Kabanata 11.1

It wasn‘t just the way he treated me that changed. I also notice a lot in me. I wasn‛t the same. His every move becomes a big deal. My reaction wasn‘t normal. I know from the start that I am too comfortable with his presence, I am used to telling people what I feel, my thoughts and anything but that doesn’t mean that it is always easy for me. Even with the fact that I like open communication for what I feel most of the time I still find it hard to just let it out, I couldn’t even open up sometimes due to shyness and fear but with him... it’s different. 

It is not a bad thing. I actually like this characteristic of mine because I get to tell people to shut their mouths when I’m uncomfortable and not tolerate my uneasy feelings but everytime I stare at him a pit of dread is forming. I know deep down that there is something growing and with his magical eyes I might confess. 

I can’t do that. 

Alam ko ang nararamdaman niy