Ambil Nafasku Pergi Novels & Stories

Every bite felt like swallowing glass. When the plate was clean, I set it aside and forced the words out before courage could desert me. “I think we should go for a walk.” I paused, then added the fatal part. “Outside the border.” He turned slowly, eyebrows lifting so high they nearly disappeared into his hairline. “Outside the border?” His voice was calm, but disbelief edged every syllable. “It’s almost midnight, Nina.” “I know.” I met his gaze and tried to look innocent instead of desperate. “I just… I need air. Real air. Away from walls and eyes. We can talk and actually talk. Or we can go another time if—”

She begs and after forcing air down my lungs, I put my teeth around the spacer and seal my lips. Pressing down the canister for me, I breath in slowly and deeply, before holding my breath. Pushing everything off, I wipe my tears and try breathing steadily on my own. “You are weak. Too weak for the job. Rest and get your ticket to leave for Korea. Settle there and do something you would like to do.” My father say and turns his back at me as he proceeds to walk away. I want to laugh but they come out as serial coughs before they eventually evolve into hysteric laughs that causes him to halt his steps.

𝗜 𝗰𝗹𝗼𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝘆 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝘀, 𝘀𝗶𝗴𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘀 𝗜 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝘆 𝗲𝗹𝗯𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝘂𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘀. 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗿 � �𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗺𝗲. "Nica, 𝗐hat am I going to do?"

I get out before I realize what I am doing. “Where are you going? What’s wrong?” Ms.Raven asks. “Nothing, I just . . . I need uhh. To get fresh air,” I mumble. I know how stupid that sounds but I don’t care. “Be right back, I just need a second.” I march away quickly before she can follow me.

Suffocating. And suddenly all the lost years rush in at once. Birthdays missed. Christmas mornings without him. School plays with an empty seat. The man who was supposed to be there … wasn’t. And now he’s here. Bleeding on a filthy floor. Apologizing. Breathe. In. Out. In. Out. My lungs refuse to cooperate. Each inhale feels too small. Each exhale is shaky and insufficient. “Mel, stay calm. Think of the bean.” Kiara’s hand presses firmly onto my shoulder. Grounding. Anchoring.

“Please, my baby. We can talk a-and whatever you need, okay? Whatever you want, I’ll do it,” “What I want is for all of you to stay away from me,” I said walking around the crowd. When I spotted the bathroom on my right, I went to relieve myself first, eager to get back to the hotel. I practised my breathing exercises while I was alone. I’m just going to walk out those doors and not look back. This isn’t my home. It never was.

His gaze is steady. "Just breathe," he whispers. "I'm breathing. I'm fine. I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm completely fine. I'm totally fine. I'm perfectly fine." "You're not. You're holding your breath. You're gripping my arm like I'm going to disappear. You're white as a sheet. You're shaking. You're about to pass out. You're about to run." I exhale. Slowly. Deliberately. I force my shoulders to drop. I force my jaw to unclench. I force my hands to relax. I force my heart to slow.

“Take my hand and show me what you like to do with yourself,” I can hear my breathing. Loud and rough. Like I’ve just gone for a jog. But I can’t stop now…

I splash cold water on my face, do my best to fix my makeup with shaking hands, and take a deep breath. Time to go back out there and face whatever comes next.

Yessssss promotion. I wish I could stay with these people they are so nice, but I've got a job and I can't leave Nessa all alone. Shoot I haven't talked to Nessa ahhh anyways I'm gonna see her soon. I stood up and brought out my suitcase I took the Jean and crop top I'm gonna put on then I packed the rest things. I took my bathe and got ready, I dragged my suitcase down the stairs I have a morning flight . "I'll miss you aunty " Macy said crying