex!" I smirked. "Got my birthday gift." Hinintay ko munang marealize niya ang sinabi ko. "Oh My Gosh!" She shrieked. "Nabalitaan ko nga! But, I didn't know you had a crush, though? Sino ba ito? I wanna meet that man! Dalhin mo sa reunion!" Umirap ako. "Stop it, Ate. You know I don't do stupid things," sabi ko. "Oh, come on! I just want to spare you from another ball fight of words with Tita Meredith! Gigisahin ka na naman kung bakit wala ka pang boyfriend, sa edad mong 'yan!" Napairap na naman ako. As if I'm too old to not even have a boyfriend at this age? Kakapasa ko lang ng BAR? Bobo ba si Tita Meredith? Well, hindi naman mapagkakaila 'yon. Nakakagulat lang, ganito na pala kalala? "I don't care about her. Hayaan mo siya." I heard her sigh. "Please? Sasabihin ko kay Mama na may dadalhin ka! She'll be happy!" "Stop it, Ate. Hindi ko gagawin 'yan. At isa pa, busy siyang tao," sabi ko. Kahit naman hindi ko close ang taong kasama ko ngayon, halata naman na busy siya. Kanina pa kasi nagri-ring ang phone niya, hindi niya nga lang sinasagot. "Spare time? Sige na! Or, sabihin mo sa akin kung anong pangalan niya?" I had no better choice than the latter, and so I did. I told her. "It's Psalm," sabi ko. I saw Psalm throw me a confused look. "Who's that?" Tanong niya. "Omg! Siya ba iyan? Put me on speaker!" Utos ni Ate Tarla. I put her on speaker. "Hi, Psalm! Ako ang Ate ni Tali! I know this is a bit very unfounded, but I am inviting you to our family reunion! Sasabihan ko rin ang mama namin ni Tali that you're coming!" Inilayo ko agad ang cellphone kay Psalm. Psalm was confused. His driving slowed down. Lumunok ako. Nakakainis ka, ate! "Li, aasahan namin siya ni Mama!" Ani Ate ata agad pinatay ang tawag. "What was that?" Psalm asked. "Nothing. 'Wag mo ng pansinin. Ate was just bluffing," sabi ko. I browsed my phone and saw messages from friends. Alex messaged me, "Galingan mo, girl!" The rest was Congratulations and Happy birthday! A new message popped up. Mama: I'll expect Psalm later, Anak! Ingat kayo. I love you. It was my mother's message. I heaved a sigh. "I'll go," Psalm suddenly said. Nakita kong nakatanaw siya sa cellphone ko. He saw the message of my mother. Napapikit ako. "No need, Psalm. I can tell an excuse," sabi ko. He looked grim, though. Bakit parang galit? "Uh-huh, what excuse?" "That... you're busy?" "I'm not. So, I'll go. Shut it, Talliana. I can go then, I'll go. It's just spare of my time," aniya. He parked in front of my condominium building. Hindi ko man lang namalayan na nandito na pala kami. "You go and pack your clothes. I'll go back here and fetch you. Kukuha lang ako ng gamit sa condo," he said, as if it was casual. Nakanganga lang ako sa kanya. Hindi lang siya iyong romantiko! Makapal pa ang mukha! "Where is the venue, anyway? And I would like to ask some overview," dagdag niya pa. I scoffed. "Hindi mo na kailangan sumama! I can make a proper excuse!" "I will go. I am invited." Bwesit na 'yan! Makapal nga! Invited card pa nga! Kailan pa ako nagdala ng naka one night stand ko sa family reunion?! Potang! "Where is the venue?" Pinanlisikan ko siya ng mata. "Sa resort! Sa Cavite!" Umirap ako. Binuksan ko na ang pinto at padabog na lumabas. Leche naman!I am not kind. I get angry. I have done evil things. I have… manipulated things to make it go my way. I have… cursed every person I hated… I was never kind, and I was never a good person. I have done evil… does that mean, I deserve to live in hell? I am not complaining nor protesting at the current things being thrown at me. The judgements, the accusations, the bad things they throw at me, the… sin I had done… all of it… and being in this certain situation right now, makes me feel… that I deserve it. I deserve the judgement. I deserve not to be loved. I deserve to be left behind. I deserve to… be trash in everybody’s life. I don't deserve good things, only bad things. The video played on a constant loop, while I cried. There were no sounds, but it was clear… that it was me, and Psalm. It was compiled. Like whoever recorded this… and saw this in person… must have witnessed it.. a lot of times, already. My face… looking like I was pleasured and pleased, by how Psalm sla
I value friendship — much more the friendship I have with Alex. We treat each other as sisters, or maybe… it was just me who assumed that. Betrayal isn't her thing— that's the only reason that's keeping me away from the idea of her… actually betraying me. It's a hard pill to swallow. The signs are clearly showing it… and I kept myself blind enough… Wala, e. Siya lang ang kaibigan na meron ako… Hindi ko naman mapipigilang masaktan, ‘di ba? I reported my lost wallet to the police. When I asked the front desk in the company, they said they had found nothing. So, maybe it was taken outside by whoever got it from the inside. And most probably… the person who got it works under the same company…. The odds are big, and it's the most probable scenario. If not, then maybe it's a stranger… ang sama lang at mas pinili niyang nakawan ang pera roon, imbes na isauli. But I also have doubts about it, because the money is from the company. My name was used for the transfer… kaya ako ang naa
“Why did you choose to enter the 13th floor instead of going down further through the stairs?” Mr. Alvaro asked.“Why? I can't?” I asked, too.Even if I don't want to be this rude, and I should have been more recessive to the questions because, in the eyes of these people, I am the culprit. But it's not sitting well with me. The case is not about why I chose to stop by the 13th floor instead of going down further. Hindi ko lang makita ang tamang dahilan.“Answer me, Miss Aracosa…”I sighed as I heard his thundering voice. Hindi siya galit, pero sobrang lalim at animo'y sumisigaw ang speaking voice niya. “I find it hard to go down further. Napagod na ako. You don't expect me to walk down the stairs with my heels on? I came from the damn 15th floor!” He waited for my words to come out full, and I didn't buckle up. Kasi hindi ko talaga makuha ang punto ng tanong na ‘to. Unless the 13th floor is a forbidden floor for the employees… like me? “Look, I don't get why you are asking this
My body froze and the confidence I had earlier slightly buckled. Parang gusto kong umurong at mag isip. Sumigaw at magmura. Tawagan si Alex at humingi ng tulong.But no, I can't do all of that. I cannot buckle up now. Hindi puwede. I know I should have given myself a proper and enough time to think this through, but the thought that the people here are throwing me allegations and worse accusations horrified me. Mr. Almario’s laugh echoed the whole office. The look of every eye inside screams judgment and pity. I felt… embarrassed… humiliated.I looked at Mr. Almario and made myself composed as much as I could.“I hope you don't choke on your laugh and die early, Mr. Almario.” I chuckled, voice low. “I really do…” Tinapunan ko ng tingin ang iba pang katrabaho. Some are avoiding my eye contact as if they are ashamed of judging, and some are holding it in looking so proud they're judging me. I scoffed as I got the letter on my table. It was really a show cause letter. I gripped it t
Confusion and anger filled me in. Confused because she didn't answer my calls when I called her for God knows how many times already! And yet, she answered Psalm with just one call? Anger because I felt… betrayed. Kaibigan ko siya… ‘di ba? Maasahan ko siya… Kaya ko siyang pagkatiwalaan…In fact, I only trusted her, and only treated her as my only friend. My only resource. But… this?I would understand if she's busy, or that she's doing something really important. But how could he answer Psalm's call and ignore mine? Ako ang kaibigan niya, ‘di ba? “Why did she answer your call?!” I shouted after throwing his phone. Sa galit, at sa hindi ko malamang dahilan, kinuha ko ang cellphone niya at pinatay ang tawag bago iyon itinapon. I looked at him with anger in my eyes. I could burn him with my stare right now, if only I could light a fire with my anger.Nakatayo na ako ngayon. I looked down on him, he looked at me… shocked.What? “I don't know….” “Why did she answer your call and igno
Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. I feel like I'm stuck in a memory and it's playing in my head in a loop. Hindi ako makawala. Nilulunod ako ng mga alala na ‘yon.My mother's words I kept with me, I swore to abide, I made it my principle. Maybe… I was not really kind at all. But I can never commit such a mistake… more of a crime.I hate thieves. Tita Meredith is a thief. She accused my mother of her own doing. Ginamit niyang pantakip ang Mama ko para maging biktima siya sa paningin ng mga tao. At ang Mama ko, masama.I can never forget that. I despised that memory. And I made it my driving force… to not be like her. I would never be like her. “Why would they accuse you of stealing? Hindi ka nagnakaw, hindi ba?” Psalm drove us off to my condo.Ewan ko kung tama bang nandito siya gayong wala akong ibang nagagawa kundi ang tumunganga at paulit ulit na isipin kung ano ba talaga ang ginawa. Ano ba talagang nangyayari?It won't sink in to me. Hindi ko kayang tanggapin. Wala akong ninanakaw, kaya