3 hours later After the day we've had, I'm happy to be in bed with Kane. We can finally relax and let the stress of the day fall off. "Well, that's done," Kane says pressing send on the house offer email. "Now we wait." He says looking over at me. I smile and nod."I have to admit I'm nervous about this one. It's such a beautiful house. I can only guess how many people want to call it home." I say and he touches my arm. "It's ours. I knew it the moment I saw it." He says confidently. "And I know you felt the same way when you saw it." He says and I nod in agreement. "I knew it but I don't want to get my hopes up," I say feeling even more nervous. "I know it would hurt if we don't get it," I say letting him on my fears. I loved that house with my whole heart. I wish we were sleeping in that beautiful main bedroom now. "Baby, there's no way we are not getting the house. We're raising our family in that house." He says getting excited. "I wish I had the same faith as you," I say an

This is my last week at work. I am sitting at my desk and looking through my emails. I need to make sure that all of my admin is in order before I go on maternity leave. I need to make sure that I don't have any forgotten client work or any unprocessed invoices. My due date is a week from now and I know it's time to ease into my mommy era. I can't put it off anymore. It's time to prepare myself mentally, emotionally, and physically and I can't do that if I'm still in work mode. I have to admit I'm terrified of the idea of not working for over three months. I haven't taken time off in forever so I don't know how to take time off. I worked hard for the last nine months to make sure I wouldn't have to worry about making money but I'm still nervous. I have enough saved up to make sure I can take time off for more than six months. But I'm used to having money come in. It's going to take a lot of adjustment when the money stops. Of course,

"We're going home today," I say looking down at my daughter who is sleeping peacefully in my arms. I've been staring at her for hours. I'm in awe of her, she has the most beautiful eyebrows I have ever seen. I softly run my thumb over her left brow and she opens her eyes. We stare at each other for a moment, and I silently say a little prayer. I pray that I become an amazing mother to her. I pray to have the strength to pour all of my love and wisdom into her. I pray that she feels my love and adoration every waking moment of her life. "Your father is such an amazing man. He made sure that we have a beautiful home to go to." I say and she closes her eyes. "Your father is a very good man," I say and she smiles. "I know he's going to be an amazing dad to you. He's already an amazing father to your brother." I say getting emotional. Kane is exceptional. I can't imagine having this moment with any other man. He is caring, thoughtful and beautiful. I marvel at how much care he's shown m

"What's going on in here?" Kane says walkinhg through our bedroom door. He walks over to the bed and he sits in front of me. He looks at his son holding Renee and I can see all the love for them in his eyes. I stare at him and in this moment I know what love should be. "What do you thinks about ypur sister?" He asks Junior. "I think she's beautiful." Junior says still staring at Renee. "And she's so small." Junior says looking up at his father. "That's usually how we all start out."Kane says smiling at him. "You were this small once upon a time, and look at you now. A big brother." Kane says and Junior smiles nodding. "I know, this is exciting," Junior says looking at me. He smiles beaming at me. "Yeah? What are you most excitded about?" Kane asks excitedly. "I can't wait to play with her, teach her all the things I know how to do and I can't wait to tell everyone that I have a beautiful baby sister." He says smiling happily. "I think she's going to love having you as a big

I open my eyes and look at the watch on the bedside table. The red glow of the numbers declares that it's 3 am. I can feel Shalom tossing and turning in the bed behind me. I listen for the sound of the baby feeding but there is none. Renee is sleeping, I turn around and look at her. Her back is to me, I place my hand on her back and rub it gently. "Can't sleep?" I ask into the silent dark room. "Yeah, I can't seem to." She says turning over to face me. "Is there anything I can do to help?" I ask and I feel her hand rest on my chest. "I don't think so." She says breathing slowly. "Do you need some water, milk or juice? I can get you something to drink." I say already getting out of bed. I turn on the side lamp so I can see where I'm going. "No." She says grabbing my arm. She pulls me back to the bed and she wraps herself around me the moment I am back in place opposite her. " Don't go. You're perfect right