Ambil Nafasku Pergi Novels & Stories

I suck in a sharp breath and instantly bring my hands up to wipe the tears for the second time. “ Let’s go. ” I huff. “ let’s go back home right this moment. I don’t want to stay here. ”

and never coming back I take a deep breath and close my eyes for a second. ‘I want this’ I keep on telling myself, ‘I want this’. I won't be forced to stay or do what I'm told. I'll be free once again and this time, I won't make any mistakes. I nod at Fione one last time, before turning around and walking away. Unfortunately for me, I don't get very far.

She takes me deeper, a little bit at a time. ‘Breathe through your nose, and swallow when I hit the back of your throat.’ I encourage over the link, my brain unable to make the words come out of my mouth. I can feel her desire for me to take control, and I hesitate for a moment, before taking the reins.

“I need some air.” Ignoring their calls, I walked away from the table, the laughter and music fading behind me. Each step felt heavier than the last, and I pushed through the crowd, searching for an exit. The hall felt suffocating, a reminder of everything I lacked. I stepped outside into the cool night air, the stars twinkling above—a stark contrast to the turmoil inside.

As if to understand what I need at the moment, Neylan increased the pace till my load shoots onto the floor. Leaving me gasping for air.

NADIA’S POV The bag is already packed. Not properly, not neatly, just things shoved in fast, like my hands were moving before I even fully decided, like some part of me already knew this was coming and didn’t bother asking for permission. My chest feels too tight. Every breath shallow, like I’m not getting enough air no matter how hard I try, and it’s starting to feel suffocating. “Okay… we’re fine,” I whisper, my voice low, unsteady, my fingers pressing against the edge of the table just to feel something solid. “We just leave, that’s it… it’s not a big deal.”

No no no. I wiped my nose with the back of my hand and unlocked it with trembling fingers. “I’m coming back home in 30 minutes.” My soul left my fucking body. “Fuck. FUCK. Oh my God.”

“I’m going for a walk.” “No,” he steps forward. “It’s not safe.” “Well I need some air.” I say, dashing to the door and yanking it open. “I won’t go far.” “I said no.” He yells but I don’t care. I can’t stay in here. Goddess knows I need air or I’ll lose it. So I walk out. And I don’t look back.

I feel completely exposed, like I'm naked and everyone's eyes are on me, judging all my imperfections. But I know I can't hide. I have to face this school, these people, these crowded hallways. Just like all the others. So I duck back in a corner, breathing in through my nose then slowly exhaling through my mouth. I do it two more times, telling myself to suck it up because sucking it up is what I do on a daily basis.

It’s time. My heart stutters. I lean down and press a soft kiss to Hermes’s forehead. “I have to go pee,” I whisper. “You should let me go.” “Mm…” he hums, arms tightening around me. “Should I come with you?” I shake my head gently, easing his hands from my waist. “No, Hermes. I’ll handle this one.” Slowly, reluctantly, he lets me go. I slide off the bed and grab my phone, my feet silent against the floor. The screen glows.