Lahat ng Kabanata ng I'D SAY I LOVE YOU, BUT THEN... : Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 17

Quickly I crouched, leaned forward past his arms and walked away to the changing room. My instincts kicked in when I felt him following close behind me. Even though I wanted to run away and escape him, I knew very well it could get ugly and I'd end up embarrassing myself. "So you are just going to watch me change or what?" I asked once we stepped in the changing room. "Remember when I told you in the shower to let me help?" He asked coming closer, eyes fixed on mine. "So... Are you going to help me change?" I whispered jokingly. Whatever was going on in his mind, I could tell he was nowhere being a normal guy. He was more like a physho or maybe worse. Slightly a smile that turned into a smirk then it became dangerous. "Do you...want me...to."He dragged. Slowly, I pushed him out and locked myself in. The nerve of this guy. He was beyond any expectation I had for the rich. It was so impossible to believe that this world could ever produce such a perverted and despicable

The soft glow of the bedside lamp cast shadows across the room, making everything feel smaller, more intimate. But the space between us felt impossibly wide.Truth be told. Here I was messing around with her knowing clearly she was already with someone else. Just like that reality hit in. She can never be mine. She already belongs to someone else. Watching her guiltiness flushed all over her face. Slightly she loosen her arms around me. She hadn’t spoken in a while, and the silence was suffocating. "Please don't. Let me savior in what you have to offer. I might never get to hold you or be held by someone else." I stated. For a while there we were both silent. I could hear the distant hum of the city outside, but inside this room, the only sound was the unsteady rhythm of my breathing. Everything I dreamt of came crumbling down when I finally came to terms that she was no more than a night stand for me. She was everything a man would ever want but she belonged to someone else. “

I pulled back, led her to the bed and sat us down. For a second there I stared at thin air thinking, she slouched a little while asking about what I was thinking. I had my hands fidgeting with the edge of a bunny doll ear, my words carefully measured but brimming with unspoken truths. "It's... it's been strange, these past two weeks," I began, my gaze flickering between her eyes and the doll, as if afraid of what she might see if I held her gaze too long. "I've been thinking a lot-about everything, about us. I mean, not us, but..."I dragged trailing off, My voice faltering under the weight of what I wasn't saying. A nervous chuckle escaped me as I rubbed the back of my neck, heart pounding against the walls of restraint. "I just-look Nadia, I don't know how to say this without sounding more ridiculous, but you've been on my mind more than I'd like to admit." My voice softened. "I don't want to make things harder for you... or for me. But I had to see you again." I stopped, bitin